Last night I met up with my male friend from High School. I wore some Estratetraenol, but last night was so strange I have no clue whether to credit the reactions to the guy’s personality, or to the pheromones. I think I’m just going to leave some notes on here so I can figure out how this works.
Last night, when I was getting ready to go, I dabbed on some Estratetraenol. I don’t know how much. The original concentration is 5 mg/5 mL, and it’s impossible for me to dose it at all. I might have to get an atomizer and do a dilution of my own so I can figure out dosages (any tips on this would be much appreciated. I have access to 190 proof ethanol). Anyway, I covered it with Vanilla Musk by Coty. When we first met up at the fireworks stand to buy some fireworks, he gave me a hug, but we always gave each other hugs in high school so I didn’t think much of that.
When we were finished buying what we wanted to buy, we decided to go bowling. We kept our distance and nothing much happened there. He did pay for my half when I was intending to pay for myself. (Side note: he also insisted on paying for the fireworks).
When we were finished bowling, we went to the gas station and bought ourselves a fountain pop and stood outside and talked. It was cruise night in my home town, so we watched the classic cars and police cruisers drive by. When we got bored standing around, we got into his car ('86 RX 7. . . I think) so it was perfect for cruise night. While we were driving around, we started thinking about where we wanted to set off the fireworks. We couldn’t really in town where all the neighbors would get mad at us (people are extremely intolerant here) so I took him to my parents house in the country to set them off. While we were waiting for my parents to come home, we sat down and talked to my sister and her fiance. We had a good conversation, but that is mostly because my sister’s fiance is hilarious.
When my parents came home after dark, we set off the fireworks for everyone. Again we kept our distance, but I highly doubt he would try something in front of my parents.
When we were finished setting off fireworks, we had to go look for the dog because the fireworks scared him off. We were walking around the ranch talking about life, catching up. When we gave up on the search, we went back to the house. My mom came out and said not to worry about the dog, so we sat on the front porch talking. He told me that times where he was living were really rough on him. He went to a technical school to get a degree in computers, but ended up dropping out because he was very much in debt and learned more about programming in work than he did in school. He had bad luck with girlfriends. His high school girlfriend dumped him for one of his friends suddenly (they’re engaged now). All his girlfriends after him did not last long, and they didn’t really seem very. . . sane? They were a little crazy and gave him a lot of crap. Anyway, after his high school girlfriend left him, he decided to start looking for his high school friends because he was pretty messed up afterwards. He said I was one of the people he was looking for, as well as some other girls that he got along with. He dated one of those girls (who happens to by my best friend from high school) for two weeks, but she evidently did something to him. I do not know what, and I did not ask. I just know that I lost a lot of respect for her the last time I saw her, so I wouldn’t be too surprised.
It was getting cold outside, and none of us had our sweaters, so he put his arm around me and we cuddled. I did not think much of that, because he would have still done that when we were in high school. But we ended up holding hands later on. When he was about ready to leave (after 3 hours of sitting on the porch) he asked me if I was interested in a casual relationship. I told him I didn’t know, because he still lived pretty far from me when we are back to the cities where we live. I told him I would think about it. For a few minutes before he left, he was kind of bowing his head with his eyes closed and kept holding on to me. I remembered seeing that in my ex boyfriend at the beginning of our relationship when we had a little talk about him not being very intimate with me after three weeks in the relationship. I had felt like friends who kissed, and he told me he was a little afraid because all his girlfriends weren’t very good to him. After we talked it out and he realized I was not going to hurt him like all his other girlfriends, he held on to me, bowed his head and closed his eyes, just like my high school friend was doing.
A little bit later, I walked with him out to his car. We hugged a few more times, and he told me to think about a relationship. I felt so bad for him that I gave him a little peck on his neck (the only place I could really reach him). After I did that, he leaned over and gave me a small kiss on the lips. Then we said goodbye and drove off.
I have no clue how much to credit the pheromones on that one. I will hopefully see him again today, so I’ll wear the pheromones again and see what happens.