Awww, thanks Steve! Maybe I need to get a pink cape with a big pink A? 
Why I chose the components of this combo:
MX300 can make me an irritable bitch, but it also elevates my status in other people’s eyes (the standard effect). I usually don’t use it because of its effect on me, as I said, but I figured I needed all the worship I could get. I didn’t want sexy at all, and I’ve never been able to turn MX134/300 sexual unless I loaded it down with cops.
P103, on me, doesn’t give me the yippee yahoo (TAC does, however). P103 brightens my mood, though, and lessens tension. I really needed that as when I get stressed (which I’ve already been over the past few weeks due to work), my neck and shoulders hurt from being in a constant state of contraction. P103 is like a massage therapist in a bottle.
P87 makes me not care about what I’m feeling. I’m able to focus more (never tried TAF, though maybe I should to contrast these two), corrall my thoughts, and set emotions aside. When I’m stressed/upset, my thoughts are all over the place, mostly focusing on whatever it is making me stressed/upset. P87 has been a great help on this front. Perhaps P87 activates the rostral cingulate cortex, which helps suppress emotional response to negative stimuli?
So my theory on mixing these was:
- I wanted a truckload of respect and reverence, so MX300.
- I wanted to feel better mentally (uplifted) and physically (relaxed). P103.
- I wanted to not be overly emotional about the situation and think clearly when it came to handling my boss and anyone else I needed to speak to about it. P87.
I think this mix worked extremely well and succeeded in doing what I asked of it. I did wonder how the P103 and P87 would work together, if they would be single players or combine to form Voltron-emone and do something entirely unexpected. Thursday morning, I didn’t care. I thought I was as good as out the door so it didn’t matter. The end result was something akin to what I can only describe as zen.
I tried this same combo again today, and the result was exactly the same. Stressors were present, but I was able to effectively deal with them without getting overwhelmed and wanting to throw my hands up in frustration. I’m going to continue to experiment with this next week, to see if the self-effects are sustainable. Neither yesterday nor today did I personally encounter my boss. Any communication I had with her was via e-mail, as it is going to be from now on as she has a habit of conveniently “forgetting” important things you tell her.
I think a P103/P87 mix would be good to try for meditation. I usually meditate for stress reduction (haven’t been able for a month or so, though. Bad me), and I wonder if it would enhance the experience. I suspect it might.