I’m writing a log of my experience that I will post later.
Let me tell you about myself. I am 25, in college, and I’m kind of a lone wolf who loves to socialize…every once and a month…mostly I need me time. I am very sensitive to natural scents. Like, I can smell when women are ovulating and roughly what point in the week they are. I can also smell when women are horny. My exes know that about me, and if I ever hang out with any of them I can totally bust them and it always turns into sex ![]()
In any case, I’ve never had friends that were girls. Guys seem to complain about being in the friend zone…I’ve never been there, don’t know what its like. Any time a girl goes after me its to be my girlfriend. Its been like that since 2nd grade…I had a “gf” who I was “dating” which meant walking to class together holding hands ![]()
Anyway, most girls seem to hate me and think I’m a jerk, usually in a bad way, but my natural personality is contemplative and buddha-like, but I’m also very sexual and a huge perv, and I’m always checking out the T&A. I assume I have a naturally strong pheromone signature, people seem to react to me strongly, and I have a strong presence, even though I generally do a lot of listening and don’t say much.
So, my goal is to bring out my natural expressiveness in a different way. Part of the reason I keep quiet is I like to joke, and for whatever reason I very rarely get laughs, and usually I’m taken wrong. So I just laugh by myself whenever I think of something funny, and will wait to say something if somebody asks, which never happens ![]()
So, my goal with pheromones is to alter my own experience. I tried this before, I ordered 4 to-go bottles from Androtics a year or two ago… I used Ammo all of one time and then my roommate stole them all (I think, fuckin tricky bastard, he was). I slept with it on and showed it off in the morning. Blah. I don’t really expect anything to change as far as how people look at me, I’m going more for feeling comfortable and confident.
Two day journal:
Thursday, August 28th
10:30 am. I should get my order tomorrow according to FedEx. So, I am going to use today as a “control day”. I fish in my junk drawer and retrieve a bottle of California for Men, a sort of cowboy cologne that smells strong and is quite masculine in a brick-laying blue collar sort of way. A few dashes under the arms and on the wrists and crotch, and I’m on my way to school.
I walk to english class. I am paying more attention to people around me than I usually do. I lock stares with the one girl, and she breaks eye contact after 2 seconds or so. Cool. I light up a cig before class starts, and a girl comes out and lights up and does a shy smile while looking at the ground, and looks toward me a little out of the corner of her eye. I’m not sure, but I’m convinced I’m pretty good looking, perhaps intimidatingly so. I just get so little overt positive attention from girls I wonder sometimes. I work out every day. No one has validated this except my last ex, who was smoking hot. Actually all my exes are smoking hot as far as I’m concerned. So, I dunno.
But however I act or what I wear I get eyeballed every once in awhile. Whenever it happens it makes me nervous and shaky, like they’re projecting their intimidation on to me and testing me on it. Whatever it is it makes me very not interested
Hence my exes are generally clueless people, because that is what I’m comfortable with. Every time I get indications and pursue it, I get a no, it seems like a lot of girls out here use that to go back and brag how I asked them out and follow up by talking about how it was so “creepy”…tearing people down seems to be a way to boost a girl’s social status. So, I just ignore subtle girly hints since they seem to indicate both clinical psychosis and a need for an ego boost at my expense. My success so far involves an overt intervention from the gf’s bff, or one of my friends mentioning that we’d make a good couple in front of her, etc. The only girl I approached myself in HS ended up going off the handle, fucking all kinds of people, doing drugs and ended up in rehab and taking crazy pills for the rest of her life. While I dated her she seemed cool and easygoing until she stood me up at prom. Ugh.
12:30 pm So I get to english class and sit through lecture. This one hot freshman girl stole this other hot sophomore girl’s seat next to me, and she crossed her legs and had her foot like 6 inches away from my leg the whole time. She has this odd robot stare and did not move the entire class, not even a little budge, except this huge fake-looking smile when I asked her about some notes I missed. I wouldn’t say its a 6th sense but I can call it when someone is on crazy pills, and haven’t been proven wrong yet.
Not saying that being on crazy pills is a bad thing, its just baggage that should be avoided unless its a trait you share with someone. People who need medication tend to put on a face to get through their lives, and when the demon comes out from time to time, what also comes out is self-destruction, and emotionally abusing the people they’re with, which can have a cumulative effect over time. And they will go on to bear children with a similar handicap. Its no different than alcoholism.
Anyway, the rest of my classes went on without any unusual or interesting incedents. I got a really huge smile from the (allegedly) gay man at the drive through window at Wendy’s.
Friday, August 28th
12:00pm
Woke up early, got ready, fell back asleep. Its noon. And I was supposed to be at work at 9. Oh well, I got too many classes to keep a job, but he probably won’t fire me.
I check the front door, and I spotted a fedex package. cracked it open, and saw a wafer of some kind, thought it was something for my dad, who is an electrician. Left it on the kitchen table. I checked the tracking number and it said delivered, so I went back to take a closer look and found the wafer was a little candy square
I enjoyed my chocolate breakfast and opened up the bubble wrap. Three bottles? Ok, a little freebie Instant Honesty with my Alpha A314 and Spaceland. Cool.
I have work today, so I suppose I will try the A314 first. I’m going to try two drops on wrist and a little on the chin.
I’m smelling the bottle…I love the smell, its like fresh laundry, and the scent makes my skin tingle like a Ford V-16 at 9000 RPMS…which is not that much, I’m not into cars, but I do respect the power of the moment. The bottle reminds me of a dropper that I had for Frankincense essential oil, but blue.
1:15 PM
I wandered off pacing…anyway, scrach that, no a314 today, I’m going to try one spray of spaceland since I’m going to work unshaven and unshowered, and very late. I don’t stink, but I’m going to smell like bed, so I think I could use something more obscene to get me through the day.
1:20 Pm
Another pacing session. Damn I’m late.
1:23 PM
Actually scratch that again. I’m dressed now, but I’m thinking that I need to look serious and not like a goofball so I don’t get fired. A314 it is. Putting two drops on now.
1:25 PM
I sat there for like a minute and the two drops shot out of the bottle real quick onto my wrist. Tilted in time though. Luckily I have some experience with these from the Frankincense or I probably would have messed it up. Rubbed my wrists, then my chin, then my neck. Off to work.
1:31 PM
I’m in love the smell.This stuff is definately messing with my head! In a good way as far as I can tell. I kind of “feel” scents and its more than the laundry scent, its has a “gritty” masculine feel to it that is pleasant and puts me at ease.
I stopped by the gas station and got a drink and some smokes. I couldn’t help but smile and feel interested in chatting, and it was easy to move with what the attendant had to say. Normally not into small talk. I feel very positive and it feels natural to have a big confident smile and impart confidence with eye contact and off-hand compliments. Which is totally not me, but I’m digging it.
1:58 PM
Holy. Hell.
I walked into work with a lit cigarette…oooops. The sauce is subtle but quite wicked. I have no sense of self-consciousness. Luckily nobody seemed to notice, and I went outside to finish it. I feel really confident. I’m really digging this.
5:45 PM
Just waltzed out of work. I have a 2lb el cheapo netbook I’m typing this all out on, in traffic right now.
Went very well, nothing too intense. Boss seemed a little edgy toward me but mellowed out after a little while, and didn’t say anything about being late surprisingly. Later he asked me, “did you get laid or something?” I said “eh, maybe…” at let it hang at that
6:16 PM
At home now, smoking a cigarette in my back porch, beautiful cool day.
I had stopped by Taco Bell, and the lady who was preparing my order looked pissed off, and slowly as she was preparing stuff and collecting money, etc, she looked like she eased up, and she cracked a smile as I took the bag and drove off. Probably because I was grinning. Oh man, I was toying with a macho fantasy of reaching in and grabbing her crotch, and I was probably eyeing her deviously. Ususally I feel secretly embarassed about that kind of thing but this time I felt confident and a little flirty.
I even made small talk with my neighbor when I was pulling in. Me. Small talk. I can’t remember the last time I’ve held up my end of the conversation. I asked him how he was doing, and we talked for a second about the nice cool weather, and I mentioned the 34 degree highs up in the north east recently. (I’m from the south) Me talking about weather without rolling my eyes is something else. Very good mood.
I guess in synopsis how the sauce made me feel today was it kinda cleared my head and gave me a subtle but steady, positive, masculine, and encouraging feeling to focus on, develop, and spread. It really takes off when I’m around people. Actually the times I was alone at my desk and in my car sucked because I feel like being around people, sharing my positive vibe. Weird. The only time that happens for me is right after snorting…uh…pepsi (u know what I mean) or getting a blowjob. Except now I don’t feel guilty about it ![]()
I guess I was expecting a confidence boost, but the outgoing positive effects were surprising! I’ll be writing more later as I experiement more.