Actually, taking parts II and III Nov/Dec so don’t call me a Dr yet!
Update with #1crush! (not mone related)
So I haven’t had a chance to see him or test because I have been in the clinic working 13 hour straight days, no breaks!! We theoretically do get breaks, it just doesn’t happen.
side note, today was a magical day off: woke up without an alarm, took the dog for a long walk, ordered a $5 iced double latte just the way I like it, got a mani/pedi, then spent 2 hours in the gym breaking all my leg records! (it’s only been 3 months of lifting again, but I was really bummed my weights were so low at the beginning, finally broke 100 pounds for press, curl, abd/adductors)
Okay back to the point of this entry:
The dude’s been in the dog house a little bit because he’s been crazy stressed about school and which residency programs he could get into and which ones he wants. He kept apologizing profusely for being “off” recently as things have been super hectic. I’ve definitely noticed, but I am a girl, and usually when a guy is “off” it’s because they are no longer interested. I kept giving him the benefit of the doubt bc when we’d see each other, it was heaven on earth. He’s given me SO many reasons to trust that he genuinely likes me and that he sees potential with me. Maybe part of why I’m so hesitant/quick to think he’s over me, is that it is hard for me to believe that something this good can last.
In my head, my response to him pulling away, was to just move on and get over him. This has been tearing me apart and I’ve been in a very sour mood. But then I imagined a conversation going something like this:
me: Babe, I don’t want to chase you. You’re not that interested so I’m just going to move on.
him: but that’s not true, I’ve just been going through a hard time
me: yeah you’ve been saying that but you’re not reaching out to me, you’re obviously over me
him: well if that’s how you feel…
and then we never talk again because I’m an insensitive bitch who doesn’t trust. So then I remembered reading somewhere that people respond to what you set on the table, you put up walls, they put up walls, you open up, they open up. I remember noticing when I applied this logic to him and started expressing more openly how sexy and hot I thought he was, he finally started reciprocating and complimenting me. (geez took the man long enough)
so instead our real life conversation went something like this:
Me: I broke my leg records today!
him: Nice! did bad on my exam… totally fucccckkkkkkked
me: 
how bad?
him: 72% but its not worth a whole lot so I can make up for it, but I met with the Dean and he’s supportive of me wanting to go back to CA, he just said it’s going to be tough… having a rough week
me: awww love! You’re stronger than anyone thinks, don’t let anyone make you think you can’t have what you want. Your will is yours and yours alone, no one can take it from you. And you know you’re going to be set when it’s time to return to CA, so maybe you can look in to awesome programs that are in places you wouldn’t consider and then you’d be an even extra stellar surgeon- plus you know your lady will support ya along the way. Just tryin to say- I’m here for you, believe in you, and stand by you <3
pause okay LS that is crazy ballsy to go right out and say something like that!! Declaring your love through residency and saying how you feel!!! I don’t know why, but this week has been totally about me just coming right out and saying what I feel, so fucking bizarre and brave!!
continue:
HIM: haha You’re sooo awesome. That’s just what I needed to hear, I have to narrow down my selection to 10 programs in the next 2 weeks. You should help me pick NY ones 
Me: glad I could make you smile, I’d love to help you choose, send me links
HE’S FINALLY COMING RIGHT OUT AND SAYING HE’D STAY IN NY FOR ME!!!
See all it took was me being brave enough to show some love and he reciprocated right away!
Too early to pop open a bottle of champagne but still, such a huge success!
back to square one, #1crush and I are over
He’s been distant and not there for me. I’m experienced, I knew what it meant. I got bad news about my family and fell apart in clinic, told him about it, and he ignored me all day. When I confronted him, he said he’d be there for me, but wasn’t. So the next day I told him I didn’t want to be a part of a one-sided support system where I’m the only reaching out and not receiving support in return. I told him I had very strong feelings for him but I needed to know if he could be there for me. We talked later. The summary is as follows:
– asking him to be there for me made him feel like my boyfriend
– he doesn’t know how to handle others’ sadness, so he closes up
– he felt it was unfair to judge him based on one day of him “fucking up”
– I insisted that it wasn’t about fucking up, as much as it was him not caring
– he admitted that no, he was not thinking of me or worried about me
– he then confesses that he’s been hiding the fact that, wait for it…
**
HE JUST GOT OUT OF A 6 YEAR RELATIONSHIP RIGHT BEFORE MEETING ME.
– **He isn’t over it and has a lot healing to do, lost a bunch of his friends, and himself in the whole process of the relationship and breakup
– the ex is now with his friend so he has no interest in ever re-connecting with her
– he says he isn’t ready to be in a relationship (NO FUCKING SHIT DUMBIE) and is sad bc he never expected to meet someone he likes as much as me so shortly after the break up
– he tells me he wants to keep seeing me but recognizes that it is unfair to 'hold me down" since he can’t be anything serious with me
– he has strong feelings for me and can’t just stop feeling them for me, but knows he has to compromise by letting me see other people, even though he himself doesn’t want to see other people
I knew not to let my guard down so fucking quickly. He is having the typical male meltdown right as things start getting serious with a girl they are falling for and see a future with. Except, he has absolutely NO potential of figuring this out bc HE HAS EX-ISSUES GALORE.
so yes I’m sad. and what does sad LS do? find the hottest person to fuck all night:
1 spray MX300
2.5 mcg p75
Nailed this gorgeous, buff 6’4" all american man with the biggest cock I have ever seen let alone laid hands on. I’m forever ruined because I didn’t know dicks came that huge and now that I’ve had a piece of it, no one will ever compare.
HEAVEN. Except he’s only in town until tomorrow (lives in CA!) We are texting but the follow up date/fuck session never happened. (oh well got my lady times anyway)
The pick up was simple, I was dancing, chatting with the girl in their group, she introduced me to all of them, we partied all night, went back to one of the guys’ houses to drink more after last call, he walked me to the cab (no flirting or touching has happened this whole time), then started kissing me and got in the cab with me. He whispered in my ear “I’m going to lick you until you cum over and over” OMG PLEASE GIMME MORE MEN LIKE HIM. PLEASE.
1 MX300
5 mcg p74
Met my childhood friends who are visiting for a night out. One of them confesses he is into cougars and wants me to be his wingwoman. So I talk to a group of pretty girls (all Irish CP!) and dance with them all night. We end up at a very ghetto gay bar in the wrong neck of the woods as the only females in the entire club. One of the girls takes my hand, pulls me away from the friend group, and starts grinding all over me. We end up giving each other lap dances on this couch and making out all over the dance floor, groping each other non stop.
We go to a hotel bar hoping they would serve us alcohol after last call but no luck. She drags me into the girl’s room, I sit up on the counter and wrap my legs around her. We are getting heavy when we hear someone walk in. so we go into one of the stalls and start taking off our clothes. She’s got the hottest body ever and is SUPER into my body, telling me in her cute irish accent “omg you’re so hot” over and over.
We then end up at my house and hook up all night. This is the SECOND time in history I have ever gone this far with a girl and the only time no guy was involved.
I made her cum 3x! I’m jealous bc playing with her made me analyze what guys feel like with me. And I’m pretty sure she gets wetter than me much more easily even though she is older. SUPER FUCKING SAD about this. I drink a ton of water and I def get wet but I want to gush. If I’ve been drinking, forget it, I need buckets of lube.
Can’t stop thinking about her rack, hottest tits ever.
I wonder if your weightlifting prowess is a factor? You know, if you like the MX300, IS/B and 314 B TOGO are cheap.
weightlifting as in making me appear butchy? Bc I’m not at all. I’m a size 4, 34 D, 5’4" long hair- always in dresses/heels, I’m just super proud of my body. It’s been so long since I’ve lifted bc I get really competitive and exercising takes over my life. I figured if I wake up early before clinic starts, then it doesn’t have to interfere with anything in my life other than sleep. And how angry I get if the trains are late and I don’t have time to lift.
Or are you talking about how people who exercise regularly may have different fluctuations in their hormones/phero sig?
I don’t know which mx is my fave- so far mx 300 is going well. I’m just testing what I have.
Actually. Forget what I just said. I’m not going to delete it. Just ignore it. The challenge here is that, after ten years, we still know incredibly little about P75 and P80. That is because cross-gender testing essentially ended 5 years ago.
I have many factors to consider between now and January. They will require me either to dive deeper or exit the pool. Treading water does not work. I am trying to grasp the significance of what P75 is doing. How does this very male molecule fit into the journal post above?
If you are liking alpha MX’s, using 314 B spray buffered with feminine IS/B is a way to make your own. These are mixing skills that take years to learn. There are not many female mentors here to teach them. As much as I enjoy interacting with people, I have less and less time to do it.
MMDI are you breaking up with pherotalk!! say it aint so! We trust you heavily and there are less and less of you who actually know what the fuck is going on with this shit.
I have to say, I have NO FRIGGIN clue what p75 adds. I don’t experiment enough to really understand and there are so many variables, it’s hard for me to make definitive statements. I do know that I get hotter men when I wear it. but is that coincidence?
Please don’t leave us. we neeeeeeeeed you!
I’m just limited in reading time. I’d like to keep up with journals. Not always able to.
Here’s what we know:
2.5 mcg P75 –
Men wear it, other men don’t like, women seem to like or don’t care.
What are your negative or positive self effects, what does it do for you, how does it hit women and men? How does it hit strictly straight or not women and men?
Do you recommend it to other women? At what dose? More ?'s:
Have you tried lower
What do you think are female perceptions of men wearing it
What about 5 mcg
Do you think most all women should test this at 500 nanograms
Is it something all men could wear at 500 with some benefit
ALL of the molecules are now offered at nanograms. These molecules now offer something for all genders and sex prefs–no other company in history has offered something like a precise 500 nano spray. They don’t have P75, and they don’t have the equip for -enone or androstanone. They don’t sell it.
500 should add a nice kick to any male or female alpha mix with few negatives.
I’m going to show you how this fits phase two of the future of pheromone tech. I think you’ll understand.
Nobody thinks you have a penis or facial hair. We need to know why some guys are so edgy on P75 and some girls aren’t.
Ok I hear you and I will work hard to find out those answers for you. However, I usually wear these products when I go out and you have to understand that I work crazy hard during the work week and by the weekend I’m usually smoking the green, taking tranquilizers for fun, sometimes doing some moles, sometimes taking pain killers to increase my alcohol buzz, so I have never really played with these things in isolation. I don’t know if you can trust anything I say ?
(stop your judging, I’m a strict believer of moderation so cool it)
Wait I got something!! So I sprayed 2 mcg p75 alone without any intoxication after being extremely grumpy, sad, trying to rally to go out and after getting pretty sipping on a beer I told my roomie “I’m really pretty. Like really pretty”
p75= confidence boost
so as I just mentioned, once I finished putting on my make up, I looked at myself in the mirror and just marveled at myself. Straight checked myself out. I do this regularly but it was more like “wow LS, look at you. YOu are really something else” So much so that I even voiced it to my roomie.
So then I added the 1 spray of mx 300 (so now 2 mcg p75 + 1 spray mx 300) to go out with a gf. As I was walking out of the house to the train I had the same umph in my step I get with IS/A- super confident bitch.
On the train ride over, I’m thinking:
“dude, fuck #1crush. I’m going to be the girl that got away. let him fucking miss me til the day he dies because I’m just so fucking awesome. I’m fun enough to hang with his friends, I never pressured him to define the relationship, I gave him good sex, cooked for him, supported him, got wasted with him, brought chicks for his friends. I win. I’m the best thing that ever happened to him and when he realizes that, I’ll be long gone with someone bigger, hotter, and more successful than him.”
I’ve been wanting to feel this way since the whole disaster, but haven’t honestly felt this way. This ego boost was bad bc none of the boys out at the bars were cute enough for me last night (all short!) and the one tall guy knew he was tall so was too cool and cocky for me. Got attention but was not feeling any of it. Kinda ignored everyone. I don’t think that’s the vibe you want to send out when you are trying to pick up on someone.
I thought I was better than everyone and no one likes a cocky bitch.
and I just remembered: another smoking hot european girl totally hit on me and asked me if I liked girls. When I said yes, she gripped her arm around me and wouldn’t let me go. I felt like riding dick so I ditched her (oops!) plus I didn’t like her friends.
more on p75 and p74
so I was missing the boy really badly today, thinking about where we would meet, how he’d laugh, how we’d kiss, his sigh, laying on the roof together on our first date, so fucking nostalgic, EVERYTHING REMINDED ME OF THAT FUCKING MAN.
So I tried the p75 again to remind myself that I’m better than him and that everything would be fine. Sure enough, minutes of spraying 2 mcg P75 to the wrist, I’m dancing and singing (was super hungover and lazy all day watching porn over and over couldn’t move off the couch). I love how beautiful I think I am on this thing.
I’m supposed to see my friend’s friend DJ (whom I hadn’t met) today mostly so I force myself to get out of the house and meeting people again. I add 1 spray of MX 300 just because that’s what I’m mostly experimenting with right now and try to make myself seem more approachable and friendly by adding 5 mcg P74. I dunno if that worked necessarily.
Now that you’ve all pointed it out- it’s true women like this P75 thing way more than guys. I got checked out by literally every man I walk past and my interactions with men were civilized but reserved. Women on the other hand were laughing, telling me stories, opening up, it’s totally true- men kinda hold back around this. They are not rude or not interested, but just not as “ga-ga” as the girly mones.
2 hours after spraying I meet my childhood best guy friend and his friends at a bar after football (fuck football for the record). He doesn’t treat me any differently, he is normally a brother to me and that doesn’t change at all. He’s one of my favorite people ever and I’m so grateful of our friendship. His girlfriend and I bonding a lot, I really like her and I have been trying very hard to get close to her. His other guy friend and I start talking about marriage and how scary divorce is and commitment (how and why does this shit always come up when I’m wearing mones?!? I swear I did not initiate this) He was attentive, polite, respective.
It is true that female bonding occurred more heavily today, was it the p75 or the p74, or the mx300, I can’t honestly say. But I am tempted to say that it was all 3.
The “crash” you all describe, I have yet to experience. No jittery feeling, no feeling of being “focused”, no end of the day crankiness. However, it’s been 2 whole days since I’ve heard from #1 crush and it’s starting to sink in that I may never hear from him again. Sooo the cab ride home I let go of a few tears being sad about him. My friends and I are in a pool betting to see how long it will take for him to contact me again. Please submit your bets! Our last conversation occurred Friday when we were supposed to hang out:
me: Hey, I’m confused, aren’t we hanging out tonight?
him: hey sorry, I just woke up, haha- thinking about seeing my friends again before they leave. Thinking about heading into BK 
me: You said last night was their last night. Have fun doing you- it’s clear you need space from me. And it’s the only way you’ll heal. Good luck with everything and let me know when you’re ready to be my friend.
no response! Caught him in straight lie! (unless I read the first text wrong from the day before and when he said “I want to see my friends one more time before they leave tonight” he meant leave, tonight- oh the beauty of a comma. I mean seriously, he can’t be that dumb to not realize I can scroll up 3 texts and see that he already said they were leaving and then say they hadn’t left yet?! If it was a misunderstanding, I’d expect him to try to clarify. Or at least thank me for being understanding to his emotional unavailability.
My bet is 1 month. Roomie thinks 6 weeks. 3 people think within the week. The rest somewhere between 1-4 weeks. Place your bets friends!
Yeah LS, you have to watch yourselves with those Irish lasses…Hot blooded, can dance all night, and many of them can drink you under the table! Lol.
I assume Irish girl was diggin the P75. I really like that stuff. I havent worn it as much as I used to because i’m trying/testing all kinds of new shit, but when I do come back to it, it hits hard. Ladies love that juice.
Have to ask…was she a redhead or long curly brown hair?? Sorry, Im a sucker.. 
Lesbo signal!
I don’t know what I’m sending off but apparently the wife of my friend’s friend I met on Sunday while wearing:
2 sprays MX300
5 mcg p74
2 mcg p75
THOUGHT I WAS A REAL LIFE LESBIAN AND WAS OUR MUTUAL FRIEND’S “PARTNER”
The only difference between this and the mix I was wearing when the Irish girl came on to me so hard is that night with her, I WAS NOT WEARING P75.
So willing to test:
2 sprays MX300
5 mcg p74
as a girl on girl combo!
(and I need to remember that the original purpose of the p75 was to spray it on the MEN that come into my bedroom to turn ME on, god LS- priorities ME ME ME.)
I have had the “crash” with P75, and I have noted it in my journal. But I realized I was crashing when I was crazy into P75 and its effects. I was kind of hooked on it and I was using higher and higher doses, basically 10mcg to 50mcg a few times. I also was not buffering them much. Then I realized after falling asleep in my den at 830PM for 3 days in a row-Fri,Sat, Sun that I was using too much. So I did my homework and read that most of the guys here on P-Talk were using 5mcg max, and many even lower. I now mostly wear P75 at 2.5% with P83 20mcg and the crash has mostly gone away.
Reading this thread and comments about smaller amounts of P75 got me thinking about mixing up a togo with a micro dose of p75 to see if it still pulls. I will let you know.
I love ERONE WITH MY WHOLE HEART
FUCK NOT ERONE, ENONE! I keep fucking that up!!!
so last night:
1 spray mx274
1 spray mx 300
10 mcg TAL
I was trying to recreate the mix I wore that night that hot guy in the subway stopped to tell me how hot my heels were. and how “phenomenal” I looked: gimme more.
I went to a local concert, the bands were SO FUCKING GOOD. I’m so glad I started feeling better enough to go (called in sick twice, almost fucking ruined my career this morning bc blacked out and didn’t set an alarm- TOTALLY NEED TO PULL THE BRAKES on fucking hot men to heal my broken heart, NOTHING is worth my future. )
Ok so the hotties all checked me out but no one talked to me and I didn’t have the right opportunity to talk to anyone. The after party was at a different bar. The second I walk in, a group of 3 tall buff guys grab my attention. They are Swedes (sigh, speak in your funny accent all night long in my ear) and in funny euro trash clothes. But give me a tall manly man with muscles, add an accent on, and I’M DONE.
Like I said I blacked out, didn’t know he was even here until I counted the condoms on the floor and panicked bc I actually DID NOT remember who I was with at first. TRAINWRECK. You can judge me for that.
(I took a prescription painkiller for my awful cold before drinking, and TOTALLY forgot to go easy on the booze bc I forgot I took it) again–TRAINWRECK.
Today:
1 spray MX300 wrist
10 mcg TAL shoulders, breasts
250 ng ENONE behind my neck
I’m meeting some guy at a wine bar across the street for a booty call. DURING THE DAY. That’s how horny I get when I’ve been drinking and my heart is broken. (being hungover makes me want sex so bad it’s crazy crazy crazy)
Ok so he’s a little too femme for me and he’s clearly socially awkward but we’ve talked dirty and he said he’d go down on me forever so sure, come over and eat me out.
mid way through prosecco glass #1, (20 min after application), I’m like egh I don’t think I wanna fuck him anymore.
after glass #1 (40 min), I’m like yeah he’s cool and has a nice body, okay I’ll hit it.
after glass #2 (1.5 hrs) I’m like, LET’S GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE I’M READY TO EXPLODE.
So OMG, FUCK MOL C. ENone all the way for steamy sex. This stuff is the shit. I was so sensitive, everything felt AMAZING, and I came so fucking hard.
and guess what the best part is? I’ve been stressing about this whole dry thing while drinking and it embarrasses the shit out of me. Ok I was hung as fuck, had 2 glasses, totally dehydrated- I should be DRY DRY DRY (I def was last night from the snipbits I can remember from Swede)-
BUT I WAS SOAKED.
Still soaked.
Had to watch porn after he left. So I masturbated with porn before he got there, with the shower head before I met him, and then after he left.
I’m still ready for more.
BUT!!! Mother fucker quit going down on me bc he got a raging headache. He wasn’t faking, he was miserable. He begged me for Tylenol and apologized profusely.
I think he was too sensitive to one of my sprays! fuck!!
Okay ready to judge me again? Will probably hook up with another dude tonight if he ever calls me. Three in one day has always been my record.
Awesome day had by all… 
So…you did use Mol C or no? Didn’t follow you on that. Thanks.
I just edited it to make more sense, no I didn’t. I just used to think it was the sex mone but it’s ENONE all the fucking way to enhance orgasms or hornyness or whatever.
after thought- do you think #1crush is having as much sex as me? I really hope so, he needs to know how bad sex is with other people to remember how much he loves me. I wonder if he would high five me or get sad if he knew all the epic sex I’ve had in the week we’ve broken up. and the week building up to it where I knew I lost him.
I would guess he is not having as much sex as you..hehe…some guys just don’t know when they have a good thing going. Grass is always greener or whatever. Sounds like you are rebounding nicely though.
CP