p96, Test 7
P96 - Test 7 (Monday)
60mcg
Grapefruit scent
Group of new friends I’m just getting to know (roughly 9 ppl)
I hadn’t yet tried p96 in a situation with people I didn’t already know real well. I’ve had great results in the past, so I took the opportunity to try something new. I’m just getting to know this group of people, so it’s a great way to test reactions in an environment where social roles haven’t been established yet (at least not on my end; they’ve mostly known each other for a while).
So we all got together to hang out on a Monday evening. I’ve used MX335 in this group before, but I’ll post on that later. There’s a guy I’m majorly into, but he rarely shows up. Let’s call him “Soccer Dude”. He’s a goal keeper for a local soccer (football) team. It’s a major bummer that I never know when I’m gonna see him, because I plan on asking him out next time I see him. His roommate comes regularly, though. His name is…um…“Music Dude”. He’s a musician.
The dilemma is this: yes, I majorly have a thing for Soccer Dude, but he rarely comes around. I assume it’s because of his work schedule (he’s an EMT), but I haven’t asked many pointed questions, because I don’t want to feed the rumor mill. Also, I realize that Music Dude is developing a thing for me. He’s a really cool guy, and we get along awesomely, but he’d probably be my third choice of guy to go for right now. And since he’s roommates with my first choice, I REALLY don’t want to let things get complicated. I’ve been carrying IS/A with me any time I might see Soccer Dude, planning to blast him with magic fumes. But I have to be careful to not wear it if only Music Dude is around without Soccer Dude.
So since I wasn’t going to bust out the IS/A on Monday until I knew who would be present, I didn’t want to walk in there phero-naked (and freshly showered). I was considering going for MX335 again (will post later about my prior test), but then I remembered that I hadn’t tried p96 on these guys yet. I learned a major lesson from this experience.
If you recall, my previous tests had been in the environment of either people I was good friends with, or people I had at least known for a long time. p96 does not shine in group settings where there’s not a well-established level of familiarity and comfort. Even though we got into some great conversations and people started opening up, there was (from my perspective) still a lack of the type of connection needed for p96 to work its magic. The only solid effect that I noticed was that I felt really vulnerable and unsure of myself. Like the p96 was causing me to feel exposed, but the environment wasn’t quite familiar enough for that type of exposure to facilitate bonding.
There were a few positive moments, though. I had a half-hour car ride up there with a friend (she can be “Fangirl”; when I first met her, she apparently had heard a lot about me, and was all ga-ga to meet me. That happens to me sometimes. I don’t really get it, and it kinda weirds me out. But with time, she calmed down and we actually became friends. Also, she is a total fangirl geek about stuff like Doctor Who and Sherlock). I was about a half hour late meeting up with her, and I was worried she would be pissed. She wasn’t happy, but I think the p96 melted away her negative feelings. We were talking really in-depth in no time.
And throughout the night, Music Dude showed me less attention than he had the previous week. He started a little stronger toward the beginning, but waned over time. I’m not sure if this was a p96 effect (at the very least, it was definitely not attracting him), or if it was my lack-of-interest body language.
Also, around the 4-hour mark, all but 4 people had left. Fangirl and I were talking with another girl, and she started opening up about some really painful stuff she was dealing with. She even broke down into tears. I think that maybe she had been feeling the p96 vulnerability throughout the night, and then finally responded to it when she felt the environment was smaller and safer. 2 other girls had gone into the kitchen to talk, and it turns out that tears were shed during that convo, too. I’m gonna say that’s probably not a coincidence.
I’ve tried p96 in a more public hangout environment with a similar circle of people, but I didn’t report on it because I didn’t see any results. I think I now understand why. P96 seems to do best when it’s in a more intimate, emotionally safe environment. If it’s a more casual situation, it’ll show up as timidity/vulnerability. So use with caution!
Post 106 is the one I’m referring to.
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