Jdub, to me it feels like micromanaging is not a very alpha behavior. Commanding might be alpha but micromanaging suggests a lack of control, motivated by underlying fear and anxiety. Micromanaging comes from a weak sense of self. That’s what I feel from my own experiences, anyway.
Yesterday: 2x a314 below ears, 10mcg p96 spray to throat, EO mix (mostly vanilla & jasmine with a little vetiver and oakmoss) to sides of neck.
Just good interaction shopping and relaxing with GF. No hugely obvious hits but also no dramas with anyone. Good quality service from*the servers and store clerks I interacted with.
I noticed my EO mix didn’t seem to last as long as the a314 aroma. I can either bring along a little spray bottle or maybe I could make it stronger. I’m also thinking of remaking it as an oil-based cologne instead of an alcohol-based one. Just got to be careful with the intensity.
Like Conjurator, I quite like the smell of vanilla. I’m also a fan of sandalwood but I’ll have to try that again in much more dilute form, since I managed to give myself a headache when I mixed it too strong. But vanilla is always a pleasant scent to me. I know it’s meant to be feminine, but for me it smells a lot less feminine than Neroli. And I find it more calming than Neroli, which is famous for its soothing properties.
I seem to be becoming a boring a314/p96 user. I can’t seem to break out of that mix. I’ve got a couple of new putatives freebies to try out, but I need to find a day when I’m not doing mission critical work with clients or hanging out with close family. I don’t mind screwing up my relationships with total strangers (other than actual physical violence), but I’d prefer not to screw up relationships with people I already know. A lot of my work at the moment involves working one on one for long periods of time, so it’s kind of important that things go well.
My adrenal exhaustion seems to be improving already. I don’t know if it is the adaptogens, or the amino acids, or the Vitamin B complex I recently started taking, but things are starting to get a whole lot smoother. Even hints of my sex drive returning.
All of which means I will have the physical and mental reserves necessary for proper putative testing. Not to mention proper sweet spot testing of the Instant range, which I’m kinda embarrassed about.
Today: 3x a314 below ears, 10mcg p96 spray to throat, EO mix (mostly vanilla & jasmine with a little vetiver and oakmoss) to sides of neck (almost the same as yesterday, surprise surprise). I meant to only apply 2x a314 but a third drop snuck out of the bottle, so I thought I might as well use it.
Had a professional consultation with my young blonde chiropractor. Session went as usual, but afterwards she put her hand on my shoulder in a friendly, affectionate way on two or three different occasions. Usually she doesn’t do that at all, or maybe just once, so that was an improvement.
Got the wonderful self effects of a314 and p96 today in particular. That suggests to me that my own hormones are getting back to normal, because that was how I remember a314 feeling when I first started using it. Feel so smooth and calm and chilled with the a314/p96 combo.
Thanks for subscribing, Conjurator. I have a lot of respect for your own journal. And for your redhead preference. A partiality for natural redheads seems to be a common thread here.
On another note, I got burned recently buying Sandalwood essential oil on eBay from an Indian vendor. I received two shipments of some weird fragrance oil that smells absolutely nothing like sandalwood from any country, let alone India. I’m going through the usual eBay resolution process, but I won’t be making that mistake again. Ironic that the safest place to buy a genuine Indian product might be outside India.
The hedione I bought a while ago was also from India, now that I think of it. I wonder if that too was non-genuine. I might have to order a small amount of hedione from Perfumer’s Apprentice and see what kind of reaction I have to it.