First I wore this was several weeks back and I didn’t think I had any results.
Seeing that I had half a to-go left, I decided to try it at work again – and then I noticed that it was a bit of a repeat day and started wondering , what was the connection? What am I experiencing here? Deja vue?
I had sprayed once (12.5 mcgs) on my upper chest at 8:00am when I arrived at work. A little later I noticed that I was more aware of colors and my environment in general. Work is bland and dry.
At about 10:00 I sprayed again and that’s when I noticed similarities of my previous attempt at testing this P87. I was more detached from feelings, distant and analytical.
At noon I went to the burger drive thru and stopped at a convenience store. I was direct and efficient – connected the dots in proper sequence. My exchange with the employees was direct with no superfluous talk. During the drive I had music on but it was just there – I noticed I was not a participant in it.
Back at work I had two technical problems come up and solved them almost immediately. Another spray was added around 3pm and I left at 4:30,
My exchanges with people at work were business only, markedly devoid of feeling. It is as if I could go tell someone that we are no longer in need of your services, “Clean out your desk.”
What is this stuff? Vulcan in a bottle?
On the way home there was an accident, traffic being rerouted and I got in the middle of the jam and noticed that I was detached from my feelings inside – infuriated – but no animated or vocal reaction. I doubt my blood pressure even ticked up a notch.
I decided to see if I could get a read on how this effects others by heading down to Watering Hole N. The parking lot was full, so I did four sprays on my forearms and went inside. Big mistake – everyone was on the dining side except for Mr. D. I was upwind of him and though we talked for a little while, he up and left after I was only there half an hour – he usually stays at least another hour – so maybe it was the P87 anti-social quality. Later more customers came in, but I’m not familiar with them to have a ‘baseline’ of their behavior to compare. Not a very talkative bunch that night.
I wasn’t doing any good –wasting time- so I went home early.
Found it difficult to fall asleep at my usual time – I had not washed it off. Had some weird dreams in the morning.