Hi everyone – Im hoping that some of you can offer some advice, I know that many of you are super experienced and know what mixes well off the top of your heads…Im trying to get it all down but yikes@ Theres a lot, and lots of unknowns too!!
So I’ve been reading posts about P83 having disinhibiting qualities and am up for a new experiment! Heres the background (sorry theres lots but its pertinent, I think! Please don’t judge –Im not really an angel but there are reasons for it!)
I am 37 and married, on the verge of separation. My TG is 25, friends with both my husband and I our families are friends as well. (Im a young 37, hes an old 25 – age is NOT an issue whatsoever). Anyway, we’ve been on again off again since July of last year….everytime things go well he says he just cant continue, its wrong. Hes good. He doesn’t want to hurt my husband and he doesn’t want to hurt our families either. Lately we’ve been closer to ON (thanks EoW and IS/A?) but once again, he says it cant continue, it’s wrong. Problem is, its SOO not wrong, its completely right and everything else is wrong. Im ready to take the leap and do something for me once?! Anyway, I wouldn’t really call him alpha, except when he’s playing his sport, in which he’s always better than the rest of his team and can yell and be a bit of a bully on the field. Otherwise, he’s quietish unless he knows you, shy, not super masculine (except for the amazing body lol). It seems to me that I have better results with him when wearing IS/A, than IS/B - or it could very well be my self effects (LOVE IS/A, I feel awesome!!). EoW doesn’t hurt either, that tends to heat things up a little. I’m always dabbling with IS or IH too…they seem ok. And on occasion I douse myself with P86 in the hopes that I appear super attractive, lol. The problem is, and Diane reminds me of this lots! is that the pheros aren’t going to make him do what he wouldn’t ordinarily, (though they have on occasion!!). So Im looking to inject some P83 and let him not worry about things so much…just to know that he continues to be interested and isn’t moving on is what I need right now. Oh and I should mention that he lives in our house in a sort of apt on his own, though eats dinner etc. with us – lots of EoW at the dinner table and watching TV!! haha
Here are my thoughts, Id like:
-P83 to disinhibit him a bit
-P86 to appear attractive
-EoW or some Cops to help with the turning on!
-Some EST or MEO-EST so he feels protective to /connected of me and bonded??
-So what else? IS/A? IS/B? I don’t know if hes an alpha! I don’t think his previous GFs have been super dominant though – more the girly type. Maybe that’s what he likes about me? He once said he liked how I seemed really professional and important at work but then was a kid inside (read: have his 12 yr old humor).
-lol P103? or is it P102 for lots of kissing (jk! I know thats not what its about, wouldnt hurt though!)
Im worried about layering on mixes like CTTM because I don’t know whats in them and don’t want to negate or overdo any specific compound.
Help?!??
Also, if I wear EoW all the time around him will the effects come to wear off? Will the cops no longer to raise testosterone, or will he begin to associate any feelings of arousal with me for a longer period? Anyone know?!?! How long does the testosterone level rise for ?? I try not to wear cops before he’ll be with attractive 20 somethings, lol. Don’t want to send him out ready to go!
sorry for the long post, everyone~
hope youre all well out there in pheroland!