Hello, if you have read some of my other post you may know that i hooked up with old love from 20 yrs ago, it was risky move but she does make me feel so good.
Trouble is looks like things have not changed, after declaring her love for me and that we are soul mates and she wants to grow old with me a while back, i noticed she was getting getting little distant end if last week.
I ask if everything ok on monday, and was told ok but not right, something is missing?
I heard this before and usually comes when she finding herself getting really close to me, she has baggage but don’t we all but this is a pattern.
She said she would call in a few days and speak to me, a later text says next day, but me like a fool wrote a letter to her pouring out my feelings and thoughts which i drop off at her house while she working shifts.
No call, and text saying was going to call till got letter and i will get a letter instead saturday or monday.
Man think i have really blown it this time
If i have the last couple months were very good and will keep as a wonderful memory.
Man oh man, relationships are not easy, especially with this woman thought the good times are worth all the pain.
Apologies if you have no interest in post, just had to get it off my chest.
some women fall hard and fast for a crush, but it takes a while to settle, and they realize the interesting part is over, and move on.
I have found and seen that a relationship that lasts longer than two weeks tends to be more than just a crush. Some longer, some shorter but the average is about two weeks for a crush. This is where that puppy love burns off and it becomes work to stay going.
A crush it is not, i met this woman when i was 18, now 46, she broke my heart when i was 26 and she kept my letters and cards for over 20 years. I have been seeing her for about 9 weeks and she had been thinking about getting back with for the last 2 years but we lost contact 10 yrs ago.
Did not really hook up off the net, she does not even have a computer, thought indirectly maybe as it was a reunion party i was told about via facebook.
Could not wait for letter so went around to see her last night, she would not talk to me and but when i asked for a straight she said ‘Its No’, i just turned and walk away.
Got a text 10 min later saying she was so sorry and that she does love me but its just not for her?
Work that out if you can?
This is going to hurt bad but think she has done me a favour as i can now lay to rest this 30 year old story and some demons as well as i now know it not me, it is her and the demons she will not deal with.
She will still send the letter and i do not hate her, i wish her the best just don’t understand how you can love someone but they are not for you?
I knew the risk and will just have to deal with it and move on.
Try not to take this personally.
I think she is trying to tell you that it’s not because of some fault within you that you aren’t a good match together.
And if that’s how she really feels, be glad to let her go now, instead of later. The longer this stretches on, the more its going to hurt when it is finally over. Take your freedom and dignity and spend them somewhere else, because this woman is trouble, frustration and agony for you down the road.
