What effects is P102 giving you here? Specifically. Are you calling it feminine? I lean in that direction. I also tend to fall when I lean.
Yeah, Joan was a real pipe hittin’ mofo. One more fuck. From Mr. Joan herself…
watch?v=OKn00A40uWE
Lol..Classic Jett! Tell it like it is girl! Love it!
My five cent worth…
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Its not good to do the “I (don’t) love you jokes” because as it goes on, it can build up some doubts from within you, specially if… just as you’ve stated… it’s starting to sound that the other party is not kidding you at all. A joke is a mask for truth. It always invites someone to speak of the truth with an assurance that it will be sent and heard as a joke by the receiving party. Testing the water with a “joke” is a common thing.
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But if you really know your man, and if you think you both did a great job on making your relationship sturdier, then I think you don’t have anything to be worried about. Maybe he’s just putting extra emphasis or acting it out for the simple reason that he wants to tease you, or test you.
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If you’re suspicion/doubt stayed on… don’t make it linger. Ask him. And prove yourself wrong. Or right.
Just sayin… 
haha once again- Jett coming in with full force! I’m still the only girl in his family/friends travel album-woooo!! It’s the little things. Totally stealing #realestateperv from you! The best summer party you need to get your ass down here for is Tiki Disco. Get on it sister.
Totally agree with you- vagina sisters is a perfect term for this! or Frenemies. I’m going to side with frenemies by the way he described her, specifically stating “I know when you say you’re cool with something, you mean it, but her, she doesn’t mean it. I think she’s really upset about you.” soooo I’m going to side on caution here. I really love my apt and the thought of someone breaking my records/furniture/art is devastating.
um- our grandmas bitched slapped the ho until she backed the fuck off. Or, invited them over for tea and warned them with an evil smile that if they tried anything they would ruin their chances of ever getting married to any respectable rich bachelor in the 500 mile radius.
I agree on both accounts! Jokes are usually a way of people “casually” talking about something they really mean. And, since I know that what we have lasts the tests of time AND distance, I am not overly concerned about his traveling the world, etc. Neither he or I are jealous people so us seeing other people in the interim isn’t anything to be worried about. All the pics he has posted of him with his new “friends” don’t bother me- I’m still cuter. So no- no need to ask him about it- no need to give him confirmation about nothing- we know what we know deep down. Saying it aloud makes it real- he and I like to pretend that things are not real.
and so sorry for not reporting anything! This rotation is kicking my ass, I’m running out of stuff, and I’m barely leaving the house with my research. More to come soon!
Frenemies. 1800’s had its Jane Austin and Mr. Darcy, 1900’s its Peyton Place. Get yourself some TAF 2.5. Not sexy, but useful. Some P104 as well. 12.5 mcg is more than enough. Different rules apply for ADHD.
Well then. That means you do really love each other. You are a couple securely in love with each other. So secured that you can even do an “I dont love you jokes” with each other. And it makes the two of you enjoy more each ones company, each others “lies”.
Tsk. Love do move in mysterious ways. 
I must admit though, me and my partner is dishing out the same joke towards each other. the more i say “i don’t” the tighter the hug and deeper the kiss i receive/give. Intimately fun.
Fuck I must be on some weird hormonal twist (also going through some intense emotional/stressful shit right now)- bc this post totally made me cry. I wish I felt that secure about our future. I fantasize about it and I feel confident about it, but it is nothing at the moment and may never materialize.
Why is LS so fucking sad today? (sorry not phero related but you’re all my family now)
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My fave couple who’s fiance got fucked up and hit on me is still together despite me tattling on him to her. They turned it around on me (like I figured) and I’m officially kicked out of that ENTIRE friend circle of awesome artists and musicians. I got UNINVITED to a party and will no longer be able to attend a bunch of these awesome events I was really looking forward to.
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I’m fairly certain someone failed me on a rotation bc of his religious/racist/sexist beliefs but I have no substantial proof. Every attending I have ever had has said nothing but amazing things about me and I get praised to the highest regard. So ONE asshole out of 30 gets to possibly hold me back an entire year if I can’t write a really incredible paper tomorrow. oh and he’s just a PHD. (no disrespect but it’s clearly an ego- something to prove thing). The same thing happened to my brother and we all grow from it, but it’s a stressful painful thing to go through.
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EVERY SINGLE one of my friends has officially coupled up and is too busy falling in love to spend time with me. I knew this time/age would come but I’ve always managed to have those cool friends who do things in groups (with the couple) or who are still independent and don’t spend EVERY WAKING minute with their SO. I’m officially lonely because my friends left me, not bc I don’t have men in my life.
I miss my traveling love bunny. He is disconnected from internet for a while, and of course it’s during these sad moments when I need to talk to him the most.
It’s fine to feel sad sometimes. It may bring gloom, but it also gives us an opportunity to step on the breaks, check on ourselves, and check out where we’re heading.
I also understand the ‘non-phero related’ character of this exchanges because clearly, this is a matter where phero can do nothing (he’s far, and you want him and him only).
Right now, you are in the same boat, holding hands, facing forward with a smile painted on your gorgeous faces. But a closer look would reveal that the two of you are slightly facing a different direction. And if you think that this is exactly what you mean with “may never materialize”, then you do have a very valid concern.
Now, the obvious path towards the realization of your ‘fantasy’ is to press on towards it. So… think it over. Get the best answer from within you. Understand what you want, know the options you have, and get on with it. Life is too short for us to get stalled.
And we, plus the pheros, will surely be alongside with you all the way.
About 1), 2), and 3), hmm… they’re actually good news to you and may bring something good to you. First, you did not lose any friend at all. Those artist guys were not really a friend, theyre merely an opportunity. So it is only opportunity that you’ve lost. Second there’s a chance for you to transform your angst into brilliance by doing that awesome paper. And third, everyone of your friends are in love. Meaning, if you’re feeling gloomy, your love-struck friends can be a great source of much needed hugs and love. Let them pamper you.
MX 135-- still on the fence about this thing
3 sprays MX 135 neck
high waist white skirt, pink tank top, flip flops
Day 2 of my cycle (finally over all that crying!!)
Went to brunch with a few girlfriends- still not sure how this affects other women-no obvious signs to report. Food was incredible- I ate my entire plate in less than 5 minutes- normally I chat too much and take too long to eat. I also am rarely able to finish the whole portion- I always save half for later. I’ve been lifting weights a lot so this could be related (times 2 weeks). The busboy was so flustered, he dropped his knife on me, I caught it, made eye contact, DIHL moment, I smiled, he stared, did not move, then finally shuffled away. When I left I said good-bye and he said “Sorry I almost decapitated you”- LMFAO. Charmer.
I only had 1 drink and got an AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL HEADACHE. I cannot think of a single other factor for this headache-- had plenty of sleep, was not hungover, on meds that prevent headaches, so this was really strange to me. It’s been a good couple of weeks since I have touched pheros, and the first thing I noticed when I first tried them was the headache I got on an empty stomach (which is what happened here).
My two biggest flaws are 1) interrupting 2) talking too much, either about myself or bringing it back to my life (which is how I show I’m relating and understanding, some ppl get that this is me showing I’m listening, others just get annoyed). I have been working on these flaws for TEN YEARS. I do not know how much I have improved. Obviously not a lot bc my best friend and I had a huge fight about it this week and she claimed I always talk about myself. So at brunch, I practiced asking my friends about their lives and made sure I did not talk about myself at all. But then they would ask me mundane questions about my life- forcing me to talk about things that I did NOT want to talk about.
3 hrs after application- I met up with a group of friends that I haven’t talked about yet. One good friend in particular, I cycle between crushing on him really hard and then deciding he’s just a friend. I’m 99% certain he feels the same way and we’ve been battling this “we obviously have chemistry but not going to do anything about it bc our friendship is too awesome to risk” thing for 3 years. Last time we hung out, our mutual friend said in front of his new girl, “why don’t you guys just admit you love each other already? We are all waiting for it”- awkward.
I show up, his girl isn’t there yet, and we get plenty of time to catch up, which I so desperately needed. He isn’t drunk, but he is giving me a lot of eye contact and a lot of attention, which I’m so grateful for because all of my friends have been excluding me a lot recently.
The biggest flag: when the large group disintegrates, his girl steps out for a second, he leans in to grill me about what I think about her, I confess I think she’s lovely nothing to complain about, we bond alone (these are always my favorite moments with him), he rests his legs on the seat part of my chair, next to my butt, while we are seated at a big table. Girl comes back, sits on the other side of him, but he never removes his legs, so his back is kinda turned to her the whole time and he is facing me while a big group of us are talking and drinking at this round table. She tries to get his attention and they flirt a bit, but he stays pretty focused on me. I was very surprised by this- he is clearly 100% smitten by her and all his friends think she’s wonderful- he hasn’t complained about her at all. This is def pheros working their magic on him.
Update on traveling love bunny: Herepero is right- the answers are within me, but I’m not even sure I’m willing to face it. He sent me his private travel log book/journal entry that pretty much detailed what I had been speculating or already knew about our predicament; distance, traveling, other women, intense things going on his life, and emotional turmoil preventing things from manifesting into something real/ substantial between us. It was a relief to hear it from his point of view (even though my name wasn’t used- it was pretty obvious) and to know that he was probably thinking of me like I am thinking of him. This has given me a little bit of peace of mind.
Someone suggested I meet him in another country during one of my vacations- and I just might.
OH. and that racist fucker can eat it! Totally passed and not getting held back!
First off, glad to see you’ve wiped your tears and at the very least you’re moving ahead career-wise.
Second, I find MX135 to be a serious attention grabber from the boys just like you described with your friend. (I normally use 2 sprays.) They zone in and really pay attention to whatever I’m talking about, even if there’s another female in the conversation. It works so well, I won’t even wear it around one of my good girlfriends because I will end up getting most of the attention when we’re out. (She just broke up with her guy and she needs a little more ego stroking than usual.)
On the other hand, it makes women stare at me a lot more. I’ve worn it at a bar a few times and each time I notice that women in my cloud are constantly glancing at me. I haven’t figured out if they’re trying to out-alpha me (I notice how their posture changes… they sit up more), or if they’re trying to get my attention. 
MX135= horny juice?
3 sprays MX135
7.5 mcg Mol C
10 Mcg P74
some cops from outside vendor
Fourth of July
Red mini dress, white wedges
Date with my new #1 crush
Day 10 of my cycle
Ok-- so I’m crushing on a new guy I haven’t mentioned yet. We’ve gone out 3 times and I chose not to use any products at all bc I really wanted to see what we were like in the raw. We have incredible chemistry and our personality flow feels like high school, genuine, natural, honest, nostalgic. He’s 24, 6’1, ripped, from CA, has great taste in music, and will be starting his surgical residency in a year. We played volleyball in central park together on one of my long lunch breaks and it felt like we had been friends and hanging out forever.
I have been hesitant to use p74 after the ridiculous crushing patterns it puts me in, bc I’m convinced it affects me more than my target. But, I’m so into him now that I was willing to risk it bc I’m already invested (how much more could I possibly fall?? Oh I was so wrong!)
Anyway- the plan was to watch the fireworks from my roof. We climb to the top and the next thing we know, quality illegal fireworks are going off all around us, literally 360. It was magical. We were in deep embrace, laughing, enjoying every moment, sharing stories of previous 4th of July’s, being very American (I love being an American, I would never have this kind of life if I didn’t move from my country of birth). We kiss between the bursts when there was nothing to look at, then stop when we heard them go off, oohing and ahhhing like kids at Disneyland, laughing at ourselves about how much fun we were having. (side note: I was drinking rose, he was drinking beer and when we kissed it tasted like cotton candy-- have you guys experienced this? I feel like I was so nostalgic in my head that I emotionally attached a childish flavor to his taste? He even smelled sweet- but said he wasn’t wearing anything). The loud sounds, the majestic quality of them over our heads, the moment of being so American and proud, the feeling of being grateful for being near him, the privacy of my roof, made me want to rip off all our clothes and bang him under the fireworks- pun intended.
I kept trying to resist the urge but it was animalistic- I was craving him more and more with every explosion. I confessed how I felt with something really charming and lame like “Is it bad that I really want to bang you under the fireworks right now?” He shook his head and devoured me. Clothes came off in seconds and my screaming couldn’t be heard over the explosions. It was by far one of the most exhilarating experiences I have ever had and unlike anything I could have ever imagined. Every firework turned me on even more and when it was over both of us were in complete disbelief at how incredible the rush was and appreciated how long it took us to recover from the craziness of it all.
Now I know you all think I’m in a state of constant arousal, but it isn’t true. Especially the past few weeks, I’ve been sad and disconnected, I haven’t wanted sex at all- I didn’t even masturbate. So this crazy state of heat was a little out of no where.
When we returned to my apt, I showed him the guest room I sometimes rent out and we compared rent prices and footage etc. He jokingly said “Maybe I will have to move in here!” and I said “you just might have to!”-- my gf thinks this is huge bc guys would never even JOKE about living with a girl that they don’t really like. We had the sex safety talk and he assured me he’s not sleeping with anyone else and would tell me if he did or wanted to. He asked me to show him around my neighborhood so we went bar hopping and had a perfect time. We talked anatomy, residencies, beer, music festivals, old relationships, friendship stories, the works. I have zero complaints or hesitations about him. So cross your fingers-- let this work out for us.
Conclusion: I’m still obsessing over him like I did the other times I’ve used p74 (FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKER), did not get Cs effects because sex was too soon after application, not much “future” talks but we’ve already talked future plans so maybe there wasn’t much to ask, but honestly that sexual urge is there every time I use MX135- it’s like it is torture waiting to have sex- like if I don’t go to a bathroom and get off, I can’t think about anything else.
the next day:
3 sprays MX 135-- really want to see how this affects my girl friends
3 sprays Volutes perfume
Hot pink dress, great cleavage, flip flops
Went to an art festival with my best girl friend who is bi. She’s finally with a girl and I’m extremely happy for her (she’s wasted time on boys but she should just be with a girl). They reached a new level of intimacy/bonding in their relationship that made her feel more secure about their “place” and you could see how happy it made her. I commented on how rare it was to see her this happy (honestly it’s been YEARS) and she kept finding excuses for the energy, like “I heard my fave song the whole way here”, etc (but I think the mix could have affected her). She looked SMOKING HOT. Both of us were total babes yesterday and dudes barely checked us out. Very strange- the whole BK artist thing is that you’re supposed to look like you don’t care what you look like, so you have to dress in run down raggedy clothes (not a fan).
We bonded a lot- it was an extremely special day for me. We hadn’t spent an entire day together just the two of us in forever. We cried about our feelings, hugged, complimented each other, and just could not get enough of each other. I have worn it around her before and it didn’t have this much of an effect.
At a bar, I was walking out to the patio with the wind blowing on to me, when this woman behind stopped me “What is your perfume? the wind is blowing it right on me and it smells magical! like vanilla or something strange- I just love it” I told her it was Volutes by Diptyque bc I truly doubted she could smell me. It doesn’t have very long staying power so I was really impressed. This is the first time a stranger has ever stopped me about my smell- you guys always post this, but this was my first experience of this. It is true that the smell takes that person away and they are in la-la land and will just follow you. Funny how sensitive some people are!
Another guy, after walking into a bar, said “I love your pink dress! Will you dance with me! What’s your name?” so I introduced myself and then we walked away. When we left, he followed us OUT THE DOOR, and apologized for cat calling at me in front of everyone and tried to get us to go to a different bar with him, walking with us the whole way to the other bar we were walking to.
The bartender gave us free shots, flirted with us, and stayed after his shift to hang out with us- very sexy guys, him and his buddies. No numbers were exchanged.
But my GF and I were so horny. We would catch each other forgetting our thoughts because we’d get transported back to our crushes and drift off- losing attention from each other. Every thing that popped in our heads was something dirty. I did have to excuse myself to the bathroom one time to take care of business (come on the fireworks! You guys have to put that on your bucket list- I swear!) I could not stop thinking about him.
Conclusion: I didn’t get a chatty vibe from her with this mix, but she is normally quiet. She was happier than I’ve ever seen. I was mesmerized by her beauty and charm. I guess it’s more like how others have described IShine- we opened up and bonded, and just felt super in love with each other, giggle fest mixed with extreme hornyness. She commented on her own hornyness and attributed it to her partner being out of town for a week.
Also- I know you can’t build up a tolerance necessarily, but I do notice that taking breaks from using products makes the effects more noticeable when you do them again. like drugs!
Harem Update:
- The other doctor officially moved out of NYC- but on to the next one!
- The cowboy and I went out of town right after my 2nd date with the new #1 crush- so he didn’t stand a chance. However, there were too many deal breakers that became apparent once we were stuck with each other for an extended period of time, like his really bad cigarette habit that disgusted me to no end. He sensed I lost interest in him by the end of the weekend despite me trying my hardest to make things work with him.
- My travel love bunny-- all I can do is sigh when I think of him. So out of my reach but forever buried in my heart. I texted him that the other girl he used to hook up with decided not to stay at my place this weekend:
he said:Hahah- I kinda only introduced you two to amuse myself, didn’t think she’d actually want to stay with you
me: you’re a dick! she was so sad
me: ^ proof you’re not a nice guy. Totally never giving you my heart.
him: I’ll steal it. I don’t ask for permission
me: You wouldn’t even know what to do with it once you got it.
ok CP, now LS is officially in love
2 sprays MX135 neck
half sprays IS/A (I’m out, just whatever I could squeeze out of this bottle) cleavage
10 mcg p74 wrists
Yellow tight mini sundress, airwalk slip ons (yes I am a child)
Date with my #1 crush- going to top secret show of a great band that only fans were invited to in a small venue. ( this is the best part about living in NYC- these secret shows by famous artists, where you get to dance literally with them and under them)
We meet for happy hour before the show-- and just perfectly, there was a bluegrass band playing at the little dive bar. It was perfect. He is perfect. We are a match made in heaven.
I tell him the date disaster of the last show I went to with a guy where he got jealous that I was singing with someone else and blew me off. By now, he has fully seen that I make conversation with everyone and it doesn’t bother him in the slightest. We meet a cute couple from VA and she’s being super sweet with me (I initiated the conversation- but they joined us for drinks and we exchanged numbers, made plans to hang out with them again)-- Girlfriday you’ve seen this girl bonding with mx135?
He has no hesitations about PDA- we’re glued into each other’s feelings/convos, but more important is the ease of laughter and the fact that we’re just constantly having a great time. His personality is so similar to mine- easy-going, down for anything, low maintenance, ready for a good time, positive, nothing bothers him, great energy. Okay enough gushing- facts:
- it felt like we were the only ones that existed in a bubble of a world spinning around us.
- Our love/energy/dancing spread all around and people picked up what we were throwing down and threw it right back at us.
- we got the dance floor started at another bar after the show by being kinda ridiculous
- I sensed others’ admiration for us-- “aww what a cute couple” type of thing
- he never got jealous that I was being out of control with the lead singer
- he wrote the date and the band’s name on the sweat towel that the lead singer threw at me after he wiped his face with it. (this is super high school romance love thing to do- keep a memory/keepsake for our future wedding lalalala)
- he said he can’t even tell his friends about the night because they’d never believe him and he’d just sound like a tool-- asked me if I thought it was weird that he didn’t want to tell his friends what a good time he had-- I interpreted this to also mean that by keeping the moment just ours he was keeping it special-- something that only existed in our lives together. or Maybe I’m just fantasizing.
- I made him a real Calexican breakfast (chilaquiles) with mimosas that I totally pre-planned before our date and admitted it to him saying that I hoped it wasn’t presumptuous of me to
assume he’d sleep over. - When we were cuddling in bed in the morning I said something like “First I’m going to make you breakfast then I’m going to suck your dick” and he just about died saying it was the most “ultimate” sentence he’s ever heard.
- I totally knew the wifey game I was playing here, put on some gray boy shorts and a see- through white tank top to cook. It was working because he couldn’t keep his hands/eyes off of me. I knew he was an ass man and ass men love little boy shorts.
- After breakfast, he kept trying to leave but our clothes kept coming off.
- Our pillow- talk was really deep. I noticed that both times I’ve used pheros with him, I’ve been really open and honest about my old wounds. Almost like I’m laying out everything on the table to see his response. He’s been very sweet and supportive but I’m honestly shocked that I’ve revealed so much about my past in such a short amount of time. He doesn’t have any wounds, but he talks a lot about his admiration for his parents, his friends, his feelings, so I feel like he is revealing the same amount to me, just differently. P74? Or something in mx135 with the chatty, open/bonding thing I noticed with my girlfriend?
- I’m vaguely remembering a drunken point in the evening when he referred to me as his “lady”-- ugh he’s def a perfect balance of sensitive/sweet but not clingy or dependent.
I was actually late to our date bc the traveling love bunny face timed me for the first time in a month and OMG was I excited to see him!
First thing I say when I answer:
Me: Where have you been my whole life?!?
Him: Too scared I’m going to fall in love with you
Me: do it!
He just laughs and we catch up about his travels, he tells me when he’s going to be in FL, we talk about maybe meeting in Europe in August. When we say goodbye we say we love each other and blow kisses.
My old favorite lover who has blown me off for over 2 months finally texts me today. He was the one who stopped seeing me bc he thought I had feelings for him (after he was the one who proposed us having this super romantic weekend together at the beach and watching football after brunch) then couldn’t resist my booty call 2 months later- we started hooking up regularly again and after using pheros with him he confessed how much he will always like me blah blah blah but then fell off the face of the earth right after. CLEARLY has intimacy issues. It felt awesome to tell him I was seeing someone and that no, he could not come over today. And No, sorry I don’t care how badly he wants to see me, he could have tried earlier when I was still available instead of blowing me off.
Last night, I went out with a smoking hot gf who had the pleasure of seeing me in one of my first phero experiences. I was too hungover to remember to apply them, so it worked as a nice comparison/control
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she got WAY more attention that me! Last time it was the other way around. Ironically, once guys started talking to us- it was me who ended up stealing the show.
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She attributes it to my energy, saying that it’s something sweet I give off that makes guys do things for me. (free drinks, bartender played my fave song, turned off the tvs, etc)
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we bonded a lot, we normally do, so nothing unusual about that. But for once we actually got to talk because we weren’t constantly being bombarded by guys. Sure, we picked quieter/classier spots this time, but the guys who did talk to us- didn’t hang around constantly. They sensed we were having girl time. They knew not to over-stay their welcome- which on pheros- FORGET IT.
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also, the flirting is more respectful. I’ve said this before, I call it a level of restraint/self-control. It’s tasteful- it’'s not “I need to fuck you right now” type of thing- even though that is exactly what someone to me once on my control night of no pheros.
Phero Gods- I am looking at you
2 sprays Mx135 cleavage
2 mcg p75 elbow
10 mcg p74 wrists
5 mcg mol L shoulders
2 sprays mx274 1 on neck 1 on top of head (he kisses me there a lot I LOVE IT)
I’m that girl. That girl that comes home after an amazing date, flops down on my bed, hugging my pillow, blasting pathetic love songs, singing my heart out dreaming about my crush- letting my eyes turn into goop and just float away into nothingness, replaying the whole night over and over, savoring my favorite parts so I can store them in the depths of my memories forever.
Wow- re reading that sounded so intense- It’s actually more like a Care Bears/My Little Pony marathon in my heart.
I def went overboard with the drugs bc I sprayed whatever little I had left before getting the mail and seeing that my shipment had arrived!! It really is like Christmas and you can talk all the shit you want- but I totally sympathize with members who say they feel “naked” without pheros and with them it’s like a coat of armor of invincibility.
Totally addicted!
Okay- so I am determined to get #1 crush to fall in love with me- even if it takes all the pheros in the world.
He kept telling me how busy he is right now and how he wishes he had more time to hang out-- not asking me out for this weekend at all. Its been about a month of every weekend dates with him and I started to worry that he was calling it quits already. He picked up on it- or realized he was “blowing me off” inadvertently and apologized straight- up “Hey I’m sorry if it feels like I’m ditching you- just really busy right now- don’t hate me you’re my girl!”
Omg- make me cream my panties- call me your girl one more time.
So anyway- I won tickets for a huge concert on the pier and he canceled his plans to go with me. I made us some ghetto soda bottle cocktails (jame-o n ginger for me, jame-o n coke for him) that were disguised really well so walking past the cops getting drunk on the street was hot.
We finished the bottles on a bench watching the sunset over the Hudson, making out and being the cutest couple ever. There was this rusty disgusting warehouse on one of the piers with trash all over it and I said, “hey wanna get married on that beautiful pier there? We can have everyone dress up as trash cans.” WHAT thE fuck did I just say?!?! The shit that comes out of my mouth on pheros is fucking embarrassing.
So we’re a hit- a couple asks to take a photo of us bc we looked so adorable drinking beers over the pier at the concert. I am Chatty Kathy- which becomes my fucking nickname the entire night. I make friends with literally EVERYONE. I don’t know if he brings this out in me or he just allows me to and I normally suppress it really well- or its fucking MX 135.
The concert is amazing. We are literally the hottest couple everywhere I turn and in my head I get off thinking about how we are so Californian and gonna be the coolest hottest doctors ever- no one knows how fucking nerdy we actually are because we are so fucking cool right now. (for the record- this must be phero shit too bc I normally don’t think that cockyily but I am def cocky)
We are dancing really close to the stage, some coked out guys dancing near us were getting crazy- somehow we or the people near us start a pit and we are all jumping around like a bounce house on drugs.
Then the coked out guy kisses me!
I barely remember this- #1 crush had to remind me how he had to represent. But he kept his cool so hard I barely noticed! WTF! These drugs are dangerous if they make guys kiss me in front of my dates! But holy shit- he was so calm and cool about it. He never gets mad about anything. This is going to be a problem.
This isn’t going to work because I have one big dark nasty secret:
Which I had to confess to this morning because blacked out me was determined.
I like to make boys angry because they look so hot when they are pissed and the fear of being in trouble turns me on- so much so that I can’t wait until he “gives” me what I deserve when we get home.
It’s such a problem!! Some dudes totally let me get carried away with the fantasy and I make up all sorts of stupid shit to get in “trouble” so they can get angry and give me spankings 
When I confessed this morning, my blacked out behavior made more sense to him bc I was making a scene out of a nothing just to get a rise out of him-but nothing works! He hates drama and will never be upset.
So like the child I am- I will just keep pushing my buttons to see how far I can go- everyone has a breaking point, I just need to push him hard enough. This is sick and disgusting and I better put a lid on it or this whole thing is going to blow up in my face. I am in so much deep shit. Total deal breaker. He is not happy about this in the slightest.
But we did fuck >4 times after I told him my dirty little secret (Thanks Mol C 10 mcg! And L 5 mcg?) so maybe it was his last hurrah with me. Only time will tell.
Conclusion: Keep these drugs away from me.
also- we need to stop getting so hammered every time we hang out that I don’t remember boys kissing me.
p.s. we went to a full nude strip club after the concert and I was all up in those dirty girls- totally put on a show for those perverts.
p.p.s we were so drunk after 3 bars post concert that I couldn’t figure out how to unlock my door. At least we made it home?
one more thing! Mol L came in “vanilla dream” or something and I kinda like it! no freebies? Where is the love Brian! JK (you give a mouse a cookie!)
TAL alone test day 1
-5 Mcg TAL (One spray 2.5 mcg wrist rubbed between wrists and one spray 2.5 mcg neck)
-Vanilla Dream fragrance (I have no idea how I got this, another mistake on my part? The only option for this? Who knows? I clearly suck at ordering off AD)
-First attempt at wearing products to work: Had a research presentation to give to faculty.
Ok- I have to admit that I mostly wore this today bc I just wanted to smell the Vanilla in this again, which is fucking strange as hell bc I actually HATE vanilla scented things. The exception is Eau-Duelle Diptyques which I also love, description from Diptyques:
“Eau Duelle eau de toilette adorns Bourbon vanilla in cool spices and a subtly smoky base with a predominance of black tea and frankincense. In the eau de parfum, Bourbon vanilla paired with a pod infusion is expressed with even more richness and depth. A highly contrasting perfume, underlined by the amber animality of cistus and the warmth of ambroxan.”
So yes- I ADORE this Vanilla Dream. I don’t even like sweet things period- I have to give mad props right now to AD for quality fragrances- It has long staying power, subtle and delicate, not over-bearing, and yes I am sniffing my wrists like a glue huffer in a tent under the 405 freeway (CA joke you won’t get).
6 hrs after application I can still smell it, has slight “baby powder” scent to it now that I don’t like as much, but the overall fragrance has put me in a great mood.
Backtracking:
Immediately after application, I put on my headphones to head out the door and the music sounded slowed- as if the tempo went down at least 10 bpm. I thought maybe my iPhone was acting up, so I switched to a different music player- and same thing! Honestly, I am a musician and this is a playlist I have literally over-played for the last 3 years, but I could hardly recognize the songs.
After paying attention to this “slowing down” effect, I noticed I could more easily separate the tracks of the different instruments. I usually have a hard time hearing the bass-line unless it is obvious, but I got the same depth I normally only appreciate by listening to vinyl except today it was on mp3.
I’ve been totally jealous at the reports of ppl saying they notice enjoying music more (somechick!) bc I’m already nuts about music and can’t imagine being more insane about it.
But sadly, that is all I noticed for day 1. I thought it would give me more confidence or better presenting skills, but I’m already pretty good at that so hard to see the difference. I’ve also been told by my attendings that I need to stop “second guessing” my treatment/management choices so I was hoping that I would get something along those lines.
Also- for the focusing ones- anyone have any luck with lifting weights?
oh and #1 crush is still texting me- telling me he wishes he was with me and thinking of me blah blah blah- so looks like my deal breaker wasn’t so bad after all. PHEW!
One of the greatest mysteries of the phero world. If I wore 5 mcg, you’d be like an ADD kid in a McDonald’s bounce house. Most women use closer to 20 mcg. Please tell me you didn’t order 2.5 mcg? I though I suggested 7.5 +
To recap for the class ladies: Use these at 7.5 plus – P78, TAH, TAL, P74, P83, TAC, TAA, TAK. Men only, use TAH and TAL at 2.5.
I caution you though, do not, under any circumstances, wear this:
P78 15 mcg, TAL 15-25 mcg +, P83 20 mcg, -enone .5 mcg (500 nanograms), TAA 15 mcg, P74 15 mcg. Definitely do not add Instant Sexiness A or B or TAH.
You will probably get pregnant, married, engaged or worse. Seriously. Barefoot and pregnant like Sissy Spacek. Or a professional dominatrix. Or porn actress. Adult entertainer. The usual.
Lol, oh my gosh 
thank you for that warning. One question please, do you mean using them together? And what about TAF, where does that fall on the list? I have something called “Molecule F” which I’m presuming is TAF. TIA for the words of wisdom.
You can add 2.5 mcg TAF to that. TAF actually does several things. Let us know what you notice.
hahah! I love you and have totally missed you!
Ok I ordered 5 mcg in Neroli so I def got someone else’s order on this I think? I better check the rest of the stuff I ordered. Oh well- I found out how much I like Vanilla Dream!
Check your invoice. They can sort it for you if is their error. Did you get some -enone nanograms or did you…p’ssy out? Ask LWatkins about that TAL shit. I told him. I depends the personality of the female. 5 mcg and a room full of women will line up on sides, kickin’ ass, dancin’ nekkid on barstools, beating their bosses’ ass.
Beats me why 5 mcg works. Literally the whole room. One of the longest projecting mones there is.
