Well, my sister suggested it’s that she had to figure me out a bit better, but that her roommate knows she likes me… Maybe one or more of the ladies out there could shine some light on the situation, they may know the reasoning or have some insight as to why? And any suggestions about the whole thing would be awesome!
So last night I went over to this barbeque, and while I was there I sprayed a small spritz of TUTH and a full spritz of my double-strength IO. Noticed immediately a kind of ghosting situation from EVERYONE. But once I initiated conversation with individuals it was a complete change and they got really talky. It was sort of wierd - though enjoyable.
Definately seeing the difference the mones make. Especially when the host of the barbeque got done with a tat for this other guy that was there… He told me he’d show me his air-brush artwork after he got done with a markered tat for this girl not-quite-sure about it yet. After he was able to, he started showing me artwork by Luis Royo and saying it was his. LMAO! He was totally BSing me. That has to be the Instant Openness. I went along with it, he’s the host. Come on! Heh, maybe someday I’ll bring along my Tarot Card Deck by Luis Royo and do a reading for his wife or someone… LOL!
Towards the end of the night after everyone was getting ready to leave, I offered to give the guy that had a fresh tat on his leg (looked like a negative-space old-western gun-slinger) and the two asians that were there a ride home. It was a good night, great time, and very interesting! 
So I put on this mix today that the label rubbed off on and so I don’t even know what all is in it - just a few dabs to my neck and wrists. BUT, every girl that I had any interaction with told me I looked great. Even my friend’s mother told me, almost exactly in those words, that I looked great. Lol. She even gave me her number. :o
Tonight the girls and I went to a nifty little restaurant that does a comedy show, mock gun-fight, live music, great food and it was all free because of running the front desk. It was fantastic! My sister traded me her Mustang for the night, and the Russian girl was school-girl excited, bouncy and having fun because of it. That really made her day! 
Met up with an old friend from Highschool. Turns out he lives right around the corner from me.
I’m going to be trying to find out the exact mix I used… It was my own spin off a suggested composite by someone on the forums. By spin I mean accidental - my togo’s of the Instant line are all double strength, which I didn’t take into account while mixing. 
Not that I minded with the compliments I was getting! 
With results like that I bet you’re wishing for that label back. Sounds like a good mix, whatever it was.
It is purely amazing to me how often something like that happens. Makes me wonder if I should be more observant of my own surroundings. What is lurking around the corner that I wished I knew about?
Yeah, exactly. To both! Lol! Thanks!
So last night I was shopping androtics and debating over my order until around 2am and finally settled on P79 and another thing of MX203. If MX292 and P83 would have been available I would have gone with those, no question about it. Those are my MUST HAVES! Lol! Alrighty, I pulled out all the stops and arranged for a horseback ride from a riverside resort for the girls and I today, tomorrow we’re going to a National Park and Tuesday will be yet another going away party (this time it’s two of the cutie chinese girls…) So I have a busy week! Lol! We shall see where it goes!
Tonight was supposed to be my night. But things have me down. The owner of the motel made some rude comments to try to have me under his thumb. Encouragement, or recognition, would have served better. The manager admitted (when I called her and told her I almost walked out on her because of it, and she admitted he was out of line) she’s looking for another job already because they’re rude to her too. So, it’s not just me, it’s just how the owners are with everyone apparently.
Put on half a spritz of IO from a togo bottle, and a small application of that mystery mix I mentioned earlier in this thread. We shall see how the night goes (it doesn’t help things when I feel so bothered/upset - I hope I can perk up for the party.) I was getting really close with one of the chinese girls during a bunch of activities we did together… That’s one of them that’s leaving tomorrow too. 
Maybe I can work on having some more fun with her.
Oh my. So the reason why the owner was such an ass the other night is because I asked him to change something back in the computer so I can do my job fully - he changed it by accident and didn’t know what to do or where to go in the system to fix it. So he was too proud to admit that, too embarrassed or whatever so he took it out on me. After his wife finally got him to admit what was wrong, she had another manager from a different property come and change it back. LMFAO! I was thinking the guy hated me. Sheesh!
That night was awesome! The next day I gave goodbye kisses to both chinese girls. It was very emotional. VERY! And happy though, when thier flight was cancelled and I got to spend another night with the both of them. That same day that the chinese girls were supposed to originally catch thier flight, the russian girl comes into work, but left still having that look like she wanted to say something. When I asked her to say whats on her mind, she said something along the lines of, “Oh, no no. It’s fine.” But later on we made plans to go shopping (out of state no less) on Monday! And maybe if she’s up for it - the club Still don’t know what she wanted to say. Any feedback? That was so strange!
This is so confusing… My ex is acting so jealous right now. She tells me that it’s nunmy whenever I ask anything about her, but she is asking me such personal questions right now. Who am I dating, who am I fucking?! Sheesh! I’d think that it was nunher if it wasn’t so one-sided with her. If she is feeling so territorial then why did she take off to begin with? Too many people have been telling me she’ll realize the grass isn’t greener on the other side - but I didn’t really believe them. It’s been too long, too many months for me to just take her back, to trust her. It would take a long time for me to learn to trust her again.
The culprit might be that mystery mix from earlier in this thread. I put that and some P79 on right before going with her 1 1/2 hours across state lines to refile some court documents… She didn’t bother asking me any of those personal questions until the return trip. She also up and said she’s had offers from quite a few people…? If she has had so many offers as she is saying then she should go for them and not bother telling me because it’s like she’s trying to make me jealous in return.
Tis t’wue! Tis t’wue! That’s why when I decide to get into a relationship, I trying to be the funniest, kindest, respectful and gentle person as possible. I’ve never had a girlfriend that didn’t try to come back. NEVER.
People get caught up in what their friends are doing, and then they think they’re missing something, is what happens, IF you ask me. And yes, the grass is greener on the other side of the fence. They cross the fence, and sooner or later look down and realize … they’re standing over a septic tank!!!
Taking her back will cause a lot of MENTAL stress on you. 'Specially if you’re already having trusting issues, and you haven’t even made the decision to take her back. You up fer the task? Digging up yesterday, is not always a good thing. Helmet, safety glasses, hearing protection, knee pads and heart shield, will all be required! ‘IF’ she’s already playing the jealous game … you’ll need lots of tokens!!!
In the end … it is YOU that has to be happy.
Dr. Phil-wanna-be’s 2 pennies. Hope they help!
Good luck!
Yes, she’s trying to make you feel jealous again. Does she really want you back? I don’t know. I think it’s a good thing that you are getting some distance and perspective, you’ve come a long way from where you were in your first posts in this journal.
Thanks for the feedback! Yeah. definately come a long way. It happened gradually, but it’s like one day I woke up and was looking forward instead of behind. And now I have a couple Phillippino girls I fancy. Plans for shopping, cooking and another BBQ coming up with them! It’s funny, I overdid my -none. I have more than enough -none naturally, or maybe it’s residual from the day before I think. Spraying some MX203 was over the top with these two cuties. Because one of them would refuse to dance, refuse to dance… Then when I sat next to her she got up and danced. But the other (younger) of them I have something working with her My Phillippino guy friend has been helping too, giving me his simple advice and encouragement. He’s my wingman I guess.
LMFAO! Something that I wear sometimes (IO?) makes people BS their heads off! From artwork by Luis Royo being their own, to having much better jobs than they have!! Maybe it’s just the response to my mix?? I really have no clue. I need to pay a little more attention, sometimes it’s hilarious!
Oh my! Party every day since Saturday. Geeze I’m tired. Hehe! Saturday and last night were the best by far. Last night was my Philippino friend’s birthday party. Wild night. Yeah. Wore mystery mix again. This time with a spritz of P79. Talk about crazy. Everything and anything that could happen, did. Got to witness two girls kissing. Friends breaking eggs over eachother’s heads, smearing cake on everyone’s face. Yeah. Inhibitions were definately eliminated. Never seen a night like that.
Saturday has been running through my head ever since. All day at work prior to going to the dance club, I was working out. Pushups. Crunches. That sort of thing. Then I got off work and proceeded to the club. Once there I sprayed one spritz of IO and one of P79. A Philippino girl invited me, and a friend of hers from Canada was there visiting. When I entered the club I went directly to the dance floor and went into one of my routines. Haha! This latino girl smiled at me really brightly as I was coming off the floor and told me I am a really good dancer and that I should get back out there. I grinned and thanked her, then went to join the girl that invited me there to begin with. Her friend responded well to me. Lots of IOI’s from both.
Then a little later the latino girl pulled me out onto the floor. Usually I am very hands off, but this time I decided that must not be working very well for me. I got touchy, I got feely. I got very horny - and let her know it. This is way off-character for me, usually I am really shy about that sort of thing especially.. But it must have done something. She kept saying things like I dance so much better than her (not hardly, she was a 10 for looks and a 9 in dancing. OMG.) Then she would tell me in my ear that I was hot. I responded in kind. And finally, after two such exhanges she stated that she wanted me. Talk about make me weak in the knees. But I was there with friends (and I like the Philippino girl alot!) so I didn’t take her home like I could have. She did give me her number, told me where she works and even responded to one of my texts the next day.
I think she got self-conscious the next day, because in the text she sent me she said she shouldn’t have danced, her and her aunt had fun regardless of how dorky she looked, etc… Haven’t heard back from her since though. It’s really got me bummed. The Philippino girl was very curious about the whole exchange the other night. She asked me if I knew the latino girl, among other questions that seemed like she was jealous, but without that undertone I’ve noticed jealousy to usually have… Lol!
Well, I’m at work and have to wrap this up. Will talk more about these last few days a little later.
I love being surrounded by beautiful women! Yesterday was a really great day. The latino girl texted me a pic of her new tat… It’s in a place that had me gawking when I first seen it. She had to have her delicates pulled down quite far to show all of it and was in bed in a provacative pose… She asked me what I thought about what she got for her birthday, and called me s3xy. Then it turned out that I seen her in the grocery store - but taking my sisters advice I played it cool. When I first spotted her, it made me stop in my tracks. When she looked up I smiled but finished up with the whole shopping thing and went out the door - my sister says it’s better to let them chase after you and to act like you aren’t as obsessed with them as you really are. It’s supposed to drive them crazy or something… Hardest thing I ever did, rather than walking over and striking up a conversation. When I have something fun planned I’ll call her up and ask her to come.
Later that same day I introduced my son to the Philippino girl I have been interested in and she told him that he was even hotter than his dad. Lol! This morning I texted her, telling her my daughter was throwing a fit because she was still sleepy but not wanting to go back to bed (she’s fourteen-months-old.) She responded playfully, telling me I should bring her by her place with my hot son. LMAO!
And last but not least for last night, the Ukranian girl popped into my work and talked with me. No particular topic, she just wanted to see me! I think working out without showering after the other night at the club really helped me have some natural -none going on. It was a great combination with the IO and P79.
(P.S. My daughter woke up from the nap I gave her, and she came into the living room smiling the brightest little smile and was in a giggly, playful mood after that!)
Time to pull this out and dust off my journal. Hello all! My last order came in, and I’m very satisfied with Instant Shine (as usual. Got double strength…) Not only that, I got a batch of Instant Openness as a free gift. Good stuff, very nice around friends. There was the matter of an interview I had after receiving the IS, so I wore some. The interview went REALLY well. Also ran into a cute blonde that worked the front… She was VERY friendly. Damn, should have got her number. Oh well, if I get the job I’ll be her supervisor anyway. That could complicate things, but I won’t let it interfere with what really important (getting a date haha.)
Hi Wolfishgrin,
I’ve been following along, TEZZA23 he means well, and he speaking with true concern. “My hat comes off to you and him”. Concentrate on yourself and your precious children.
best regards,
MVKBUGATTI
Funny you should mention that… My son needed picked up from school, so I decided since I was going into town anyway I would wear something nice. I dabbed a bit of the mystery mix (from earlier in my journal) to my neck and had a small spritz of IS over it.
I felt really good. No adverse side effects, never have with either of those two scents. The funny thing is, all the kids in his classroom have always been so scattered and have mostly never bothered paying attention to me when I come to pick my son up. Today was different. Almost as soon as I stepped in, I was swarmed. I couldn’t get more than a couple feet through the door. It was strange! They were all trying to get my attention, my approval for the smallest things! I initially set my toddler daughter down but after I picked her up, I set her on my shoulder and they’re all like, “You can do that? You’re strong! That was neat!” Giggles all around. Sheesh! O_o Haha, finally got my son out the door after about fifteen minutes (wading through a flock of children that congregated at my feet everywhere I stepped.)
Seen the ex, and she didn’t have her typical sour look when she’d notice me around. Maybe it was a mix of the pheros and having the kids with me. Then I stopped by to visit a couple female friends rooming together (A and L.) A is Philippino, L is Korean. Both hotties. They even gave me a present when I stopped by! Late christmas present because at the Christmas party they didn’t want everyone else to know they got me something. 
I felt bad for being layed off and no money to get any of my friends things… I’ll have to make up for it during Easter! Anyhow, they really liked it that I came over, liked seeing the kids. My son played with the hamsters, my daughter played with the phone and got dote’d on by the both of them haha! They got me a vibrating pillow (which I thoroughly teased A about, whom blushed seriously.) Taught the roomies a bit of poker (Five Card Draw and Blackjack.) Then had to leave, so I gave them hugs.
It was a nice day today! And I finished it all off with a great workout (only marginally cut short when I was doing situps and my daughter (giggling by the way) decided my chest and torso were great to sit on while I was doing them. So I gitty gitty’d her haha!
One thing I’d like to ask is, if any of you know any mixes with MX203 and a few of the scents from the Instant line in them, post a link or something here! I want to know what that mystery mix is! Darned label rubbed off so I have no clue what is in it, and I can’t remember what the mix was…
Wow, this is an interesting journal Wolf.
Good luck dealing w/ your situation and keep your head up, everything happens for a reason.
Will come back to this thread to see how things go along.
Hi Wolfishgrin,
Sounds like you had an awesome day, that’s good to know.
best regards,
MVKBUGATTI