As I said before, THANK YOU TO ALL WHO WISH TO KEEP VOLUNTEERING SOME INSIGHT TO MY SITUATION… I dont really understand what causes this reclusive reaction… I know it isnt fear of rejection, because most of the time I get told by several of their friends that they wanna hook up with me… (I call it CHARLIE BROWN SYNDROME!) I guess because I somehow fear that I may somehow trigger that person to lose interest in me, that I reiterate some (hopeless) personality buster, so that at least i know that as long as I retreat, they will usually find even more attraction to me… The problem though, is that is what most women would call “A guy running game” on a lady… Thus the “Player” status, but that is most DEFINITELY NOT the scenario… A “Player” goes on many dates, and many different encounters with random women he/she seeks… That would be the exact opposite of what my lifestyle entails! I would LOVE to go on dates, and would do black market deals for my non vital organs, if I even produced 1 or 2 encounters WITH THE SAME PERSON A WEEK!, if that would predefine these results!.. Thats why I am here… I found that BREAKING THE ICE is my Kryptonite, which sabotages my events!.. I am able to talk to that person easily if I dont think they have romantic feelings towards me… and then when/if i find out that they do, it is usually from a 3rd party source (reliable though… eg. Best friend, or close acquaintance of them), which would put the ball in my court to initiate the Escalation of me and that person’s current status… Thats where I put the ball down, sneak behind the other team members, and escape out of the emergency exit, (so to speak)… Its like I have wanted to be recruited by that person… but once I am given the mic to make my acceptance speech, I get stage fright because —I have to ask/offer/initiate the next move— The 4 long terms that i have been in, I have realized that the girl took the reigns and made the approach towards a “more than friends” status increase… I am TOTALLY cured of my stage paralysis when that happens!.. Then I am freed to be myself, and continue generating a bond with them… ( I swear just hearing and reading myself typing all of this, makes me feel like I should be laying down on a couch, with a glass of water, IN A STRAIGHT JACKET, while some person with an accent, glasses, and a clipboard continues to ask questions and document my responses, so he can provide research data on THE MOST IRRATIONAL BEHAVIORAL PATTERNS OF “WIERD ANOMALIES!”) 
I plan to purchase some product(s) in order to establish some Magnetic Field around myself that will cause ladies i encounter to ALWAYS break the ice, and make the first move… (When that product is synthesized I will be the head spokesman, and cover model for all advertisements for its discovery! 
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Dj Beat Breaker
Christian
----- No “Game”? Use Pheromones with “The Mystery Method”
As Featured in the NY Times Bestseller “The Game” by Neil Strauss -----
( I was referred to purchase this book by a girl I had a crush on for almost 2 years, who during that entire time wanted me to ask her out or even just spend time alone with her so we could get closer… WTF?!? The worst part is I KNEW SHE LIKED ME THE WHOLE TIME, YET I COULDNT ADVANCE… Thus she eventually lost interest, and then I told her how much i had the largest crush on her, and didnt even flinch to expose that to her… And yes, I immediately went to a Barnes and Noble, and made them track down a copy of the book I could purchase ABSOLUTELY within the hour before they closed… ((The book told me so many things about myself in the first 100 pages, that I ceased to finish it, … carry it with me everywhere i go… and persist NOT to continue reading it, because ALL I WANT TO REVEAL FROM IT IS ROSS JEFFRIES ART OF NLP! I think that would be what would IMMUNIZE me from the paralysis!)) :o
Well I guess as a new “Thinking outside the box” idea, I landed here hoping to find out WHY and WHAT will help me in my forlorn love quest… Brief but detailed run down… I am a significantly popular BreakBeat DJ in Dallas, TX… I was born and raised here, but have traveled extensively… I am by far no way a player in any sense, but I get portrayed as such, because of my distant attitude towards females I am genuinely attracted to… I have had 4 long term relationships, and each ended in heart crushing failure, thus strengthening my defensive yet open discussion of my current problem… I meet many girls on a steady basis, but most I dont even give a second thought about possible relationship! I am great at detecting what would be real attraction, and what is just another way to “Move Up” in the social ladder… My problem is when I sense real attraction, I tend to clam up and break communication if i am attracted to them also! VERY POORLY PLAYED GAME OF CHESS… Strategy is not present here! I am a college graduate from Texas Tech, and am told to have “very interesting” topics and communication skills… (especially by the ones i am running away to hide in the corner from… WIERD!!) This keeps me from a very serious goal i have which is to hopefully find someone to share in my fun lifestyle, and claim their rightful place by my side as my Queen! Anyways… I am a very open person, so please ask any questions if interested, or drop any pointers if it compels you to do so… Look forward to hopefully have found the place to answer & solve my dilema…
well thanks to all for input… I cant wait for my first order to arrive and be tested… Just waiting for my GC… 