Yup almost couldn’t leave the house- had to watch porn twice more. Waiting to meet date #2 as we speak. Third one’s the charm
Emotional roller coaster
Last night after day time booty-call: did not shower, 7 hours after whatever I wore during the date. (eww that’s bad I didn’t even realize, but it was a short not very sweaty session, still I can’t justify this)
1 spray MX300 wrist
2 spray MX274 shoulders
10 mcg TAL kinda spritzed all over hair,face, cleavage
Was supposed to meet this gorgeous personal trainer for a date in the city. We’ve been talking all week and there was a lot of build up for this date. We confirmed yesterday and made plans an hour before meeting. We’re texting the whole time, he was delayed “10 min away, in traffic”, “almost there had to stop by the store” this goes on for an hour.
I tell him he has 10 minutes to actually get to the bar or I’m going to leave. He said he’s coming. 20 minutes later, NOTHING. So finally after an hour and 15 minutes of waiting, I just leave the bar and say something pretty nasty to him.
He doesn’t respond until 2 hours later with something nasty in return and then sends me a lame snap chat of the street. FUCK THIS GUY.
So I go to meet up with my girls bc as much confidence as I have, I HAVE NEVER EVER BEEN STOOD UP LIKE THIS BEFORE IN MY LIFE. It hurt like hell. My sadness was all over my face. No guys approached me or even looked at me.
It starts pouring, all the bars we wanna go to are at capacity so we go to this country bar that I was just at with #1crush when we first met each other’s friends-- and it was brutal remembering us dancing in there. It’s brutal remembering EVERYTHING. I wanted so bad for us to work out and I think we still might, if we ever talk again.
So I’m broken-hearted, feeling like shit, checking my phone constantly to no love from anyone, and finally at last call: I get a call from my favorite lover of all time.
Reminder:
Ok so I wasn’t totally honest about not having feelings for him thing. Here is the real story:
We met at a concert, I told him he was too young for me (he was 23) and he said he didn’t get care and that age didn’t matter. I was currently dating other guys at the time and he came off like a bro so I told him I didn’t have space to date him bc I was already dating a few guys. He didn’t believe me. So I said he could be my play partner (I dabble with some dom stuff) and he had no clue what that meant. So our first session he’s not totally into the kink, but he kinda is, and it’s really hot. In the morning he says if we keep sleeping together, it’s gotta be only him and no one else. I said that wasn’t fair and to let me date him a bit before I commit. He didn’t like this answer but reluctantly agreed.
Fast forward 4 months of casually hooking up, we go out on a few dates that are super fun and we have crazy chemistry. Think how I feel for Traveling Love Bunny but more. a lot more. He was the first guy in a very long time that was actually my friend and I genuinely enjoyed being around him. We have everything in common and always have a great time.
So one weekend in Jan, he says, “let’s do brunch and watch football and ride bikes in central park and drive out to the beach and spend the whole weekend together” So we have brunch after an all night sex session, like a real couple, watch football, drive out to the beach in the middle of winter so wearing huge blankets/jackets, and snuggle under a rock watching the waves and the sun set. I FELL FUCKING HARDER THAN A DRUNK GIRL ON ICE. That moment was one of the happiest moments of my life. We held hands the whole drive home. He even drove through a neighborhood/street and showed me what type of house he wanted and if I could open a practice in that community. (gasp)
That week, we make plans to see each other and he just says “I don’t think we should see each other anymore because I was just looking for something casual and I don’t want to hurt you”
OK YEAH RIGHT. You just had your typical male meltdown that freaks you out when you start having actual feelings for someone. I know this routine all too well. Doesn’t mean I didn’t cry my eyes out for a week.
So I give it enough time and send him the booty call text from one of my first journal entries (quoted above). I’ve accepted that we can’t be anything, but we have such hot sex that I’m not willing to let him go that easily. (guard is up with this one)
During one of his drunken rambles he confesses to me how much I mean to him, how I’ll always be someone important in his life, that no matter if it feels like he’s forgotten me or over me, that I’m always on his mind and that’s never gonna change and for me to know that I have very special place in his heart. I could tell that he meant it.
Man I really sympathize with guys at this age who want something real and can’t handle it bc they are not emotionally ready.
So when I started seeing #1crush, I told my Favorite Lover that I couldn’t see him anymore. As soon as I ended things with #1 crush, I told my favorite lover the news. We proceed to joke about moving to CA together.
It takes him 1 week to call me! Right on cue. Every time we see each other we pick off right where we left off. It’s always so passionate, so sweet, so steamy, so sexy, so perfect, then we don’t see each other again for a month.
He gets so sentimental when we are together, saying things like, “just lay with me and be with me, I just want to cuddle with you and feel you close to me.”
When I picked him up in my cab, I was glowing ear to ear. I can’t believe a guy can change my mood so quickly. He made me laugh hysterically the ride home and we caught up through lost time and it was great.
Everything is the same as normal as far as our sex/passion/love, but I tell him about mones and if he’ll let me spray it on him. He’s down. So I put 2 sprays of 2 mcg each of P75 on his chest, and I add 250 ng of eNone to my neck.
Unfortunately, we passed the fuck out shortly after this. I’m also recovering from a cold so my sense of smell is fucked. But I can say that I woke up extremely horny and had to touch myself without waking him up. (thats the eNone)
He always has a nice body, but I was marveling his every scratch, dent, scar. and during our morning coffee (4 hrs after application) I just had twinkles in my eyes thinking “what a manly man, so strong, so smart, great tan, perfect hair” it’s the compliment thing I feel with p75. It makes you admire people for things you normally like but you like those qualities EVEN MORE.
Anyway- he was EXACTLY what the doctor ordered. My favorite lover saved the day and mended so much of my broken heart. <3
god I love MX274
1 spray MX274 wrist
1 spray MX 274 neck
long sleeve, jeans, jacket, boots
Meeting a gf at a bar with a group of her friends after work.
I walk in and can’t find them, so have to walk around the whole place a few times. EVERYONE is looking at me. I do not look that good. Seriously, I felt a bit chubby bc I just ate and swore that the jeans gave me muffin top.
So anyway, her and her boyfriend were ENAMORED BY me. Telling me constantly how gorgeous they thought I looked, bragging about me to their friends, the friends’ were fighting for my attention, respectfully flirting, but also really impressed and amazed with me. Honestly, the best part was just all the compliments all night long. They were so wasted they couldn’t even keep a topic straight, but they’d remember to say how much they missed me, how much they loved me, how rad they think I am, on and and on and on.
I’ve hung out with both of them wasted before and that was not the case. I swear I do not get such drastic effects with other products as I do with MX274 but I don’t know how I feel about the smell. There is something else in it that lingers that’s NOT the cover scent. It kinda bugs me. Honestly, I’m definitely buying this again and LOTS OF IT.
Someone decided to leave the men’s MX forum open but the women’s closed.
Official Women's MX Forum Status
The 250 nanogram -enone dosed spray was from my request to Androtics. Since the trend is toward secrecy, I shall double down. No more reports of molecules or mix concepts.
Seems like there is a major respect component going on in MX294.
Muffin top made me laugh..not as sexy as a camel toe, but it makes a nice pillow though 
Who wants to try an experiment?
I dooooooooo!
Apply as much P75 or -enone to thigh as you can stand. Wearing pants. No skirt or shorts. Note if any effects. Distally to and occluded from the nose.
Suggested dose 4-6 mcg P75 or 1-2 mcg -enone. There is a scientific foundation to this.
Ok Just sprayed for test P75 occluded and distal 6 mcg but, as much as I tried to isolate, I still def smelled it.
I tried really hard to keep it as far away as possible, block my nose and keep it in my pants until I thought it soaked in, but I def already smelled it.
And the old ones come running!
Word gets out fast when I’m back to my regular sexual rotation.
(for ex: when I’m not in a committed relationship)
Never thought I’d hear from this one!
That’s from March 26th! 6 months later this guy decides he wants to give me another chance, 2 weeks after I’m on facebook bitching about my broken heart in every post?
So, I DID NOT WEAR PRODUCTS AROUND HIM. He is obviously extremely shy, intimidated by me, has liked me this whole time or was so into me that the jealousy made him snap, but clearly he can’t let me go, so I did not even want to RISK wearing anything around him that he may respond differently to.
We went to a concert and it was going just as smoothly as our first time there (super de ja vu same exact concert venue), we are laughing, flirting, dancing, but no touching. I’m thinking, “this guy is never gonna get the balls to kiss me. It took him 6 months to ask me out again”
I had to be one to make the first move, I slid my hand around him to dance with him during the last song of the set. Then we held hands to avoid losing in each other during the crowd to exit. At the train platform, I thank him for the night, and BAM. FINALLY. I get the kiss I’ve wanted from this guy forever ago.
I even say that out loud. “Finally! I thought you were never gonna kiss me!”
He had a big goofy grin and we have texted twice since the date. He is A NO MONE GUY.
Now what is it gonna take? another 6 months before I get him in my bed? I won’t even be living in NYC by then probably.
MX 300 girl attraction
1 spray MX300 wrist
I was putting on make-up in our clinic’s lounge bathroom when 3 minutes after application of the spray, a random colleague comes in and tells me how great I look. I’ve never spoken to her in my life. Those were the only words out of her mouth.
Went on a date with a 6’8" guy (YESSSSSS) immediately after and he seemed into me. Took him 3 drinks to finally flirt with me and touch me. But the waitress was flirting with me instantly!
def girl attention with this thing! I thought it was a worthless product- but I just didn’t pay attention to it’s lesbo factor. Now I see it’s uses 
How are the results from this the same or different? 6 mcg is a high dose.
An intentional OD of 75 and -enone on the arms and a distal, occluded app point will be instructive; lowest effective and highest doses/effects.
OK, even when I had to pee, I would get big whiffs of this stuff so this is not an occluded study. Soo I had the day off today and needed to clean/organize my closets/scrub corners because it’s just been way too long since that has happened. I have to admit that when I would smell it (legs spread) I would get nostalgic about man and think about #1crush. I found his shirt during the clean and took about 5 minutes just taking his scent in— DID NOT NEED TO CRY THAT MUCH TONIGHT.
I had already given in and texted him a CA song that I thought he’d like- but no response. Still no response.
BUT IN OTHER NEWS!
Traveling Love bunny is in town this weekend.
We make plans for Sunday.
I make sure he has a place to stay.
He says yes, in Manhattan with a buddy.
So, we make plans for a phone bed time pillow talk “bed time phone talk”
the following night while he’s on the go.
Then he asks me 3 days ago if he can crash with me on Saturday night (yes!!)
I say of course.
Little did I know… that he lands in NYC on Saturday afternoon and is going straight to my house to nap/shower while I’m finishing my last patients.
I’M THE FIRST PERSON HE WANTS TO SEE WHEN HE LANDS IN THIS COUNTRY. THAT MEANS HE THINKS I’M HOME. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HUGE THIS IS.
HEART EXPLOSION!!!*
How huge is it?
You can apply P75 or -enone to the abdominal area, sort of substernal. Under light clothing.
The Worst Feeling of my life! and then a real mone story
I am not going to get into here- but let’s just say Traveling Love Bunny treated me like shit and I’ve never hated anyone more in my entire life. Not only did he humiliate me and disrespect me in front of all his friends, but blamed it on me.
No one has ever treated me so poorly and made me feel so pathetic or awful.
The rage I felt when I figured out the whole thing was so fucking real, I honestly did not care if he died. <— no one has ever made me this angry in my life and I’m not proud of feeling this way.
But the moral of the story is: you don’t always know who your friends are and make sure the people you surround yourself with have real hearts.
Random real mone story:
So I joined Okcupid. I started talking to someone who I wasn’t necessarily that attracted to, but for some reason, our banter seemed really natural and easy. I opened up a lot (no filter, obviously) and he seemed receptive to all my real feelings.
When he finds out how angry I am about the bullshit I went through this weekend, he calls me immediately to be there for me (wow only my sisters are that on it!) so when he offers to help me get my mind off things by taking me out- I agree.
When I get there, I’m thinking “ok he’s kinda cute and at least he dresses cool. Oh cool tattoos”
But then all of a sudden I’m doing that thing where I’m acting all stupid, stuttering over my words, saying dumb stuff, goofy smiles, flirting, hair flip, you name it, I’m ON IT.
Then round two, next drinks, we are talking about ex-relationships, future relationships, where we want to live, our families, etc. (notices this pattern when I’m wearing products?)
So obviously we go back to his place, he has a super manly apartment and a really manly build. I’m all about it. So we are sitting around talking and we are both kinda admiring each other, out loud. (reminder, I’m not wearing ANY products). We start having super passionate steamy slow like love-making style making out/oral sex that makes me feel super super super sensitive. Like he barely has to touch me and my back is arching.
He wants me to sleep over so I do and I notice that his smell, which I originally thought was his breath, is all over his sheets, all over his body, everywhere. It’s sweet like fennel or like mild fenugreek (I dunno some herb). So I ask him straight up “weird question, do you use any essential oils? cologne?” He thinks I’m weird for asking but I tell him I like his smell.
I feel bad bc I was def tossing and turning (his bed made a ton of noise!) and felt like I was keeping him up. So I tell him that I’m worried I’m ruining his sleep and that I’ll just go, he wraps his whole big manly body around me and says “please don’t.”
Wow! So surprised to hear about Traveling Love Bunny! I checked in a couple of times, expecting a really awesome post about him. I am sorry he made you feel the way he did, that he didn’t realize how lucky he was to be with you. I find myself living a little vicariously through your journal, since I don’t have the balls to do most of the things you do
Interesting about the OkCupid guy. Sounds like he really liked you! I just went and checked it out, and I can’t believe the guys that are on there in my area are the guys who I saw on Match.com years ago, and they still don’t do a thing for me. I guess I really am meant to be a crazy cat lady.
EFF the new Vanilla Dream
Nothing really to report, finally got new mones (p96, more p74 and more MX274 my fave) but I’m really disappointed bc I ordered it in Vanilla Dream based on how much I loved my accidental order of Vanilla Dream and HOLY CRAP IT IS AWFUL.
AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL. It’s Batch #N, the fragrance I liked is from Batch #8. Mickaelia assures me that there was no change in the formulation- but it is so obvious- it is night and day.
Unless someone else notices and reports it, all I can do is exchange it, which I’m not going to bother. Everyone I’ve asked to smell the difference can notice IMMEDIATELY. It’s such a shame- it was such a lovely scent.
The new smell is way too strong, doesn’t even really smell like vanilla, and is more like a bad bad candle/cheap perfume. It’s actually embarrassing to wear. SUCH A SHAME.
Well damn. I thought you had something great here AD!
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oh. and P.s I hooked up with #1 crush last friday. Still no news from him, it was the first time we’d seen each other in 2 months. Been so fucking broken hearted about him. He claims he’s in a better place now, actually had the audacity to claim he hasn’t been with anyone else (WHO BELIEVES THESE LIES?!?) and apologized for how things ended up between us. We didn’t have the talk about where we are going or what we are- but I didn’t want to have it and I don’t want to. Only time will tell how emotionally stable he is and how he is going to treat me. From the looks of it- no fucking differently. No time for boys, these 2 months determine the rest of my career.
We’ll replace, free, nbd. Sorry bout that.
There’s two vanillas back at the shop.
Someone probably got a little trigger happy with the wrong one. We don’t send a lot of Vanilla out. Mighty embarrassing for us, but thanks for dropping a note.
I’ll look over your ticket and get you the right stuff.
Edit: Ticket sent. Thanks in advance for sending us back the goods. Identifying/replacing misbatches priority #1. With all the fancy technology we have at our disposal, sometimes you can’t edit out human error. We’ll check the logs and correct course. Thanks again.
Thanks you’re the best!!! I’m on it! Been busy just saw this!
p96 HOLY SHIT
First of all, thank you so much Brian F for being on top of my complaint in this forum and for helping me out. I have not had a chance to get to the post office in time (I work 13 hour days now, fuck this pediatrics rotation) and I’m taking the oral/practical boards next week! AGH!
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I’ve been playing with MX274 and p96. I have not tried p96 alone so take what you will from these reports. I’ve been comparing my lovers behaviors with 1 spray MX274 alone and with 10-20 mcg P96 in some weird Vanilla scent (that I will get around to fixing!)
Bc of the embarrassing scent, I’ve been dousing myself with Diptyque Eu-Duelle which is very vanilla based but heavenly. (the reason I like this cover scent is it actually fades SIGNIFICANTLY and most ppl can’t smell it- I notice it but I wear it everyday)
The first thing is absolutely certain about P96, MEN COMMENT ON YOUR SCENT. Every man has a different description, all of which sexual in nature:
“It reminds me of my first blow job”
“your smell is going straight to my head- like both of them”
“what is it about your perfume? I want to bury my face in it and in you”
“come stand near me some more, I need to be around this smell longer”
It’s very peculiar. The perfume, MX274, and other mones, alone do not get such a strong reaction to scent. This one is a conscious awareness of the odor!
One of my new lovers, with the p96, compliments me more. I love compliments so I’ll do anything to hear how beautiful and amazing I am. In the past, he has been very reluctant to compliment me and when he does it’s always in a backhanded way. (I know so annoying, just tell me you like me and shut the fuck up)
and recently- when he couldn’t stop going on and on and on about my scent and how it’s driving him wild- I couldn’t resist- I had to tell him what I was doing to him (confessed the mones). He felt like I was fucking with his mind and felt a little manipulated (shut up!) Then even after we fucked all night- he offered to do me a huge favor the next day. like BOYFRIEND status favor. I was extremely surprised. We’ve never even hung out during the day. Even stranger- he texted me non stop for 2 days after! that night I did add 5 mcg p78 in 6% Neroli so that could have been what pushed him over the edge.
Then last night it was just 20 mcg p96 and 2 sprays mX 274 going on a blind date who ended up being too fat. (while on the date, guys at the bar hit on me, the bouncers hit on me, EVERYONE hit on me everywhere) So I texted my new favorite lover (nothings gonna happen with this one, he’s in an open relationship but his cock is my favorite thing on the planet) who was Djing a club in the city and we both went to the club. So hot getting off on the fact that my lover was watching me as I was trying to shoo away this fat fuck.
I was pretty polite to him nevertheless, trying to make the most of the night, but he started getting hostile and pissed at me that I was texting while on a date with him and refusing to go back to his place (WTF!) so I finally ditch him, meet up with my lover who is now drinking with a few of his guy friends. The guy friends all love me.
And we end up having a threesome with one of his guy friends!!!