The Fallout Ghost: From My Journal

April 15th

Armed with:
1.5-2 drops of A314
A1 15 mcg (3 sprays of 5 mcg )

Results on Target?
She didn’t say ANYTHING to me the entire time. VERY closed off, it seemed. Not even a single IOI . Wouldn’t call it avoidant, but more she was annoyed by something (not me).

On Self
I felt the depression, but it wasn’t really a “the world is crumbling” depression. It was more of a somber, VERY serious, almost militant in attitude depression. I just felt VERY serious, didn’t feel up for a joke, just very curt and “cut the BS.”

Also, I found myself especially annoyed by a teacher that EVERYONE knows is highly incompetent (she asked me too many stupid, annoying questions). Usually, I’m one of the nicest ones towards her, but I just couldn’t handle her today.

On Students
1 student, in particular, was HIGHLY disrespectful. Others were OK, somewhat playful.

Other People
There was a teacher that was implicitly trying to recruit me to her business that she is a part of (MLM – so I was polite, but didn’t want to sound interested).

I had a phone interview where I was completely honest, and the lady over the phone REALLY liked me. I was sort of listening to myself talk, and I thought I kind of had bedroom voice, speaking very slowly, VERY deeply (deeper than usual), very clearly, and with lots of confidence and certainty. The interviewer kept telling me how awesome I was.

Item of Note:
I was straight up IGNORED by my target and another teacher. We were at a team meeting, and it was as if it was between the both of them, and I wasn’t involved. I was asking questions, they’d talk right through them. I got highly annoyed by this. I walked out b/c I had “somewhere to be.” They didn’t acknowledge me. VERY strange.

I don’t know. Not sold on this fallout mix yet. IShine and IH just came in the mail w/ TUTH . Deciding if I should use any (though probably will use IShine ).

Please leave feedback on the following:
The reality is, I got to teach in HER classroom. She was very awesome towards me (though lately, aside from yesterday, a bit standoffish), so I’m getting her an appreciation/birthday gift on her birthday next Wednesday. I’ve drafted a letter talking about my appreciation for her and how awesome I think she is (an entire page). Should I even bother send the gift (would it be congruent with a fallout mix)? Should I omit/add things to the letter, or not even send it at all?

Lemme know!

  1. I would go with A314,IH, and IS right now. This is a solid mix, I find a-1 kills the alpha vibe for me. If a combo came in mind I would say, 2 drops of A314 2 sprays of IH and 2 of IS. I would adjust this to your sweet spot .

  2. Don’t send the letter you will seem like a push over and will most likely get friend zoned.

  3. If your interested in her let your balls drop and ask her out casually. Like " hey there is a great pizza place in town you should try it."

  4. Fortune favors the bold my friend, if you want it go get it, even if I is for a short while.

  5. If depression is a problem for you with A-1 put on hands or counter with IS.

  6. For A314 to work you have to act alpha she should be luck to talk to you. This sounds worse than it is, but you cannot put her on a pedestal. Just act like she is a normal girl and if she is attracted to you you will definitely see the IoI’s. If not then move on man there are plenty of other women out there that would love to spend time with you.

That’s the thing. The A1 ENHANCES the alpha vibe for me, it’s just with my target, for whatever reason, she seemed a bit dodgy and coy. Did not expect that.

As for the letter, I thought about it, and I agree. It was too affectionate, too squishy. Given how much she has been hot & cold as of late, I’ve decided that I still WILL send her a letter (it’s akin to a birthday card – going to be placed in the gift), BUT I made it much more casual, taking a step back.

-Saw this at the store and thought it was screaming your name.
-You REALLY look in your element at your job. You’re a natural.

Language like that. Nothing like “OMG YOU’RE THE BEST EVERRRR.”

Also, didn’t end with a “farewell” (like sincerely, best, or anything like that), but rather, did this (I thought it was comical).

P.S. Plant a tree. It’s Earth Day
P.P.S You owe me (ice cream flavor she told me she’d buy me in beginning of year)
P.P.P.S. And also lunch (she has told me she wanted to buy me lunch as a ‘thank you’ to me, never has)

First-up, fallout mixes can seem unproductive initially - the subject is sometimes having to deal with conflicting emotions they don’t want to be dealing with. Generally, you stick with it a bit longer to let them get through that stage.

You have previously described a lot of conflicted/attention-seeking behaviour from her. Some attention-seekers really don’t do well with A314 IME - A314 signals serious business/intentions - so she may be realising its not so easy to be a flibbertygibbet around you. This is also good as its a form of screening that you should be paying attention to!

Kids tend to respond very warmly to A1 - so they could be feeling just too comfortable around you. Drop the dose!

Similarly, if you are getting the downers - Drop the dose! You will still be getting thee fallout properties but will be able to manage the negative effects much better. After a week or two you may well find you have adjusted to them and can raise it again, slowly.

If you don’t adjust in a few weeks, then it may be time to move to an IH/P74-based fallout mix, which has enough similar properties (but not so crushy) to be a viable alternative to A1.

Don’t do the letter - a card/small gift might be ok but if you frame it with a full page of gushing appreciation, you might as well give her your freshly severed balls in a box!

I think 10 mcg. with some IShine REALLY worked beautifully! Check my recent journal post!

April 16th – Is this a new girl? COMPLETE turn-around
Armed with:
1-2 drops A314 SAME APPLICATION SPOT AS USUAL
2 sprays A1 (5 mcg each) SAME APPLICATION SPOT AS USUAL
1 spray IShine BACK OF THE HEAD, IN HAIR

Results on Target
I want to say ‘WOW,’ but can’t count your chickens before they hatch.
Each class is an hour and a half, and in the first class ALONE there were 5-6 BLATANT IOIs. They are as follows:

-She came over to talk to me, tell me something about what we’re going to do. She does this usually. What was different was she was taking her thumb and playing with her necklace (like pulling on it with her thumb and running her thumb across it). I found that strange.
-A LOT more talkative, friendly, smiley, catching her looking at me A LOT throughout class to get confirmation about whatever she said
-Dangling foot orientation: Caught her dangling foot pointing right towards me several times throughout the day
-At one point, she came up to me and poked me in the shoulder to tell me something (don’t remember what)
-Another teacher sent a student to ask for my assistance with something. Co-teacher says, “I think she needs help lifting something heavy, and she’s looking for a man. Looking for a manly man.”
-Shortly after trying to get my attention, she tried to get my attention AGAIN! I usually orient myself in a walk where I’m standing next to her talking to her, she threw herself FACING me, and she did the whole eye contact thing

REST OF DAY:
-Talking to her, she makes GREAT eye contact, looks away, keeps talking, I keep staring at her eyes, and they meet again during conversation. She smiles (though it seemed like a genuine smile, not a flirty smile. I kind of just smirked).
-Throughout the day, the blatancy of IOIs died down a little bit, but I always have a FEELING that she looks at me when I enter a room, she just acts coy as to seem uninterested
-As a gift for all the IOIs, I flirt with her for a second. Walked up to her during class, and pretended I was kicking her. She reciprocated with a pretend shoulder to my ribs saying, “we gonna start wrestling up in here!”
-Caught her once (and I realize–this could just be happenstance) flipping her hair in the OPPOSITE direction of me as she walks past me. This one COULD just be happenstance, but I’ve caught her doing this before.

Hits with Others
-Hit EARLY on in the day. The 6th grade math teacher, a 22 year old GORGEOUS black girl, was helping me on an assignment yesterday. I asked her for help, she emailed me some links, and I thanked her for it this morning. She just started TALKING. Like, quite a bit. It wasn’t an instance of, “OH YEAH! No problem! I feel the struggle, man.” I don’t remember the content, but the general feel was she wanted to have a conversation with ME and ONLY ME! Then, I started singing a song to myself shortly thereafter, and she just responded with, “what you say?” I find women tend to think of you almost as an authority figure, and they become almost girlishly intimidated by your presence.

Same girl from yesterday (my superior) came to talk to me upset about something I said. I apologized, and again, it just felt like I was HER superior. She seemed almost nervous to talk to me!

On Children
-VERY friendly and playful. Was called “the chillest teacher in the school.”

With my target, I like that she’s making out (possibly even sexing), her best friend. Why? HE’S LEAVING BACK TO HIS HOME STATE IN A MONTH OR TWO, AND IN THE MEANTIME, SHE ISN’T TALKING TO OTHER BOYS!
He looks like a placeholder, in my opinion. Seeing him hanging on her at the end of the day, she CLEARLY loves the attention (and may genuinely even like the guy), but I get the feel that she’s going to eventually want a “manly man.”

Insert me.

Self-Effects
OH MY GOD the ISHINE makes a WORLD of difference. This could even be a club mix because my confidence is SO high, rejection isn’t a thing and I can walk up to a girl and look her dead in the eye. No backing down.
-Made me feel a LITTLE lackadaisical, but also, felt like a god amongst men
-Had the feeling that I could reel in ANY girl I wanted
-Even looked at my target at one point, and thought “wow. She is beautiful, but I could probably do better if I tried.”
-I was flirting with HER a lot. For some reason, I had the incessant need to act towards her in a way that said, “I’m a man, I’m sexual. You WILL notice me, and you WILL respect me as such.” I brushed up against her a couple of times, just little things that could get her hot and bothered. I felt VERY dominant, and almost felt a vibe from her that said, “you are dominant to me, I am submissive to you.” It was as if I was peacocking my social status up against hers, and with the Fallout mix, I think it may have made her rather uncomfortable between the legs (possibly, I don’t know).