Hello people,
I know, some are waiting for good news and hope that I solve some points.
Sorry, but we don’t solve any problem. There was no talk about problems, future, plans, solutions, hopes. But better maybe I make a short report of the days home. And you can tell me how to interprete. Ladys; you can tell me more about it.
Day 1;
After landing, take 1xNONE, 1xRONE on front neck and 2xIO on wrists … maybe she would come to pick me up. but she wasnt there. Drive home, 01:00 pm, my 19 months old son was sleeping, wife reading, knock the door 2times, no ne opens, take my key and she look from the living room, be quit, he is sleeping. Ok, went to her, no hi, no hug, nothing, gone to balkony, smoke together,nothing special, just some cold words about nothing. That was a bad start!!! Then, Henri my son weak up, mom gone to him, talk 1-2minutes and told him, come, see who is there. I waitedin the living room, can see his door,no move, bright smile, hi hide his eyes beheind his hands; normal. nearly every child does it. But half hour later we was friends.My wifedont say ever “daddy” “papa” or something like that. Henri does it after a time. That was great. after we drive to a animalpark, Henri loves animals, but was not so much interested this time. We look around than play in the playground, drive!!! an old tractor, wife made many pictures, and so do I of them 2.
No touch, no smile, no looks, cold … SHIT. That will be hard. Sad but try to keep my positiv face till we gone early to bed. I gues earlyer then she goes alone. Fallow her, but no, everyone stay on own side.
Night,Henri woke up for night bottle, I gone but he dont wanted me. So mom give it, I chaged his diapers and he sleep.
feeling; not a nice day but will fight and NEVER lose my hope. Need time and this is what I dont have, time less than money.bad bad bad …
Day 2:
Next morning; breakfast was everytime a pleasure for us.She loved to eat and the breakfast I prepare for us. Thistime, very easy, fast, nothing special. And then went out, love how my sone runs around the little man.And he talks, I can cry in happyness. Look around, see some dress, shirt for him but wrong size.
When he sleep ı drive to another town, 10 miles away,take the shirt we (yes we,my wife and I) like, jeans and another shirt I like. Jeans and shirt was not right but the shirt I take was right her taste. We 2 have very similar taste nearly about everything.
Then look around, have a nice day, turn back. All the time I played with my son, love how he says “Papa”. Henri take a bath,and there was the point of my hope! She askme if I can change the washbasin and bathroom cabinett. YES, I can. No joke, decoration; we made it withmy dad long years and I’m good in such works.
Later when our son sleep, we on the balcony again, but first drive to the service station to take some cola for vodka. It was a nice night, we talk about 3 hours about everythign but NOT problems, nore our future. But she dont run away when I touch her. We pack the gifts for Henri and his cousin. Find out we neet some bat. for the toy, drive and buy the most expencive bat. in my life. That was nice.
No sex, no kiss, no gazing from her, at least I havent seen this.
But that she ask me for some changes at home,ho she love this flat make me hope for future.
Bad, I havent more time to stay …
Day 3:
To short and the 2 went to grandgrandparents, they dont like me. And normal that I dont want to make the ostern bad, henri must enjoy the day