Ahhh, gotcha. 
Me thinks someone likes to play with fire…
hey - I just noticed… you have mx292 in your stash? How’s it working for you? What have you been able to get off of it?
I don’t play with fire… I’ve got those flames very well controlled 
It’s the bitch in me wanting to drive him nutz…What’s that they say “Hell has no fury like a woman scorned” 
I haven’t tried the Mx292 yet…TUTH is very potent in the “happy sauce” department for me & I don’t need any help there when I have noone to take it out …if Mx292 is anything like TUTH…well, I think I’ll leave that for when I find myself a new victim 
Out at dinner last night (not with him), I realized that I really, really like Texas McBlues…
I really like him. A lot.
I wanted to be with him, right then.
I like his humor, his outlook on life. I like his personality. I like his smile. I like his wicked teasing. I like his constant yearning for more meaning and purpose to life. I like his view of the “bigger picture.”
I really like him.
Though we aren’t “a couple” or “exclusive” or anything of the sort… we just go on very fun dates… and enjoy our time together… I realize that I like him enough to where I want to give all of my time and energy to him.
I dont want to date anyone else. I only want to be with him, right now.
Sounds like Tex has some pheromones of his own … lol.
ohh my gawdddd.
disgusting.
slaps Tigerlily across face
SNAP OUT OF IT WOMAN !
you have caught that disgusting love thing.
you have the gear, couldnt you have worn a mask???
sigh
we need to get you help,stat.
LOL.
Make her watch alternating runs of Bridezillas and those shows where they show babies being born for24 hours. That should help fix things.
You go girl!!!
GAAAAHHH!!! 
BOSSHANK! Why’d you have to go and ruin my day like that! Ack - I think I am going to be nauseous… No babies! Never! Never!!
moans I knooowwwww… I knooowwww… I’ve caught the one thing I didn’t want to catch! Ugh, I do though - I really like him. It’s most disquieting.
I didn’t really care if I got a crackberry message nightly or not - it was a great pick me up and made me smile before. Now, I find myself waiting for it, a nightly reminder that I am on his mind like he’s on mine.
I didn’t plan my week(ends) around his homework schedule. Now, I try to schedule my busy stuff to the times I know he is also busy, so best to maximize our other times together.
When did I start keeping a schedule of his work week? When did I start checking in with his big presentations and conferences? When did I become his champion and cheerleader for his masters thesis?
sigh
Crap.
I’ve definitely fallen for him. Things are still swirling in a high wind, so I’m not quite sure how it will all play out. Still have to take it day by day, still have to let it unfold.
just enjoy it.
its going to be this awesome for atleast another few years.
at about year 6,
you’ll be holding a pillow over his head saying
“should i or shouldnt i ???”
for now, just enjoy it.
LOL. The cold blast of reality …
Meh - I’m divorced. I’ve been through the spiking his dinner with arsenic phase.
Learned a lot about what to do and not do, and how to keep the love that you want to stick around alive.
And how to walk away when it’s not.
::in Mc Coy-like voice::
he’s dead, Jim.
LOLOLOLOLOL
Ahahahaha!!!
most definitely!!
Actually it sounds quite great Just have fun
Well, fuck.
Had a great brunch this morning with Texas McBlues. Laughing, fun, great seeing him again. Good times.
Wore 4 sprays I/Honesty x2 , EST + P86
Somewhere around here recently, we were talking about betanol being a emotional connecter - brings out your emotional states and can highlight them for you. As if the Clue Bus suddenly swings to a halt outside the movie theater, lights shining on the headline feature, “You’re fallen for him, dumbass!!”
Or, errr, is that just me?
He was as happy and bouncy and fun as I have seen him in a long time. He was fun, friendly, connected and very happy. talked at length about his week, his work, his schooling. Chatted back and forth about our respective consulting thingys - very seriously, for the first time, mentioned linking up professionally, in a more permanent arena. Asked to talk a long weekend getaway with me - sometime very soon.
Betanol = happy?? Or in touch with your inner happy??
He’s a great investigator. (no joke - really is top notch.) So I teased him about refusing to “read” me, as “apparently” he’s ace at that. He veers off suddenly, saying that he refuses to “read” anyone he has a personal relationship with, etc. I laugh in his face - what, like you aren’t releasing your “super powers” or something?
It gets very deep, very quick -
No, he says - he just likes to let everything unfold as it naturally can, as it naturally should. let it progress organically, grow on its own. Don’t pressure, force, expect, etc. Just let it be. Let people come to you with their “stuff” when they’re ready to reveal it - dont “read” it out of them. (considering I’ve been reading him like a paperback book, that was a bit of a small slap in the face…)
Let things unfold. See where they go.
He then leaned forward, looked me in the eye, and told me, “I’m a very good listener, too.”
Crap.
So now, the betanol is hitting me, and I am reeling a bit - “things” have unfolded for me in such a way that I care for him, kinda alot. I’m wondering how “things” have unfolded for him, as well. I say nothing. I’m not about to get into “The Talk.”
We have not yet been intimate. I’ve been pondering that - that occurrence will now mean a significant thing to me…
Wonder how it will “play out/unfold” for him too.
Right Miss analyst, switch off the brain and forget what you do day to day.Put the manuals and books away.
Start thinking like a woman and plan your strategy based on feminine wiles ( ably assisted by the magic blue bottles of course ) Time to face facts, you’ve fallen, he’s fallen and, seeing as you are both lying down already I reckon it’s time to test the structural integrity of that little tent of yours.
Have fun girl, you’ve earnt it!
at some point in his life he has realized that we are more than our skills and our jobs.
he’s lost his label,
and has decided he is a human trying to get to know another human.
cool.
more than this
he is obviously taking his time with you,
which only equates to no games and no quickies.
id mimick his strategy if you want what i think he wants
(some permanancy to the relationship?)
I think you both missed the point of the post above - it wasn’t to showcase my analytical skills, or his desires for interpersonal communication -
Nope, mostly just confusion over whether or not the betanol was an instigator for that. it certainly sent my emotional state into a doozy this afternoon. I definitely got in touch my feelings on the issue.
And, sometimes, our skills and our jobs are what keeps us alive - makes it very hard to shake that. When you dont truly know if the person you are meeting will kill you on sight or shake your hand with a smile - you learn to apply it to everyone, at all times, no exceptions.
Also, wtf with the “good listener” bit?
You, sir, should know that I do not actually know this. yes, i have fallen for him. his emotional state is still unknown. There are other factors at work here. I do not want to drag them out into the public forum. All i will say is -
I refuse to be someones plaything. Or a distraction.
Emotional entanglements with a previous relationship must be dealt with prior to engaging in another one.
End of.
The fact that that is a question here.. 
I do not play games. I am very up front and open. I say exactly what is on my mind. (literally - I’ve been accused of being an info dump before.) SO no feminine wiles, either.
At times, it takes me a while to find out what is on my mind.
ie, this morning - had an emotional (internal) reaction to his words. Didn’t reveal it externally. Took the time (and the betanol trip!) to figure out what I was feeling.
Now, I feel I understand my emotions to an extent to where I can share them.
If thats a game …
I don’t know what I want, with him, in all honesty.
I want to take it slow.
I really want to know what he thinks/wants.
I’m at a precipice over a ledge - could fall one way or the other.
Will this betanol wear OFF already??
i cant speak for anyone else,
but you cant separate whether or not betanol instigated something that had started prior to you using it !
did betanol instigate it?
it was in a process that didnt start that day …
did betanol instigate a particular moment?
maybe that day
betanol exaggerated it.
to instigate to me would mean there wasnt that before.
maybe all betanol did was to show you what was already happening?
focussed your attention to what was in a process?
all i know for sure is that betanol is one of my best friends.
i have it in 25mu.
LOVE IT.
i havent found an instance where it was NOT complimentary to everything i have ever worn.
personally,
when i read others having issues with betanol causing too much talk,
all i can think is that they havent found their sweet spot with it yet.
it does more intimacy-creating for me than too much talk.
it causes quality over quantity.
just my opinion.
i cant qualify who i am with a job.
this is probably why i dont keep one for more than a few years before i move on.
i dont think anyone truely knows what tomorow plans for them
but they can know what their own intentions are.
i cant relate to someone else having a say in my day,
but i can relate to someone not treating me well
and knowing that my belief that someone CAN do that to me
helped to inspire it.
i guess if i believed a job or skill would keep me alive id learn martial arts or medicine.
many do.
the only way i can take this
is if i say
my job gives me money
i buy the food
and my skill to cook it keeps me alive