From Anxious to....Alpha?

Hello all,

Over the past couple years, I have gone through phases of using pheromones, and then ditched them once I wasn’t noticing effects. I am starting to use them again, with hopes that they will help me more now that I have realized that I have mild/moderate social anxiety and am trying to overcome it.

I have always been a very anxious communicator. I am incredibly introverted, and usually have no interest in small talk. I have been in college for a couple of years now, and I have not had an experience that I will look back on with really fond social memories. I tend to hermit myself in my apartment, and have made very few friends since moving away to college. That is just some background information to put any results I describe in this journal into perspective.

My hopes over the next couples months is to come out of my shell (or apartment) and start to make friends with people I never would have before. For the beginning of the semester, I am going to be rotating through IS,IH,IO,IG,A314,p83. I am planning on getting ammo, but I will use that after I have figured out what dosages of all the others work for me.

Thank you for reading my introductory post. I hope to have some useful reports to help with further pheromone research.

1/7/13

Today is the first day of classes, and my first time using pheromones in a while, so I decided to do a bit of a baptism.

Application: All to the neck 8am
IO- 1 spray
IHx2- 2 sprays
IS- 3 Sprays
IG- 2 sprays on top of IO

Self Effects: I did not notice any self effects today.

Results: There was only one thing that happened today that seemed to be out of the ordinary. During introductions in one of my classes we were supposed to say something interesting about ourselves. I made a joke off of something someone else said, and 90% of the class turned around and laughed. The next person was a girl in the front who turned around looked directly at me smiling, and made a joke in response to mine. I smiled back and introductions continued. I continued to talk to a couple people before class ended.

Discussion/Analysis: The fact that I made a joke in class was enough to say that the pheromones worked today. I usually am as plain as possible, and usually go entire class periods without talking to anyone. What made me happy today was that I didn’t feel good from the self effects, but that my day took a turn for the better once I started communicating with other people.

I plan to use less pheromones than this to figure out the right dosages, but I don’t want to waste them by using too small of doses. I am not sure where to start. Would love recommendations!

Thanks again to everyone who reads!

1/7/13- Entry 2

Application: 2 drops A314 split between wrist and jaw line. Approx. 2pm.
-All of the other pheromones should have worn off by now since they were all instant and applied about 6 hours ago.

Self-effects: I felt, and still feel, great! When I apply A314 my confidence goes way up, and when I smell it I just feel like a MAN.
-Edit: Wanted to add the most noticeable part of the self effects. I struggle with maintaining good posture, but with A314 on today great posture was completely automatic. Loved it.

Results: I went to a couple of places to get books and run other errands, and all of my interpersonal interactions were much more smooth than I am used to. I felt very comfortable talking to other people. While I can’t say I was garrulous, I held eye contact and felt like I was connecting with other people simply through eye contact.

Discussion/Analysis: Some of these observations may be placebo effect because of the confidence boost. But if it is giving me a confidence boost, is it really that much of a placebo? A314 is my definite favorite for now. I think tomorrow I am going to try A314 and either IS or IH.

Very excited to see what future tests bring. Hopefully I do not build up a tolerance to self effects too soon.

A314 is quickly becoming my favorite also. :slight_smile: It definitely helps facilitate social opportunities that maybe I wasn’t picking up on before applications. Im Looking forward 2 reading about your future successes.

How long have you been using it? Have you noticed any tolerance to self effects yet?

About a month now 5 days a week. No self tolerance effects that I can detect. Just a flood of respect, day in day out. I normally greet 90% of the people I run into at work with a simple hi or how are u doing, but now people I don’t know are beating me 2 the punch with that on a daily basis. :-). I’m an authority figure at work (security officer) so I think a314 compliments the role. :slight_smile:

This makes me excited to continue testing. A314 and security officer definitely sounds like a good combination.

1/8/13

Application: Approx. 9am. 2 drops of A314 split between wrist and jawline. Remaining remnants of a togo instant shine (approx. 1-2 sprays) to the hair.

Self-effects: Ate second breakfast before heading out the door, and while I was eating my cereal I found myself laughing out loud as I reminisced about how I loved to read captain underpants as a child (lol). That had to be the shine. I also got that burst of confidence and erect posture again, but not quite as noticeably as yesterday. Perhaps because I was looking for it.

Results: I had my first session of my biology lab today, and I decided to take the shuttle to school to see if being in a closed space with people made any difference. I did not notice anything either time.

The door was locked to the lab when I got there, and there were people standing outside. I started to read because there were still about 20 minutes before lab. When I took a pause from my reading, I noticed a girl staring directly at me. She turned her head as soon as I looked at her and smiled. After we entered the room, she seemed like she might have followed me to my seat, but it was probably just coincidence.

Things got a little bit more interesting once the room filled up and lab got started. Today was just the introduction, so we were all just sitting and listening to the TAs, but usually we will be moving around a bit more. During the course of the 40 minute lecture I caught three girls staring directly at me and quickly looking away. One of them was the most attractive girl in the class, who unfortunately came in late and sat on the opposite side of the room. Another was directly across from me at the lab table, so it will be interesting to see how she is affected throughout the semester. Other than the looks, there was no further interaction.

I am still far from coming out of my shell, but I do think pheromones will help me. After class, I went to get a new student ID, and found myself having conversations with multiple people in the room. Granted, the guy I talked to most was trying to be friendly, because he was representing a new bank on campus and giving away student IDs is there little promotion, but it is very rare that I make that much conversation and joke around with strangers. I have noticed that it is much easier for me to talk to, and joke around with, other dudes while wearing a314 and shine. That is something I can appreciate because like I said in my introductory post I would like to make more friends. I still need a lot of work with talking to females, though. When I noticed those girls staring at me I got a little overly excited, and then anxious about whether I should try to talk to them and how I should do it. In the end this doesn’t matter though, because I am happily taken in a long term relationship, but I would like to feel comfortable around all people and not just guys.

The last thing I want to mention is that it seemed like everything wore off pretty quickly. The self effects definitely only lasted about two hours, which is expected because I have read that they don’t last as long. But after I left campus and ran some errands, I didn’t notice anything at all from other people. It is possible that I am now hyper-aware because of the amount of “hits” I got in class in such a short period of time. I am doing my best to make my expectations as low as possible while still remaining aware of possible unusual behavior, but it is kind of difficult since I can already see how powerful this stuff is!

EDIT: I am also going to start adding whether or not I exercised before or after I applied mones.
Exercise: 30 minute bike ride and light calisthenics approx. 1.5 hours before application.

**1/8/13- Entry 2

**Application: 3 sprays of IO to the neck and upper chest. Approx. 4pm

Self-effects: None whatsoever

Results: I did not notice anything with IO, and I never really have. Kind of seems like the red headed step child of the instant line. I have some of a togo bottle left, so I will use it from time to time, but I don’t have any real hopes for it.

**1/9/13

Application: **2 sprays IG to the neck. 1 to each side. Approx. 8am.

Self-effects: None

Results: Might have got a little bit of extended eye contact today from a girl in my class, but it seemed like something I would usually get from a girl who is just naturally attracted to my appearance. Other than that I noticed absolutely nothing today.

Discussion: I got 4 hours of sleep last night, and wasn’t in a very lively mood. I did not try to talk to people, and completely stopped looking for differences after a couple hours. I plan to try IG again when in a better mood, but from today and previous experience it does not seem to do much for me on its own.

1/10/13

Wanted to start off this post by thanking Androtics for their great service, and for giving me a free togo of molecule K! I look forward to testing it and reporting about it!

Application 1: 2 sprays of IO, and 2 sprays of IHx2 to the neck. Approx. 10am.
-Went with this mixture after reading up about peoples results with CTTM when it was around, and that this was about what it contained.

Self-effects: I didn’t notice anything today as far as actual chattiness. However, I did feel myself really wanting to talk to people.

Results: I did not open any conversations that weren’t “required,” but when we had introductions with our new lab partners I felt very comfortable and had a decent conversation with my partner. Other than that I noticed nothing

Application 2: 2 sprays of ISx2, 1 to the lower neck/upper chest and 1 to the hair. Approx. 1pm.

Self-effects: I didn’t notice any self-effects today other than a headache.

Results: Nothing really noticeable when I went to run my errands for a couple hours. After coming home I have been talking to my roommate and our conversations have been much more smiley and funny than usual. It has definitely been the funniest conversation we have had since I have gotten back from winter break.

Discussion: I really need to work on my confidence and small talk skills. I will probably start trying to use a314 much more, hoping that it will give me that confidence boost, but I know that won’t be a permanent fix. Like I said before, I just started therapy, so hopefully I will get better at talking to people and stop wasting pheromones. I likely will use a314 tomorrow, but I just got ammo and I am very eager to try it. We will see. Hopefully I can boost that social confidence up and have some interesting and entertaining stories to add to this journal soon.

In regards to small talk I would get gd at making lots of observations on the fly when u catch a girl looking your way. Then base your convo on that. Girls like it when u pay attention to things about them instead of just their appearance. It means your a gd listener and they"ll be more willing to open up. :slight_smile: just my opinion.

I think I understand what you’re saying. Do you think you could give me an example?

BTW, sorry about RG3 man lol

**1/10/13- Entry 2

**Application: 1 spray of Ammo to the side of the neck. Approx. 4:15pm.

Self-effects: I absolutely love the smell of ammo. Even if I don’t get any effects from it, I would probably just buy it as cologne. As for actual self-effects, I felt like the shit after applying ammo, but not like A314 confident. I think it might be the fact that I got hyped up about liking the smell of ammo so much (I am kind of weird like that :stuck_out_tongue:).

Results: I had a nice conversation with a girl I met in class today. Joked around with her a little bit, and complemented her on her nice smelling perfume (semi-fishing for a compliment on the ammo). The conversation was not flirty, and I don’t think that any of it had to do with the ammo.Other than this, I did not notice any looks or anything like that. I will probably boost the dose to two sprays tomorrow morning, but I still might go with a314 instead.

Discussion: Like I said, I do not think the conversation had anything to do with pheromones. She started the talking, and I didn’t notice any extended eye contact or IOI’s. The fact that I had a full conversation is more from my efforts than the mones. Like I have read many times on this forum, the mones don’t do the work for you. I do love the smell of Ammo though, and I am excited to see what kind of results I can get from it going forward.

Lol. My friend showed me a pic 2day that Says Rg3 but the G was a wheel chair. Smdh but thanx :slight_smile:

Anyway I’m just saying look past the stare for a moment, what else is happening. What is she doing besides crushing on you is she holding anything?? Is she doing something in particular, Try to observe things relevant to that moment then just comment on it. If she likes your observation she will enlighten you even further. The trick is to keep your convo to the moment and what’s happening.

Thanks for the advice. I have been trying to do that, but your words make it a little clearer what I need to do. A lot of my problem is saying anything at all to start the conversation, and not knowing what to say once the conversation starts. I can usually think of ways to start a conversation. Whether I actually start it or not is another question, and usually the answer is I don’t.

Then I would say keep your conversations short to start. You make your observation she comments and then u politely say gd bye and move on to the next girl. You don’t have to force anything. Let her dictate the length of the convo. Short convo with the same person can eventually turn into long conversation.

That is a good way to look at it, and I think it will help me out a lot. Thanks for reading and commenting on my journal. I have been reading yours too. Great stuff man.

No problem man we are all here to help each other out like a support group. :slight_smile:

1/11/13

Application: 2 sprays of ISx2, 2 sprays of IHx2, 2 drops of a314. One of each to either side of the neck. Approx. 8am.

Self-effects: Didn’t notice anything today.

Results: The only thing I noticed today was an indian girl staring at me very hard as soon as I sat down. I caught her doing it again a few minutes later, but that was it.

Discussion: I think I am going to take a break from mones for the weekend. I am putting too much pressure on myself to talk to people in general, and especially while wearing them. This weekend I am going to work on talking to people without them, and hopefully ease back into it. I am probably going to do one more test today before giving it up for a few days. If I see anything blatant I will post it, otherwise I will just wait to report again until next week.