i agree this is exactly what happens when we try HERE to explain it.
i think its the goal
of those in transcendental meditation and
DMT experiments (among so many other things) to figure it out without losing a singular identity in the process.
your one with everything and yet still you.
the “you” that tries to figure out “what” it is here,
ceases to even ask the question in the expanded state because it just “knows”.
try putting it into words,
and we are crammed back into our limited selves within our limited expressions.
the goal to know is there going in-
and then “known”
and then too big to be reduced into communicatable expression here.
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i am realizing i am slowly peeling away the part of me with fears
about trying DMT.
According to research that Sir Roger Penrose, our minds are not really physically based, but are rather, a quantum phenomenon. According to Schrodenger’s work with quantum probability, anything that is possible is probable. So, either there are parallel universes that we can slide across to in a quantum way… or there IS a bug in your hair… or both!
and so,
since a bug in my hair is of no consequence, i never did experience it.
had i felt fearful or interested and looked for one, i may have found it based on the idea that a bug may collapse into being .
having been on a canoe trip, i would also have expected one.
i find it interesting that
some of the DMT trips
speak of experiencing “self” as The Creator.
this could only happen once the trip took them out of their body,
so that they could nolonger identify with it.
the interesting part to me
is that the idea of creating in this dimension
so that i can experience the creation in this dimension
seems to come from attention to this dimension…
what part of me is NOT in this dimension,
doing what is already and in the process of being created?
is it the me in another dimension
collapsing the particles here,
through my eyes?
i wore EST today.
accidentally spilled an unknown dosage on myself,
which must have been alot because i got a little dizzy.
the SO was in a very bad mood,
and said he had a headache and wasnt feeling well.
made an unpleasant comment about my perfume being too strong.
with all of that said,
he wound up in a better mood within 30 minutes.
that freaked me out a little bit,
bad smell + headache + nausea = good mood?
Well, I dunno, Lor. The one time I did experience All as One, there was no thinking involved. I was not my identity. You can’t be just you and be All. That is what got me involved in my discussions with Fred Wolfe. There is an underlying fabric to everything, that everything is part of. But that fabric is, itself, conscious. Fred thinks this is the natural quantum state. I think it is God. I also think the quantum state is God. Anyway, that consciousness is limitless, creative and joyful, but not “mindful” per say. It’s too boundless to be limited by stuff like thoughts.
Part of the process I was going through at that time was doing meditation practices that stilled the mind. The yoga asanas had the same effect, plus opening all those pranic energy channels in preparation for kundalini awakening.
I don’t know about drugs like DMT, or how they effect the consciousness systems on a fundamental level, because I’ve never tried to go that route. But I firmly believe that every method needs to be studied fully before embarking on any path of this nature because of the potentials for backfiring. Even yoga and meditation has its hazards, like the potential for extreme pain syndromes, psychosis, and unwanted paranormal activity.
Crappy weather here, too. And my boys did a fine job of stopping up the toilet last night. My dear husband, in his eagerness to do his own fine job, plunged the toilet so hard he blew out the wax seal on the other toilet. He’s been hard at work today to fix his fix. <sigh>
my SO is convinced im seeing other people.
this could not be further from the truth,
i prolly havent been more alone now than ever,
thanks to working + household responsibilities.
sh!t,
i have to schedule in a shower,
or a hair-cut.
i dont imagine pheromones have anything to do with him being suspicious.
i wear way too many girly smells, MX134 is not worn around him, either.
Ouch - a $500.00 bill of any kind hurts. But it is even worse when it is self-inflicted.
Lor - I do not know all the details but if you are that busy (and perhaps stressed?) your relationship with him may be taking a back seat to some extent resulting in what he feels as emotional distance. Hence why he thinks you may be seeing some else. The best way to get around that (if it is in fact the case) is to be very intentional in showing your affection for him. I found that when I got really busy with work and stuff I would have to go out of my way to show my wife affection and the shows of affection had to be a little stronger than they normally would be in calmer times.
Does he act suspicious only when you wear EST? I think some guys are allergic to pregnancy. I’ve heard of the very same behavior (being suspicious and accusing) in guys only when their wives were pregnant. Isn’t that weird, and just awful?
The boys put paper towels down the toilet two months ago when they couldn’t find the tp - and this was the result. The amazing thing is no one even had their lives threatened about it - my husband was very understanding about it. That was the EST + P91, I think.
Some people are like that - my wife can sometimes be like that when she gets uber-busy. I would think that if he has been around for a while he would have figured out that is just your personality. So I would think he might need to adjust his expectations if he is looking for something else …
But again I am just guessing not being familiar with all the details …
nah, he isnt reacting badly to EST.
he doesnt react to it much at all.
i just think he doesnt like how social i am, when he is my polar-opposite.
i dont flirt.
i invite him into work ( beg is more like it, i think people think i dont really have an SO. we call him “vera” after norm’s wife in cheers,lol)
he knows its silly to think i would have time for an exciting double-life
This journal moves too quickly! I’m too far behind! How’d we go from mystical mysteries of the universe and the super-consciousness to clogged toilets and Lor being accused of having an affair?
I need to catch up… This is clearly the place to be here on PT…
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He’s been hard at work today to fix his fix. <sigh>
How’d we go from mystical mysteries of the universe and the super-consciousness to clogged toilets and Lor being accused of having an affair? 