Now, that’s the update I’m talkin’ about! 
I’ve been searching for the MX115 posts and got side tracked by Catlord’s threads and posts… dammit!!
What do you expect from MX115 and do you know the ingredients? Sorry, way before my time, seems like…
Is it known as an Asian persuasion MX?
Great report! Just don’t slow play it so you look scared. Make it seem like you have lots of options, but you know that . Best of luck
Editor’s note: It seems the “once every 7-10 days” update is going to work best for me. This gives me time to keep sorting things out in my life and also to run tests and draft reports. If you post a reply or send me a PM and don’t see a response immediately, hang tight because I’ll get to it.
Cat does have a lot of good stuff.
In my testing with MX115/116, I found it to be sexual and a few members chimed in that there’s -none in it. I had forgotten all about this when I ran my tests last week but the results match up with what I experienced before. Good IOI, tension, and kino.
It worked on my ex (Caucasian) and ABW so I would not consider it a pure Asian persuasion MX. Think of it as a general attractant.
Reports
A314 R25 SBE: Is this stuff still in production? If not, I seriously need to cut back on my usage before I run out. It’s hard to do that because it just works so well.
Since the last update I’ve attended a few small tech talks. I actually made a mistake in the last post by calling those talks “small,” the ones where I went to different companies or to a room full of presenters. Those would probably be considered medium/large talks. The most recent ones I’ve been to are actually small: a speaker will present in-depth material on one topic only and there’s usually no more than thirty people there. Most of the stuff is over my head or not interesting to me but it’s a good way to meet the cream of the crop and network with them, and also to get free food and drinks. Since these are smaller and geared towards techies who don’t like to dress up, the environment is more casual. A314 helps me put on a very professional and status-filled vibe even when I’m wearing jeans. I maintain eye contact with everyone I talk to (a huge problem of mine from before) and have the courage to go the extra mile to sell myself.
Asian Business Woman (ABW): I had coffee with her this past weekend. Besides that, she was travelling for her business presentations or I was out at a tech talk so we didn’t hang out much. Before meeting up, I was highly considering MX115/116; it’s gotten me this far, right? However, I figured that the environment change would be too great and I didn’t want to add another variable to it. Let’s dissect this:
I knew we would be in casual clothes in a coffee shop setting. In the business settings we complimented each other on a sharp suit or a pretty dress. This played on the visual aspect which opened up other avenues for kino or flirting. It wouldn’t work too well with casual clothes - “Hey, nice shorts.”? Nope. Also, I didn’t want to come on too strong with the sexual vibe, as if I was holding it back while being professional and then letting it all flood out in a casual setting. Beyond that, I really just wanted an environment where I could still put on a good vibe but we could also “let our hair down” and chill, be ourselves, talk, and see what would happen.
I wore a pair of nice khaki shorts that I usually wear for golf and a colorful polo with clean sneakers. She wore shorts (not quite short shorts) and a nice top with sandals. I was waiting for her at the coffee shop and smiled when she got there. Simple, casual environment, just like I had pictured.
1d A314 R24 P90E neck
2s ishine neck
2s cttm2 neck
5s Spaceland neck
drydown
1s Creed Erolfa neck as cover
Erolfa is the lightest Creed I have, fitting for a warm late summer day. Ishine and cttm2 acted as the base and Spaceland was there to help things open up. I chose the P90E because I felt that she had been around the SBE enough that I could roll with the residual effects, and I couldn’t find my bottle of regular A314.
The first 10 minutes of our coffee time went exactly as we both probably expected and feared. We talked about work. It wasn’t awkward but it wasn’t productive either. That’s something I never liked about partying with coworkers or people in my field, but it’s almost human nature. We get together and talk about what we know. It’s boring to other people and boring to ourselves when we want to talk about something else. Anyway, we got work talk out of the way and moved on to better topics.
(cutting out boring talking parts)
We got to know each other better and continued our conversation from the first time we met, which was talking about local things to do in the city and our common interests. The Spaceland really helped because there was never that back and forth phase of one person asking a question and the other person answering it and asking “And you?” As soon as we got onto a topic, we talked about it and somehow managed to tangent ourselves onto another topic and soon it was time to go.
We ended with a hug - I think in kino aspects, we’re still cautious about boundaries. This hug was slightly different than any before; she sort of fell into and leaned on me, I wrapped my hands around her waist, and we spoke our goodbyes in this position instead of facing each other as usual.
I think this went well, as good as I can hope after going such a long time without meetups like this.
Conclusion
Stay cool. 
Every 7-10 days is A-OK as long as you continue to post every day…errrr 
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Seriously though, its nice to have you on here and I’m glad you are having stellar results.
I’m glad to have “the P96 guy” back
Making up for a few 7-10 day rounds here… I’ve been gone recently because I have a job!
Sort of.
The actual job search has gotten stale so I haven’t pursued that much lately. ABW says many companies slow their hiring as the end of the year holidays approach. I started looking at part time jobs or just anything to keep myself busy. Eventually I got a volunteer job at a little community center that provides technology services and training to anyone who doesn’t normally have access to it, e.g. an older person wanting to learn email / Internet.
I started out as an instructor and basically taught grandmas how to check email and open pictures of their grandchildren. The supervisors there saw I was pretty good with technology and asked me to take on the process of upgrading some equipment and software, and that was basically finding the lowest price online and installing the stuff after it got shipped.
All that took up about three to four days out of the week and then they asked me to help design some new classes and programs. “Digital camera basics” is something I’ll be starting soon and I’m also looking at a programmable robot set to teach kids how to program. These new tasks round out a typical work week.
It’s simple, it’s unpaid, but it’s something to do and I can help out the community.
Unfortunately, because I’m the youngest guy at a place with no targets where I am five days out of the week, I have not used many pheros. If anything, I used A314 during the initial interview and bomb myself with Spaceland and IShine if I know I have a long block of teaching grandmas. I keep a to-go of Ammo and MX292 in my car just in case I ever need one or both of those. Very unlikely, given what I’ve seen so far.
This is turn has made me amp up my efforts of socializing on the weekends. I have a few friends in town and started hanging out with them more. Mostly guys unless it’s a big party so I fall back on some old status pheros like MX272.
ABW
I last left off with meeting her for coffee. That was a good day. Since then, we’ve met up again twice, both times for lunch. I had some fun with this. 
Meeting 1
3s MX200
2s PUF MX391
1s IShine
1s P83
all neck, dabbed hands on app spot
This turned out to be a sexual riot of a lunch, everything I expected and more. Whatever boundaries were set at the coffee meeting were broken almost immediately at this lunch. She fell hard for the mix. MX200 was a given. MX391 I just threw out there to see what would happen but I had planned to be overly sexual anyway. P83 was a last minute decision to help boost the mix.
We started with a hug and she said “You smell nice” and leaned in to smell the app point. I can recall many times I ended up naked with a girl that started like this, so it was a good start. We were eating on a nice day and I opted for an outdoor seat so that instead of sitting across from her, I could sit caddy corner to her and we could both face the sidewalk to people watch. Sitting closer to her = mix is closer to her. Right away I turned on heavy flirting without any kino. She came from work and was looking wonderful in a dress. I said “Do you always show off your cleavage at work?” She gasped and started to adjust her dress. I then said “No don’t, your boobs look awesome.” We both laughed and she motioned to hit me playfully but instead put her hand on my arm and kind of pushed it without letting go.
This pattern - me being awfully flirtatious and her initiating kino because of it - went on all through lunch. It was not long before she started being flirtatious too. I waited just a bit to see that she was comfortable before returning the kino. I didn’t want to be both overly flirtatious and overly kino-y at the same time. We had lots of laughs and I barely remember what we talked about. After lunch, we hugged goodbye as usual except this time, she plopped her face straight into the app point. If she had puckered her lips, it would’ve been a kiss (on the neck).
Meeting 2
3s MX200 neck
2s Ammo hands
5s Spaceland neck
small spritz of Creed Aventus neck
We had been “dry flirting” through text and chat since the last lunch. I didn’t know what to expect of this lunch, or what she might’ve been expecting, but I knew I wanted to be flirtatious again.
Meet, hug, smell, etc. We had to wait a few minutes for a table because it was a Friday lunch. During the wait, we talked and were very close to each other partly because of the noise in the restaurant and partly because we were naturally getting closer.
I noticed something different about her. I think she dressed up for occasion without actually dressing up. She was wearing skinny jeans, heels, and a sleeveless top with buttons. The top few buttons were strategically unbuttoned most likely for lunch and then probably got rebuttoned before going back to work. I came prepared for the cleavage show though and instead of asking about her boobs, I asked how often she works out. She replied “A few days a week” and then I said “Your butt looks great in those jeans!” Again we both laughed and the kino came on earlier and stronger from me and her. On the walk to our table, I walked behind her and gently placed my arm on her back, low enough to be flirty but high enough to stay cool in public and also because I know I’m not at “boyfriend / FWB” level yet.
It was just like the previous lunch except harder to kino because we were sitting across from each other. I tried to use this in a positive way by saying some silly or flirty things and acting cool because I knew she couldn’t “hit” me from afar. I felt the flirting level was more natural than the last time where I sort of consciously had to turn it on and play up the mix. This time I knew the mix was working and that she had already been exposed to something similar so I just strapped in and went for a ride. When it was time to go, we hugged in the parking lot and stayed in embrace for a while. She had her head on my shoulder facing my neck and her arms wrapped up high around my neck. My hands were low on her waist. The sexual energy was there but not rampant - our bodies were touching but not really pressed against each other, hands remained in safe but sexy spots. It was a perfect visual example of where we were in the relationship stage.
Conclusion
And that brings me to the conclusion and just exactly where we are in the relationship stage. In all aspects, these two lunches were dates. I asked her on the first one, she asked me on the second one. We had fun and all that but we’re trying not to get too close for a few reasons. One, the holidays are coming up and we both have travel plans so it’s not wise to jump into anything right before being apart for a while. Two, we’re seeing how our different jobs will line up now that I actually have responsibilities during the week (she sometimes works late or on weekends). Lastly, and maybe most importantly, she knows that she directly follows the ex, i.e. I haven’t seen anyone since the ex except her. She’s feeling that out, I’m feeling that out, it’s a big trial period for us. We’re better off staying uncommitted to anything for now.
Pretty good October for me. 
I hope everyone is doing well!
I switched to a new gym today because my old one was getting a little “soft.” By this I mean all members treated it more like a social club and not really like a gym. Guys there would “bro out” in groups of five doing curls in the squat rack (horrible gym etiquette) or spend too much time socializing in between sets. That’s not what I’m looking for in a gym. My new gym is a little smaller and has more “meatheads” and less girls. I expected this going in. The good thing is that everyone there is there to work out. Everyone keeps to themselves, benches and equipment are wiped down, etc.
3d A314 forearms
I knew I was going to be the new guy and I know what happens to new guys. I figured I would be one of the smaller guys too. I was right. When I walked in, I got a couple of looks from what I suspect are the regulars - they gave each other silent fist bumps when entering or leaving and it was pretty easy to see they come around often. They probably figured I was going to head to the cardio machines. Instead, I went straight to the weights to do my sets. At the end, I reracked everything as usual and wiped all my stuff down.
The workout portion was unaffected by the mix. I went up in weight as normal and didn’t try to show off. What the mix did affect was my confidence. I had no clue where anything was but I pretended like I did. It didn’t feel like my first day at all. I wanted to give off the image of “Hey, I’m here, I’m small and you might’ve correctly guessed I migrated from the soft gym, but I won’t be out of place here.”
I got a few head nods from some of the regulars as I took breaks during my set, exactly what I had hoped for. When I was unloading my plates off the bar, a guy next to me was loading his plates and ran out of plates from the rack to grab. I handed mine to him and he took it with one hand 
and pointed at me with the other, in sort of a “You’re the man” way. Great hits all around.
Also as I expected, there were hardly any girls there. There was one, maybe a few on treadmills in the corner far away from the weights. One girl was in the weight section - blonde, high 20’s (guess), cute… but, not the right person to talk to. It was very obvious she is highly trained in bodybuilding (lifting weights for size and show vs. general strength weightlifting) based on her lifts and build. She isn’t fat by any means but she is very built and probably competes in figure bodybuilding. She was also joking around with the regulars. I got a few glances and even some stares from her during my time there but I knew better than to even begin messing with that. You tread wisely when there are tank-sized guys around ready to break necks at a snap of a finger. I figure I’ll see her again.
This is one time that high status pheros in the gym didn’t cause any trouble and in fact worked out really well.
Blonde girl was back at the gym today. She came in with a big guy, I assume her bf because they were pretty close. Also, she’s pretty popular among the regulars - I estimate there was a solid half an hour of socializing that she did after walking in the gym and before starting her set. She got stopped at the front, then people would stop her as she walked by toward the locker room.
She’s cute and all but I have no interest in pursuing her as a regular target. Rather, once I get a feel for the place and what she’s about, I want to see if SM will affect her in any way. SM is Snoopy’s Mix, something I used a few times at the old gym. The older Asian women that I targeted would give DIHL. It’s a high -none mix so I’m wondering if it will have any different effects in a new place on new targets. I stared at her a few times while she was socializing and I would now put her age at a solid guess of 28 or 29, maybe even into the low 30’s. Perhaps the bodybuilding takes a toll on the youthful look.
In general, there are a few women there but all of them seem older than me in the range of 26ish to low 30’s. All the high school and college girls go to the other gym for better chances with guys, and vice versa, and that’s understandable. I don’t think I’ll do much phero testing here except for SM. I brought my A314 today just in case I needed a boost with the regulars but I think I’ve already been “accepted into the club.” Most of them didn’t look up at me like they did yesterday and those who did just gave the typical head nod. That’s a good feeling.
The “digital camera basics” class I mentioned a few posts ago regarding my new job will be a go starting next week. It’ll be a two part class over one week. Students can select to attend the first part either Monday or Tuesday and then the second part Thursday or Friday. I can’t tell by the sign up sheet the ages of everyone coming but at least there’s a good balance of men and women. I expect most people to be older and will prepare accordingly.
ABW drunk dialed me a bit ago when the night was still fairly young. I was going to call her a lightweight but it turns out she went from her company happy hour to dinner with drinks to the bars, so she did well to hold up that far. We chatted for a bit while she and some other people were sitting outside getting some air before they went to the next bar. This was interesting for two reasons. One, we don’t talk on the phone much - texting and chatting handle things well so far - so it was good to do that for a change. Two, and I’m not reading into this too much, but it’s said that what’s really on your mind comes out when you’re drunk. Maybe she was thinking of me, maybe she swiped her contacts list and ended up on me, maybe I was the last person on her list of drunk dials, who knows.
I will say this: I’m comfortable with this relationship. Even if things don’t work out and we stay friends, or I get friendzoned somewhere, I’ll appreciate this great start to getting my feet wet again. It was a huge surge of energy to set up our first coffee meeting and then again at the later lunch meetings, it was exciting to get those “I wonder what she’ll be wearing. I wonder what we’ll talk about.” etc jitters. I would rather get back in the groove this way as opposed to rebounding my way aimlessly through a few girls and then trying to get back where I was immediately. I’ve actually never “rebounded” with a girl in the common sense. I think it would be fun to do if somehow the cards landed that way but when I’m actively seeking, I try to do it how I’m doing it now.
Future updates
I suspect November will fly by very quickly. I want to return to school so I have a few campus visits lined up. Probably no testing during the visits unless it’s a good status mix while visiting with professors. The camera class is next week and I might do some others if I’m around.
Thanksgiving to the new year always flies by. In December, it’ll be three years that I’ve been with pheros. Crazy! My parents want me to come back for all or most of December. I’m hesitant to give up my freedom for so long but it looks like a real possibility right now because the volunteer job probably won’t be busy and professors won’t be around to meet because classes are letting out. Staying with my parents and going out to the old places back home will be a new testing environment.
Positive energy to everyone!
Shotgun update to keep everyone in the know:
The digital camera basics class was actually so much of a hit that the learning center asked me to do another week of it. The gist of the class is that I teach people the bare minimum of how to use a camera, upload pictures, send them, etc. As such, most of the people in the class are older and want to know how to how to take pictures of grandchildren or navigate online photo albums. I didn’t test much because of the age gap but I did use ishine and some other base pheros to give off a good vibe.
My next class was only be a one-parter where each attendee brought their own equipment (iPad, cell phone camera, etc) and I showed them how to use the camera function in addition to giving them some tips on how to use the device to its fullest. Some people didn’t know about multi-touch or how to get apps. I saw a lot of return attendees from the basics course and everyone had a good time in class flipping and swiping and downloading apps. This was a huge non-phero personal victory for me to really get something off the ground and going. I went back to regular work last week and am more or less off this week; we’ll see what December has in store for me.
ABW: still friends, still flirting. Talk on the phone maybe once a week. Sometimes it’s nice to hear a woman’s voice or get a winky face in a text.
Other women: I was DD for a bar hop two weeks ago.
2s Snoopy’s Mix (super high -none) hair
1s ammo neck
2s ishine neck
2s cttm2 neck
2s p83 neck
2s p79 hair
I was deep in fragrance. The two guys in my car probably did not have a good time for the first few minutes of the ride. We headed over to a girl’s house to pregame and wait for her friends to show up so we could ride together.
-none backfired on me a little early even though I knew I had a lot on. It made me flushed and sweaty and when I get flushed and sweaty, I get a little self-conscious and my social skills fall apart. (this is a big fix-it for me) My friends and I were talking to the girl and one of her friends who had arrived and I didn’t say much because I was concentrating on not sweating, which in turn made me sweat more. I know they probably thought I was giving off the “too cool to talk” vibe so I tried my best to recover and decided to start fresh later. Eventually the third girl called in and said she couldn’t make it so we left as three guys, two girls.
In the car with an A/C vent in my face, I cooled down and made a much better impression on everyone. It also helped that they were buzzing from the pregame. In the twenty minute drive to the bar area, I turned into a comedic riot. The rest of the phero cloud really helped with that one.
At the first bar, there was only a square table available. Each guy took a side and the two girls squeezed together in the fourth side. One of the guys was on his first time out with us so I didn’t really know him - he either was a huge creep or extremely naturally charming because he latched on to one of the girls pretty quickly. This was fairly obvious so it came down to me and the other guy for the other girl. I took myself “out of the running” because it’s never fun when the sober DD hits on all the drunk female riders so then it became that guy for the other girl. The only problem was that he was sitting too far away from her (e.g. she was squeezed in closer to me) so it was hard for him to talk to her. The other guy was across from the other girl and it was easier for them to talk.
A lot of drinks were had at the first bar, too many that we didn’t really want to go to a second bar. Everyone forgot about the guy/girl thing except for that creepy guy. I became sort of a moderator. If the creepy guy was coming on too hard to “his girl,” she would come over to me and hang out to get some space. If things were too awkward between the other guy and girl, that girl would hang out with me to liven things up. Even though I wasn’t trying to hit on anyone, I still worked the kino heavy. The creepy guy’s girl didn’t respond much to it probably because he also used heavy kino but the other girl simply turned into butter with a touch. By the end of the night there were massages, hugs, holding waists while walking, all that.
We (or they) finally mustered enough energy to go to a second bar. This one had a dance floor and was chosen because the girls wanted to get their drunk dance on and the guys just needed to stop drinking so they wouldn’t throw up in the car. I thought it was going to be weird with three guys and two girls dancing together but it wasn’t too bad. Each guy, including me, got plenty of turns with each girl and then the odd man out would either dance with a nearby random girl or sandwich one of the pairs for fun. TMI alert: (but really, this whole journal is TMI, right? haha) I haven’t had a girl grind on me in a while. Grinding feels pretty good, better than I remember.
That was one of the better nights in recent history. Partied, danced, and surprisingly, I’m glad I got self-conscious during pregame. I hadn’t been in social situations for so long that I forgot what it was like both as a success and when things go wrong. As I mentioned before, it’s a must-fix for next year.
Gym women: I haven’t seen that blonde girl since the last post. I miss her. I’ll keep checking after the holidays. There are some other women that I look at and sometimes look at me: an older (like 40+) brunette who is there mainly to flirt with her trainer and a couple girls who just started showing up and coming at the same time as me. No targets so far but it might be a good experiment for a phero bomb if I’m feeling frisky one day.
More importantly, I’m building a lot of rapport with the guys in the gym. As I mentioned before, this gym is designed more for people who are serious about lifting weights and getting fit, rather than just sipping lattes on the treadmill. I get head nods from the regulars and return them with confidence. The trainers and front desk guys all seem to know me too. Thankfully all this took just a few weeks.
I’m eager for the holidays to kick off. Everyone seems to be in a better mood and have less pressure.
How are things with you?
I LOVE your shotgun reports. Its like hit you in the face reporting and great stuff!
It is a new chapter in my book of life, one where the hero nearly writes himself out of the book, one where he gets a little more realistic and doesn’t attempt another “I’m back for good” comeback.
With that out of the way, on to the good news.
A314, MX272, Ishine, CTTM2, and P96 got me a new job, new house, and a new outlook on life.
It is with great pleasure that I can say, while it wasn’t fun being away from PT for so long, I’ve been away because I’ve actually been doing productive things and making huge leaps forward.
To recap some things from last year…
ABW (Asian business woman) - I’ve met so many “ABW” now that I almost forgot who she was. :o We fell out of contact over the holidays and haven’t really gotten together since. It was a good effort on both our parts but I think we’re comfortable now just being friends and occasionally chatting on Facebook or via email. I again have put socializing to a lower priority to focus on all the new things in my life and I feel that if I were to try with her, one or more aspects of my life would get shaky and that’s not good.
Gym hits - I stopped wearing pheros to the gym because now I get the same hits that I did with them on. The blonde girl I mentioned before is back, some old regulars left, some new ones joined, and guys and trainers are friendly now too.
Three years of pheros / New Year’s anniversary bomb mix
Incredible. I still remember my first order with SM, getting the DHL envelope, wondering if it was safe to eat the chocolate. 
Yes, I will tell this story every year. How quickly time flies.
I was invited to a great New Year’s party this past holiday season and I knew it was time to revisit the bomb that started this journal and my phero journey.
2d A314 ears
3s CTTM2 neck
1s Ammo hair
5s Ishine neck
2s P96 @ 25 mcg neck
The original bomb mix I used is here: pheromone fried rice - #2 by jayarea and that was a modified version of another user’s recipe. I further modified this year’s recipe to not be a huge OD mix since I was going for different results.
Kiss from a girl at midnight (and lots more later, plus a few kisses from other girls), absolutely huge status with everyone, respect from the bartender, and good socializing when my group decided to drunkenly join forces with another group. I think with this recipe and applying what I’ve learned and know to the mix, I got a perfect bomb mix for possibly the most festive holiday of the year.
And now onto this year…
Remember those business sessions I talked about briefly last year, basically open houses for companies? I got my first hit there with A314 R25 SBE. After passing the phone screen, I nailed the onsite interviews with the addition of MX272, Ishine, CTTM2, and P96. Sure, I had still know what I was talking about and impress the employer but I really feel that the pheros played a big role. In today’s economy, almost every job seeker is well-qualified and applying for the same positions. There has to be some sort of je ne sais quoi, be it pheros or charm or whatever, to set yourself apart from the other candidates.
The job offered a relocation bonus so I moved closer to work. The housing area is not close to any sort of bar or nightlife scene so it’s a bit rough to go out but the energy change is a great improvement. I’m a believer (as are many Asians) in feng shui and felt that the energy in my old place just got stale, especially after what happened in 2010 and 2011. In addition to the housing change, I’ve switched up my workouts and eating plan to lose weight and feel better. I know I drank at New Year’s but after that, I can’t recall a time where I had alcohol, so I’ve been “dry” for a few months. I don’t miss drinking - actually, sometimes I do - but then I think about all the negative effects it has on the body, the wasted next day being hungover, the cost, and suddenly it’s not a big deal anymore. I still need to celebrate the new job at some point though.
This catches everyone up to the present day. I keep myself busy with the 9-5, workouts, and other life enhancing activities. I’ve made friends through work and they know that I might miss out on some stuff since I don’t drink much but I’m always good for a movie or new restaurant.
My life has completely flipped itself around and I’m really working hard to maintain this positive energy and lifestyle. Part of this change is to return to writing in this journal when it applies. I actually keep an offline journal now of things I’ve done, things I want to do, goals, etc. and it’s been a big part of focusing my drive on the right thing at the right time.
If you’re reading this, please post a reply with what you’re up both in life and in pheros. If you’re new to my journal, please feel free to ask any questions and introduce yourself so I can get to know you.
Positive vibes all around.
-none tolerance
Mine is shot. 
I used 1s of MX330 today, one of my favorite sexual pheros. Within minutes I was burning up and after an hour I had sweat through my shirt.
A soggy shirt meant no reports but now I’m curious about -none and other phero tolerances on the body. Is it something you can build up or lose like tolerance to alcohol or spicy food? I’ve always been a “lightweight” around -none so the burning thing isn’t too much of a surprise but I remember I used to wear 2 or 3s of MX330 with no problem besides the initial heat, and sitting in front of an A/C vent took care of that. Now I can’t even do 1s briefly.
Bummed out by nearly a month of rain now, haven’t gotten a chance to test or use any mixes outside of work and casual outings. Spaceland is my go-to bottle right now because I’m a fan of the rain and it seems like nobody else is so everyone is cranky and/or stir crazy. I give it a couple sprays and on good days, it lets me get in the zone quicker with the help of rain and on bad days where people are cranky, it helps me tune them out.
I’ll update more as things happen but so far, I’m still waiting for jeans and boots to go away and skirts and heels to come on by.
Spaceland?! Wow, an oldie, but, apparently a goodie… I’ve had some heavy 60 mu+ of B-nol and A-nol and everything is funny with those around me and nothing bothers me. I’ve always been curious if that is similar in response to Spaceland…
Have you any P96 in your arsenal of mones?
Be lookin’ out for your updates.
Sure do! Check out my user title below my username over on the left side - “the p96 guy” P96 is definitely in my top 5 list and may actually be my favorite product, so much so that I now use it very sparingly to conserve it.
I’m a little behind in doing my monthly update and sadly not much has happened (that’s a good thing) but I do have a story to share. It’s basically one long hit report so grab some snacks and read on.
What goes up…
Work has been going very well. My company picked up many new clients this year - which explains the hiring boom and how I got started - and I’ve been busy every work day. I hate waking up early like many others but once I get out of my sleepy phase and into my work mode, I’m good to go until the evening. This is a completely drastic change from a few years ago when I had nothing, and last year when I was just doing part time volunteer work.
A314 (any version) remained my phero of choice during this time. Usually I went with 1d, 2d if I was talking to management that day. I experienced the status rise that was very similar to the first time I used A314. It wasn’t quick and it wasn’t magical but it was that familiar feeling of knowing you’re on top of things and giving off that vibe to others around you. Soon I was the go-to guy at work and was frequently called upon to present status reports because of my confidence.
And with hard work comes hard play, right? Oh man, did I play hard. Just at work alone, we had Friday happy hours each week and bigger milestone celebrations where we went out to celebrate a major project or product completion. On the personal side, sometimes I would go out with my coworkers for happy hours and lunches during the week and small outings during the weekend.
MX330 was my phero of choice for both sexual and social hits. It may surprise you to think that MX330 is good for social, and to be honest it slightly surprised me too. I wear it alone for sexual because I feel it gives off just the right vibe. Most of the people at the company are 24-28. If I wore Ammo or TUTH, it wouldn’t be entirely appropriate for the environment. If I wore something like MX115, it might’ve hit a little too low on the age scale. I find MX330 to be very flexible depending on how you approach it. Keep it simple and it works on girls my age (even though it was targeted to older women); show your A314 side and it works well on women up through the 30’s and maybe older.
As for the social side, normally I would pair MX330 with a social to keep things balanced. One day, I was applying MX330 in my car and then realized my to-go IShine had rolled under my seat. I didn’t feel like wrinkling my work clothes to dig for it so I just went with MX330 alone. I went about my day and noticed that I just felt “right” with it. Maybe it’s because it works well with the age range of my targets but I felt at ease with the level of sexuality which in turn made me more social. I would not recommend it necessarily as a standalone social phero but like with many other pheros, if it feels right to you and you can work it, go ahead and use it.
…must come down…
I worked hard, I played hard, and it took a toll on my body. Stress was a big part of my downfall. I was very calm outside of work and maintained my gym schedule, free time, etc. but work deadlines and all the new projects coming in just messed me up. (again, the drastic change from not doing much before) In addition, the added partying didn’t help. I went from not drinking much to drinking two or three times a week - not a huge amount and certainly not as much as my college days but still enough to counteract some workouts and perhaps even do a little damage.
Because of all this, I experienced what I honestly feel was the worst two months of my life. I had crazy hormonal acne (the big kind that you can’t pop and doesn’t go away for a while) all over my face, worse than when I was a teenager. Hormonal acne comes from inside your body as opposed to a dirty face so no products or creams will get rid of it. If you try, it just gets worse. You have to fight it through reducing stress and watching your diet, but in my case, stress was high and my diet, though still clean, wasn’t as good as before.
I will admit to all the good readers of my journal here that I let acne beat me for a while. I took it easy at work, pared down my diet, even booked a few massages and relaxation sessions, and yet the acne kept raining down on me. Eventually I didn’t go out because I was so embarrassed of what I looked like and I couldn’t maintain eye contact with anyone. I’ve had acne before and at times it was close to beating me but this was the worst and I simply had no idea what to do.
I constantly wondered, “How is this happening?” I was at the best point of my life - good job, great friends, picking up momentum - yet I looked and felt my worst. My pheros stood unused in their box because I had no place or motivation in which to use them.
..but no matter what, stand your ground.
One day, I woke up and said out loud, “No.” No. I would not let acne beat me any longer. I would not let the good times of my life be ruined by anything. I took back control of my life slowly but surely until things felt right to me again.
My first step was to put on 1d of A314 R25 SBE. It was my first phero application in two weeks. That was the turning point. My acne didn’t go away or become invisible to the people around me but like battling acne, the change came from inside. I needed that little kick to tell myself, “Hey, you’re good, you can do this.” For the first time during that period I was able to hold my head up, look people in the eyes, and have some semblance of my former self.
It was at this point I looked back to one of the old adages I grew up with here on PT and something I like to repeat often: You make the pheros; they don’t make you. You have to work them for results. If I had applied A314 and kept walking around with my head down, I wouldn’t have gotten the turnaround I needed. It was the combination of my self motivation and the good vibes of the pheros that allowed me to kick start my change.
Long story short, I’m better now in many ways than before I started my battle. Physically, I look much better. (acne side note: sometimes, acne just needs to get itself all out of your body and then it goes away on its own and this is partially why I cleared up. I also stayed strict with my new lifestyle to help it along.) Mentally, I regained and built upon my confidence to know that even when I’m looking and feeling like crap, I can still be the person I want to be. I also reduced stress and kept everything balanced while still doing well at work, enjoying the happy hours, and finding my own free time.
Conclusion
I still have a few dark marks that will fade with time but most importantly, I took away some character lessons that will be with me forever. I still have half of 2012 to enjoy and keep working hard on my successes.
On the phero side, I suppose I would like to ask you what your “tried and true” pheros are. If you were in my situation (and I wish this upon no one), what pheros would you pick to help you make it through to the other side?
Good stuff, always enjoyed reading your Journal.
Remember that it’s always the confidence that will ultimately determine how your interactions will come about. I live with chronic psoriasis which only broke out this year. It’s been hard but if you learn that it isn’t what defines you, then you will be fine.
Are you ready for some nostalgia? Four years of pheros… my, how they’ve gone by. OK, that’s enough nostalgia.
The second half of 2012 was a thrill ride for me. As you can see, I dropped off in posts around then because I was just loaded with things to do, mostly in a good way. I didn’t have time to get hit reports so I thought I’d take this first post of the new year and start with a wrap up of some things I learned last year.
First, the stuff we want to sweep under the rug
It’s been two and a half years since we broke up, and what seemingly makes it worse, since I left her, but I still can’t stop thinking about her. As I’ll describe in later paragraphs, I’ve been seeing other girls and it feels like the relationship aspect has moved on, but there will still be that random reminder out of nowhere, like passing a restaurant or doing an activity, that brings back memories. I had a calm New Year’s Eve a few weeks ago where I spent some time tidying up my work and making some goals for 2013. I tried hard to not think about her at all this year. I made it a few days. Damn.
Here’s where I get sappy. I talked to some friends about this and looked at some forums and what I found was that this feeling of not being able to let things go easily isn’t actually too much of a bad thing. What stuck with me was this, and I paraphrase: if it was a relationship worth having, then the memories may stick around for a long time and the relationship may have even changed you. I’m gradually realizing that’s true.
Am I a different person now because of that relationship? Definitely. Did we create lasting memories? Sure did. She was the deepest relationship I’ve ever had in terms of time and strength. Before the breakup, we were coming up on two years together and there were initial, tiny thoughts of possibly living with each other. The first “I love you” that I documented here, all the stories of the long nights, the good nights, the bad days, those were real and raw.
Fighting all that is not a worthwhile endeavor. That’s not to say that embracing it is a great idea - it’s not - but anyone in my situation should take baby steps to gradually be able to move on. This sounds a little new age-ish but something I’ve found to be helpful is to give myself a stop anytime I get too deep in the memories. I’ll say to myself, and sometimes even out loud, “thank you,” and then stop thinking about that memory and do something productive. Those good memories, no matter how good, don’t help in any way. It’s like turning away a salesman. He may be persistent at first but if you tell yourself that this isn’t what you’re looking for right now, slowly the salesman stops calling.
That alone has helped greatly. I also went through the pictures on my computer and removed any with her in it. As of right now, I don’t remember what her face looks like. There are still some pictures in my backup hard drive but again, taking the time to go through all those just isn’t worth it. I probably will never see those pictures again anyway. Once I get a permanent backup solution, I’ll just copy over the folders that aren’t related to her, skip the ones that are, and then wipe that hard drive.
It was a long process to get to where I was with her and likewise, it’s a long process to remove myself from that position.
And that’s enough sappiness.
It’s all about the view
This one is a quick section but I’ve found it’s helped me tremendously. I’m still battling acne. Some days it’s really bad and some days it’s just a few spots. I’ve not had a fully clear day in a long time.
It helps to think about what acne is in the grand scheme of things. What is it? A few spots on the face? At a very high, vain level, sure it looks bad. But drill down. I’ve been sticking to my workout plan and I’m the strongest I’ve ever been. I have a good job and education and have access to nutritious food and a clean living environment. And so on. What, then, is a few spots on the face? Nothing.
It works for being a few pounds overweight, maybe too short or too tall than what you’d like, really anything. You’re not so much hiding or avoid the issue as you are thinking about how you won’t let it beat you.
Closing thoughts: on my bad acne days, I used to look at people’s eyes when talking and see where they looked. It was never at my acne. It was always in my eyes. A passing stranger may notice your problems but truly good people, people who want to talk to you, will not see you for your issues. Keep your head up.
The fun stuff
I got a new job and it’s still doing what I love so that’s great.
I dated a girl for a while. I wouldn’t say we were officially a couple, but it was definitely something. I used some of the old phero favorites and they were still a hit. Eventually we called it off because of my new job but we still occasionally talk.
You guys know me and my writing style so I’m not ashamed to say this: sex is more fun with another person involved.
Aside from dating, I also went on a few dates. I’m still not used to “dates” yet. With my old circle of friends, it seemed like there was somebody singled out and then we would get to know each other and then start dating and then become a couple. If you get lucky and find a spouse that way, that’s perfectly fine, but I’m the type of person that needs to do a couple laps around the track and see what’s out there - I just never got the chance to do so. I went on a date where things went well but we both realized that we wouldn’t have much to say past the second or third date so we decided to end on a good note and go our separate ways. That was the first time in my life I’ve felt free to not pursue a second date. Great feeling.
I was a bit sluggish in making new friends due to the new job. That’s one of my goals for this year.
Closing thoughts
Just like sports teams have rebuilding years, last year was a rebuilding year for me. I learned a lot and felt like I really grew as a person. I’m excited to keep making changes in 2013.
As always, if you’ve stuck with me, thanks so much for reading. Let me know your thoughts, comments, or questions!
1s ishine gym
Along with all the other changes of last year, I’m also at a new gym now. There wasn’t a problem with the old one but my current job gets a discount at this new gym.
I’ve noticed that people at the new gym seem to be friendlier. I wrote in some of my old gym test posts that there were cliques of “regulars” who were always there and didn’t really like looking at new faces. There were some cute girls but they were associated with the cliques and it was hard to test around them.
At the current place, people smile more and are more outgoing. Due to my schedule, sometimes I have to go near peak hours when many of the benches are being used. Most times, if a bench is being used and I ask someone about it, that person will not only tell me it’s being used but point me to the person using it so I can ask him or her how many sets are left or if I can work in. I don’t really have scientific evidence that this bunch is friendlier; they just seem like it.
My 1s of ishine was just a feeler to fragrance at the new place. I’ve had some gym tests where it was completely obvious I was wearing fragrance. Some scent is ok, as if you’re just coming from work, but people who wear bombs are either oblivious and always wear bombs, or trying too hard at the gym. Same goes for women who wear heavy makeup and perfume and try not to sweat.
In my opinion, the test went well - I say my opinion because I’m judging only on whether or not I think I smell like a bomb. I didn’t get any weird looks from guys or any put-off looks from girls. I applied on my wrist to really get the scent moving. If 1s at the wrist was too much, then I would know that gym tests probably wouldn’t be a good idea.
My next tests will most likely be a string of ammo runs to get a baseline for game scent and a sex phero at the gym.
Two quick hit reports to share from a few weeks ago.
1s ammo wrists
3s ishine wrists
I still do that volunteer thing where I teach a computer class at the community center. This time I was called in to be a helper for a larger class. It was intro to social media (Facebook, Twitter, etc) so I figured there would be some younger people here but I didn’t have too much time to go through and pick out a good P or MX, thus I stuck with tried-and-true ammo and toned it down with ishine.
Turns out I was right. There was a student ratio slightly in favor of females, all between 19 and mid 20’s. For the first ten minutes of class, I went around and waved my wrists near all the female attendees as I asked if they needed help.
Hit 1: brunette, mid-20’s. Very flirty toward me and not at all toward the instructor. I’m not any better looking than him and I still have some acne going on so I think this was a phero hit. It may have been that she didn’t want to flirt with the instructor, but seeing as this was an open class at a community center, I don’t think that was the case. Each time I went to help her, she would have a big smile and talk in a slightly seductive / breathy voice. When I wasn’t around, she was calm and talked normally.
Hit 2: brunette, 19 or 20, no older than 21. She was the most responsive out of all my hits so I played all my aces with this one. She was flirty like the other brunette, smiles and a breathy voice, but had better eye contact / DIHL. She called me over because she was having trouble and I saw her keyboard tray was pushed in. The answer to her question required typing so I reached down to pull out the tray, assuming she would make space for my hand. She moved slightly so that the tray could slide all the way out but didn’t move for my hand - I brushed her stomach just by pulling out the tray. I took that as a clue. Later, as I was walking around, she had me stop and look over her work. I stood on her right side and put one arm around her backrest and the other on the table near her mouse so that I was basically in the “open” stage of giving her a hug. Still didn’t move. I do this again on another occasion and she not only doesn’t move away, but she actually leans into me just slightly. I stay in this position to show her where on the screen to click and her head is more or less on the left side of my chest.
Hit 3? Asian, low 20’s. Contrary to the above, this one was the least responsive. No matter what I did - jokes, doing the backrest thing - she just did not show any signs of a hit. However, at the very end of the class when she was getting ready to go, suddenly she became playful and more upbeat. Not quite as much as the brunettes but way more than when she first came in. Not sure what happened there.
Minor hits: smiles, IOI, DIHL from other females. Typical ammo + ishine hits.
The next day
I don’t remember if I showered - I’m pretty sure I didn’t. I had a blood donation appointment in the morning and wanted some extra sleep. At this point I had on the residual of the 1s of ammo and 3s of ishine.
Hit 1? Puerto Rican nurse, low 30’s. I was sitting next to her alone in a small room while she took my information and checked my hemoglobin levels. About two minutes into it, she complains about being hot and starts fidgeting with her scrubs. A few minutes later, she starts becoming flustered and makes typing mistakes. We joke a bit and have a few laughs. I was wearing more than her so I don’t think it was actually a heat issue. The addition of her being flustered leads me to think it was a faint phero hit from the residual.
Interesting trivia
I am just about out of my first ever bottle of ishine that I got back in 2008. I don’t know how quickly other people use 30 ml bottles but I got plenty of gifts of ishine so those buffered my usage rate. My original bottle of ammo is still going too.
The social media class was such a hit that a second round opened up and again I was called back to be the helper. I switched up my plan this time.
2s MX116 split wrists
I wanted to test the waters and see just how much I could get away with in class before it was too much.
Hit 1: Asian, low 20’s. She was hooked from the start. She came in late so I sat with her a few minutes to get her caught up. Throughout the class, I noticed her looking at me. Whenever I talked to her, she was very giggly (didn’t seem like a giggly type) and kept playing with her hair. I did the backrest thing and all that and she loved it.
Hit 2: brunette, 18 or 19. Whenever I did the backrest thing while helping her, she would push her breasts together. Imagine sitting at your computer, hands in your lap and arms at rest. Now squeeze your arms toward each other a bit and rest your hands on the table or imaginary surface in front of you. Not a natural position, right? If you were / are a girl, your breasts would then be pushed together. She did this each time I went to help her. Her breasts were probably low-mid B’s and it was obvious that they “grew” into low-mid C’s with this trick. I’ll take it.
Minor hits: In the class, the computers are set up in rows. Sometimes, I’ll be in the middle of a row scanning for hands and someone in the middle of the row behind me will raise their hand. Instead of walking around to the other side, I started doing something funny that night of just leaning over that person’s monitor or to the side to help them. Got lots of laughs and when I did it to the side, some girls would lean toward me (like how you might naturally lean in when someone asks you to look at their screen).
Conclusion
This set of classes has helped to boost my mood. I think I’m hitting those winter blues, plus work is busy and not much is going on socially right now. It was nice to “play around” at class and let loose. We know that ammo and other sex pheros work well so I’m not sure what to test next - social obviously would work, status might be too instructor-y. Any ideas?