you know,
i was discussing with my friend TommyFever (post already,will ya?)
that a part of me wants people to be having the fun i have, and the other part is this dark evil sorceress that wants no one to know about them and hopes everyone thinks its BS.
i creeped myself out with that,
because more often than not, i want to be having fun and pheromoning the world…watching people experience the fun and getting the room hot for one another.
but then i start thinking, who cares what others believe?
there are leaders,and there are followers.
the leaders may not have all the answers, but they arent afraid to screw-up.
their not afraid to say “oh yeah i tried that. it DIDNT work”.
i enjoy being that person.
i also enjoy singing outloud when i know i cant sing 
but i also want to mention HOTMAMA (woohoo!) that i have in fact experienced those moments - although not as often- when people have reacted over the top and hysterically to these mixes…
i have had that “i wanna jump your bones right now!” thing happen.
i dont tell people who are curious that THAT stuff happens, they ought not to expect it and let it be icing on the cake when it does…
i actually had friends look at me in another way only to go back to normal when i wasnt wearing “instant got-you” 
got-you is when i wear a combination that confuses the hell out of them.