Could not conquer target
10 mcg Mol C chest
10 mcg P74 behind ears
MX 135 x 3 sprays neck
IS/A x 2 sprays neck
Days 9-11 of my cycle (pre-ovulation)
I left town for a few a days to stay with a guy I’ve been talking to and enjoy the city/relax for a while. We have never been on a date/hooked up but have been flirting for almost a year. I had no expectations- was thinking I would resist hooking up with him and just enjoy his company- no pressure, no awkwardness, we have never spent that much time together and I’m about to stay at his house for 3 days. But we have a ton of chemistry and I just wanted to get him to fall for me a little more than the usual casual fling.
I noticed he had a stuffy nose- I asked about it, he said he was recovering from a cold. DAMNIT. So I reapplied and added 2 sprays MX274. (I did this the whole time, double spraying the above mix)
Background on the guy: tall, buff, white male 6 feet, 26 yo, free-spirited, easy going guy, travels, moves around a lot, going through some tough family stuff.
I play it cool, I was too dressed up in Dr. clothes when I got off the flight (had a meeting right before- everyone at the airport loved me -no pheros- and I got a ton of attention) but I could tell he was not digging the look “why are you so fancy?”= so luckily smart girls pack for every occasion and I changed into jeans and a tshirt.
He introduces me to his friends and they love me. They are also impressed with our rapport, noticing how we goof around and make fun of each other, really playful fun flirting. One of the friends is into me and I guess they kinda both fight for me the first night. Target is not an affectionate guy, but would sneak in some arms around me, gave me our first kiss before we even left the house-- so it was clear he was into me, but he was holding back.
We go out to dinner together, make small talk with the couple next to us who also met in NY, I drop the no-baby-bomb and he is all about it! YES!
You could tell he was “fishing” for how I felt about him, which I obviously down-played bc he runs when things get serious. The worst part is, that we have this ongoing joke about us being crazy in love, getting married, and spending forever together, saying stupid things like “but how are we going to spend forever together when you lie to me?” I honestly think part of this is his way of coping with liking me, like if he jokes about it then it makes it not real.
But I swear it was like a sea-saw, one moment he is holding my hand, touching my face and we are having serious bonding moments, and the next he doesn’t want me near him. We opened up a lot and spent some amazing moments together, but like I said, I played it cool and let him direct the way he wanted things to go because I didn’t want to scare him, I mean I did fly all the way to mostly hang out with him.
One day before going into the ocean, I didn’t spray any pheros, just my lotion, and he said “different perfume today?” and I said “oh none, just lotion, do you like it?”, him “yeah it’s ok- I guess I like the other one better”-- so HE DID smell it!
I get the feeling that he wanted more “quality time” with me to prove that it wasn’t all about sex- which is silly because we literally spent every moment together doing fun things and bonding. We opened up about deep things and I only initiated sex in the morning (it was getting frustrating- the mones were making me REALLY horny this time and he has a banging body with a huge cock. I have never done so many sprays/combos- now I know!) It’s stupid how my sexual aggression is awesome for some guys but a buzz kill for others- like I get the whole “you treat me like a piece of meat” bullshit.
It was his last week in town too and his friends threw him a going away party on our last night. One of the girls he was casually hooking up with was sad that he was leaving and attended. She knew I was coming and he warned me about her. I sympathized with her and told him he needs to give her closure. It got awkward. He gave her A TON of attention and ignored the rest of us for a good hour. I got annoyed but didn’t let it show to him. His friends were so shocked that he was trying to introduce the two of us and were just waiting for drama, but we just smiled at each other and added each other on Facebook. I even bought her a round when I bought drinks for he and I. It helped that I thought I was hotter and cooler than her. He sees me standing off to the side while he is being all lovey with her and you can see the guilt all over his face when we catch eyes. He rushes over to me and kisses me in front of everyone. She leaves shortly after.
It’s so hard to describe this week. We hooked up every morning, almost reluctantly- he was really annoyed with how horny I am, even though he teases me lovingly about it from a distance, we didn’t “act” like a couple in public or around his friends, but on the last night we were there, he drunkenly introduced me as his “girlfriend” to all the people we met after the other girl left (Like your MX135 post Monesmademedoit!) The same night he shows me an adorable photo of a puppy and I say “I want it! Can I have it?” he says “Don’t worry our babies will be cuter”
Conclusion: This is a perfect example of how pheros can only take you so far and if the situation does not perfectly mimic the feelings, then it just leaves the target confused without knowing what to do. I noticed he was struggling with being really attracted to me and wanting to just fall for me but then resisting because we don’t live in the same city, he hates relationships, and wants to just be a free-spirit. He made sure to let me know that I’m one of a few people he stays in contact with-- so I don’t think this is the end. I got back yesterday, and we’ve still been texting more so than normal (today even just randomly “HI”, obviously missing/thinking of me). He also tagged me in a comment on Facebook which I don’t think he has ever done.
But man that P74 is a killer! I swear the self-effects are too big of a risk to even use it! I was not expecting to fall for him and I totally did. I can appreciate that the time we had together- was just that- but it also was a glimpse of what our traveling life could be like and now I’m just longing for more. I have NO idea what he is feeling/thinking.
or if they are, they fight it for whatever bullshit they are going through.
