Pudleduk's Journal

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Men's Journals
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Hi there and welcome to my pherotalk journal!
First off, special thanks go out to 1Alpha, Miss Dragon, and Dee A for helping to get me started on the forum.
I don’t have any products yet, (they are in the mail currently,) so no better time to start a journal than before things get crazy…
:wink:
As I had mentioned in my introductions “Hello!” post, (which can be found here) => Hello. Pheromones to Keep Our Bedroom Fires On & Restart Long Intimate Convo. M/41

I’m currently 41, living in Maine. I started looking into buying a new pheromone product when I came across an old bottle of long-expired pheromone loaded cologne in a forgotten storage bin that I had tossed aside and dismissed as bunk years ago. Once found, I realized it that it suddenly livened up the relationship with my long-term partner.
Now, just to set things straight, things have always been great in our relationship, but after moving in together and becoming comfortable together, our daily routine became, well… routine. When I came across the old bottle of cologne, I sprayed some on, just to give it one more go before it went in the trash with the spring cleaning clear-out.
That’s when my eyes opened! Even though I have never cared for the scent of the stuff, (it smells just like an overly sweet birthday cake,) it clearly put new life in our relationship that had been a fairly consistent routine over the past few years. Suddenly, we were both carrying on conversations like we had soon after we fell in love, and the bedroom has turned into what had been a couple of events a month back into a daily affair. There is no mistaking the change in either me or her.
I still don’t enjoy smelling of a birthday cake, but this is a small price to pay for all the clear benefits!
Anyhow, with 1Alpha and Miss Dragon’s help, I decided to go ahead on order the introductory kit at AD, and it should be here early of next week. I’ll smell like a birthday cake a little while longer, as I look into researching how to properly use my new tools.
New users should check out my introductions link above for some great advice from 1Alpha and Miss Dragon concerning their suggestions on where to dive in to get yourself started.
~Cheers!~
Pudleduk

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Reps for starting a Journal!

And I’m subscribing. :slight_smile:

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I’m in business!
My newbie togo starter pack came today. Picked it up from the Fedex establishment after work let out.
5pm. A bright sunny day, fairly windy but a wonderful 60 degrees; first day we can properly have the windows down and finally get some fresh air after a long winter.
Not wanting to just bust in and spray a little of everything, I restrained myself and decided to start with A314. I took 1/2 spray to the wrist to prime the bottle, then applied 1 spray to each side of the neck in my beard.
I’m not sure what I was expecting for an odor from these, perhaps a more musky scent, but I was pleasantly surprised by the delightful scent this has. I’d describe it as something reminiscent of a mens deodorant soap, with maybe a hint of citrus. Very nice, high quality scent in any case. With my new scent applied I headed off to grab myself a beer at a local bar I visit weekly.
Not sure I experienced and valid hits through the afternoon, but had plenty of exposure to others. At the bar, I decided to sit in the center and see where that took me. The bartender is always a friendly sort, but perhaps a little more so today. She automatically poured me a sample to taste before I tried a brew that was new to me, which one would typically need to ask for. She didn’t spend any extra time in my vicinity, but she did give me a, “make sure you come again…” which was a first from her. Midway through my beer, the guy sitting next to me received his food order, a fish taco that smelled as if it had gone terribly wrong. My sweetie has a special place in her heart for a good fish taco, and usually they are amazing from this place, but this was not the case today. Guy seemed to enjoy it though, and he commented the “whoever thought of adding kimche to a fish taco was a genius!” I’m inclined to a agree, it probably cut the old fish flavor… I wasn’t happy sitting next to the fish monger, so I paid my tab and moved on down the road.
Next up, Boy Scout Committee meeting. My son called to ask if I would pick up one of his friends before scouts as a new recruit. I picked up my son at the ex’s house and headed to the friend’s. His dad came out to greet us, and we had a pleasant conversation about scouts as he got a read on me to gain some comfort with who he might be sending his son off with. I gave him my cell phone and the encounter came of very well. Had a brief discussion with another scout’s female parent about if our son’s will be going to the scout camp that is held over April vacation. We both came to a conclusion that they wouldn’t attend this one, but our conversation was bright and chipper on both sides. Off to scouts and into the meeting with 4 other male committee members. Not much to read from the meeting except that when I spoke up with questions or comments, the room was definitely focused on me, and the meeting would not progress until they were convinced I was satisfied, and made the ‘signal’ to continue to the next topic.
Following the meeting, dropped my son’s friend back off, and then back to drop off my son with the ex, I started my 1.5 hr commute home to my Love.
It was 8:30 by this point. The A314 was still in effect, but decided to break another seal and prime the pump on the AMMO togo, so had 1/2 spray of that added to my wrists. this one was another pleasant and classy scent, reminiscent of floral when distant, but when smelled close up, i could get a clear and slightly sharp scent of musk. It was very nice indeed.
After the long slog home, I greeted my honey, by this time it was 10pm. We snuggled up together in bed and watched some TV to help me unwind after what are always very long Mondays. Loads of nice snuggling and she made the comment to me that I was the “best hot water bottle in the world,” (yes that’s a compliment, since I run hot and she runs cold, and that’s just a perfect combination for us!) :slight_smile: After a short time, the day was done and we had fallen to sleep in each others arms.
Next morning, any trace of the AMMO was gone, but I kept catching whiffs of the A314 as I got myself ready for work.

Conclusions:
OK, so I can’t say with honesty there were any clear hits here, but also, I can’t say I was trying for this yet. This day, and likely the next several are only for me to get a try of the scents and how they work. I’ll likely try heavier concentrations coming soon, once I get a handle these.
I can speak to some self-effects though. I certainly had a feeling of confidence with the A314 that wouldn’t have otherwise. The scent was sophisticated, and I enjoyed that fresh and clean scent which gave me the feeling that nothing could shake me off my game. The AMMO also added to that a sexy feeling, that rather then giving me just general overall confidence, gave me a feeling of confidence that I was approachable, that everyone would feel at ease to come say “Hi.”

Plan for tomorrow (today really) has been to try AMMO and A314 together is small amounts to get an understanding on the combined scent.
Wednesday should bring me to a late concert locally, so I need to develop a plan ahead of that night out on the town with my sweetie; it will be another late night, probably won’t get in until 2am if I’m lucky…
pudleduk

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Yesterday’s tests were A314 and AMMO during the day and AMMO with IH later, then MX297 with TUTH at night. Here is how the test went…
Added the A314 and AMMO just before arriving to work at 8AM; one spray of A314 to the front of the neck, and 1 spray od AMMO rubbed between my wrists. The weather was 50F and drizzling rain. I wanted to try this combination to see how the fragrances worked together, and they worked well nicely. I feel like I could certainly pick out each individual scent, and they didn’t seem to combine into one unidentifiable new scent. I still had the self-effects of each; an overall confidence in myself, and an easily approachable aura. Meetings in the morning produced no clear hits, although there was a clear attentiveness to my words when I spoke up.
Unfortunately, my job has me work partly in a clean room so there is little opportunity for any testing when I am inside these areas, however when I’m at my cubical, I’ve never been one of those cubes that everyone stops by to say “Hi,” but this has clearly changed over the last few days. I am now getting visors regularly, some times to discuss work, other times to discuss things going on outside of work. On a few occasions, a co-worker appeared and had to quickly come up with something off handed to say, just to explain why he stopped outside my door. This is something I’m not normally used to, as I’m usually no social butterfly, but is no big hassle; I’ll get used to expecting this shortly I’m sure.
After the workday was completed, at 5pm I decided to refresh with one spray of AMMO rubbed into the wrists, and added 1 spray of IH to each side of the throat. When the IH was applied, I got some self-effects of feeling more easily talkative. I was able to put this to use over dinner with my hunny; nothing earth shattering, just got into talking about our how our day went at work, but a much more in-depth discussion than we might previously have had.
After dinner we both slipped off to the bedroom, initially to gather our sleepwear with the intention on talking a shower together, but once there, she climbed into bed to relax. Not leaving any opportunity to snuggle to pass, I climbed in with her, and we had some fun relaxing each other with a rubdown and some petting. After a time we moved off to the shower and had some clean fun there.
Once out of the shower, I took the opportunity to put on 1 spray of MX297 rubbed between the wrists and 1 spay of TUTH to either side of the throat. With all the warmups we had gone through, I figured I’d be golden. I was soon disappointed however. Once out of the shower she came into the room took 3 unmistakably long, slow inhalations through her nose, as though she was catching a scent she couldn’t get enough of. This raised my spirits higher. After a few minutes past, she became preoccupied with a text message from a friend who wanted a recipe my sweetie had recently created for a gluten-free dish. She had to take some time to locate the recipe and forward this off to her friend, as we sat together relaxing on the couch. when that was through, about a half an hours had passed, and we finally retired to the bedroom. But once there and snuggled under the covers, she rotated with her back from me and couldn’t be roused with the same touching and caressing that had worked just a few hours before. In a short time, she was nearly asleep. As a last ditch effort, I changed tactics to turn with my back towards her, as if to play a little hard-to-get. I thought it might work as she rolled over to fallow me, but once she snuggled into my neck were the TUTH was applied, as few deep breaths later, she was in dreamland.
Could it be the two new pheros was too much to quick? It sure didn’t have the effect I expected it might. We were both fairly “warmed up” as receptive coming out of the shower, but once these were applied the dynamic clearly shifted. Not afraid to do some more testing here though. Maybe the MX297 is too calming of a vibe…

Today I’m using IG at work, 1 spray rubbed between the wrists and 1 spray on either side of the neck. No unexpected visitors today so far, but them most of the day I’ve been confined to the cleanroom. Tonight I’ll be out on the town for a while before meeting up with my sweetie for a dinner out, and then off to a concert at 8. Still haven’t decided on what to use for the evening, but with so much public exposure, I might go for a head-turning combo with TUTH, IShine maybe?

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The 3 sprays of IG went swimmingly yesterday. Most of the day I was in a clean-room suit, but I enjoyed the confidence I gave me throughout the day.
After work, I had a few hours to spare while I waited for my Love to arrive in town for a dinner out and the concert, so I took the opportunity to apply my chosen mix.
2 sprays IShine at the hot of the head in my hair
1 spray of IO in front of each ear
1 spray of A314 on neck
1 spray of TUTH on chest
Once applied, I parked the car in a garage near the venue, and walked across town towards where my Love and I were to meet for dinner.
Weather was mid 50’s F, with bright sun, but it was very windy in the city this day. I passed many people who were out enjoying the day, but no one seemed to take much notice of me with exception to one lady who wanted to bum a dollar for the bus.
Stopped into a local bar on the way to have myself a craft brew and see if I could raise any heads. I tried several minutes in one seat close to some ladies gathered after work, but got not hits. Shifted to another seat close to a walkway to the ladies room, and after several minutes watching the room and sipping an IPA, I decided to pay my tab and move on. Stopped off at a second bar to do the same, but this was mostly a guy hangout. I sat down next to where the waitress was getting drink orders filled, but she came by only a few times and was right back off to wait tables without even a glance.
Another short walk to a tourist attraction where visitors were milling around and snapping pics, and I hung around to watch, but got no hits.
Met up with my hunny for a short walk along the piers before we hit a stylist but hip restaurant on the water. The place was doing a fair business, and we were seated in a high traffic area. Dinner was good, nothing much to note here. My sweetie didn’t act much different than any other given dinner, we talked more about things going on at work, nothing heavy. She did make a comment that the waitress never looked directly at her, but somewhere 4=>5 inches above her head, which she found strange. Waitress always looked me in the eye when she was talking though, so maybe there is something there…
After dinner, we moved directly to the venue for the concert, Shaky Graves. It was a general admission ticket with a dancing area up front, but many open seat to pick from. I selected some seats near the sound stage for the opener, but this proved to be a poor choice, as this was hardly the “life of the party” vibe I was trying for with Ishine, so when I realized my mistake, I asked her to join me up close to the stage behind some shorter ladies. another group of women packed in behind us, and I figured in the close conditions, I’d get something out of the re-positioning, but it wasn’t meant to be. No hits all night, sadly.
I’m starting to feel like a pheromone black hole here. I figured this mix would work for me, but do you think I have the amounts wrong here?
I’d use more to see where it takes me, but don’t know how to gauge when I’ve gone too far…

Today, I’ve donned 5 sprays of A314 to see where it takes me:
1 spray rubbed between the wrists
1 spray in front of each ear and one spray on the neck.
pudleduk

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Yesterday’s test with 5 sprays of A314 went well. Confident self-effects similar to what I had previously. I was surprised that adding the extra number of sprays didn’t seem to increase the “volume” of the scent as I had expected. Maybe I went nose-blind to it after a short time, but it seemed to me the scent was no more powerful than previous smaller doses.
I can tell you, I was having one lucky day from my perspective. Everything I did just went right, almost as if I could do no wrong and maybe I was being helped along by a higher power. At one point, I had to go searching for an obscure part needed to repair a piece of equipment. No one knew if we had one, let alone where it might be if we did. After a long search by others, I decided to lend a hand. Opened a storage cabinet and laid my hand on the right part within minutes. Several other happenings like this left me with kind of a golden-boy feeling.
After work, with the tail end of the A314 still in effect, I applied the following as a second test with my hunny at home:
5:30pm
1 spray on either side of the neck, and 1 spray on the chest of TUTH
3 sprays on the top of my head of MX297
When I arrived home at 7pm, it had mellowed slightly but was still fully present. My sweetheart took very little notice of it when I arrived however. Over dinner, we did have a more in depth conversation then we have had in several years though. I told her about the inner workings of my job, and some of the day I had, and she analyzed some of the personalities and training strategies concerning what I had discussed, which is her area of research. It was nice to be talking and having something to say. Separate showers after dinner, and I reapplied the same TUTH to the same app points, but went with 2 sprays of AMMO following the shower, one in front of each ear, instead of the MX297 this time.
We relaxed in front of the tv for a time, then I suggested we move to the bedroom a little early.. We got comfortable in bed, but then she had some paperwork to complete before the next day, so she did her homework.
Once that was finally done, the lights went out, but I managed to muster things with some massages, and we had a good time making love together, but I would not say this came any easier or more intense than it normally would on any other given day.
I may abandon the TUTH for a time, it doesn’t seem to arouse any feelings on this one…

This morning, I could still clearly detect the AMMO and TUTH still present. It was difficult to wake up, I would have rather stayed in bed. Before leaving for work, I struggled to find where the coffee grounds were kept, even though we have always stored them in the same location, just a few feet from the coffee maker. Clearly not thinking so well this morning. After leaving for work, I thought I’d try out the P82 5mu I received free with my order. 1 spray on each wrist and one spray on each side of the neck. I feel this produced an ‘in-the-zone’ focus effect on me. I was suddenly awake and alert, despite not having a sip of my coffee yet. I’d read some posts that this has had little or no effect for many people, but I clearly felt a change here. Added another spray to my wrist to wipe some under my nose. The effect increased slightly for a time, but after 30 or 40 minutes this effect had pretty much gone. Short lived it seems, I had to reach for the coffee at this point.
7:50am application before work. Went with A314 - 1 spray each side of neck, since I could still clearly smell the remnants of the AMMO and TUTH from the night before.
I had a commanding moment during a tense meeting at 10am; a room of 8 other men fixed on my word of advice for a change of course in our daily operations. My ideas stuck with them and the group ran with the suggestions.
1:30pm, my first real obvious hit!:smiley:
Standing outside a conference room waiting for lunch to heat in the microwave. A lady co-worker of mine emerges, late 40’s, Asian. I comes up and stands directly in front of me, smiles, and starts asking me if I know were to find some updated files on a project I am loosely connected with. The person in charge of the files is away and she was curious to look into the progress, could I help? Direct eye contact, standing close, but not in my personal space. I told her I would certainly try to locate these for her, but I have no idea where they might be, so it was a long shot. It wasn’t a long conversation, but her face was lit up. A nice feeling.
A slight headache and sort-of burnout feeling today, maybe an OD indicator from yesterday’s tests. I’m going through my togo sprays faster than I had hoped, and I’m feeling like I should be saving these for days when I have proper testing environments. I have a dinner party this Tuesday, and a wedding to attend the end of May which will include a long road trip with friends; these would be better trails in which to perform proper test. Will likely continue A314 at work, and I should pick up a 10ml oil if I plan on sustaining a daily application with this.
pudleduk

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I think you should leave the MX297 first. Both the A314 and AMMO are attractant on their own. So adding the TUTH would be enough. Plenty of success stories around with the A314+TUTH or AMMO+TUTH combo only. I might also add that MX297+TUTH are best in crowded, rowdy place such as the bar, clubs and parties, to win more attention against the hundreds of competitions. :slight_smile: But hey, you can shut me down, you know. :smiley: Scientists often ignore the buzz and off they go discovering new combos with best results. :slight_smile:

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Thanks Dee, I’ll take that advice! It’s good to know which settings might work best for me using MX297 + TUTH, clearly I have much to learn yet still!
I’ll give another try to both AMMO + TUTH and A314 + TUTH. Strangely though, I get little response from my lover with anything I used, beyond a casual, " that smells nice" maybe. Any evidence to suggest that a smoker doesn’t pick up pheromones as easily?
Loving the self effects I’m getting from the A314, so this is surely going to be a daily application for me. My mood is high, and I’m taking charge on thing I would have previously been in the back seat on. Wonderful product!
Pudleduk

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Monday, for work at 8am, I put on 1 spray A314 to each neck, under the ear, and one spray of AMMO to the back of neck. It was a productive day. No obvious hits, but the self assured feeling of the A314 kept me driven.
After work, I decided it was time for a haircut so at 5pm I added 1 spray of AMMO to the area under each ear, then 1 spray of TUTH to see if I could get any responce from my hair dresser. She was certainly chatty, much more than she might have been usually. She also took her sweet time cutting the hair too; it was likely the most detailed hair cut I have had is quite some time. Once she was done, I got a hot towel massage to my neck, supposedly to wipe the fallen hair, that was certainly not part of the any of my previous hair cuts at this establishment. Unfortunately it likely wiped off the sprays I had just applied minutes before! Too bad…
After the cut, thinking the previous application had been washed away, I applied 1 spray of AMMO to the top of each hand and rubbed these into my throat, then hit my Monday bar spot for a brew. Here, the bar tend was super happy to see me and spent several minutes chatting me up. She was all smiles with stories to tell; a clear hit in my book, as she has never show that sort of rapport with me before, although she has always been pleasant. After a quick beer, smiles and stories, I was back on the road and home to my love.
Coming up with a mix to wear for tonight. We are hosting a dinner party with 4 friends at home tonight, and I’m looking forward to the get-together, (and the testing.) I figure I’ll go with MX297, IG and IO as a mix to see where the discussion go, I’ll report on the particulars of the evening tomorrow, Stay tuned!
pudleduk

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Well.. I HAVE to report on this one,
So as I had mentioned, for the dinner party I went with:
4 sprays MX297 to the tops of my arms, wiped onto my forearms
2 sprays IG applied to my neck under my ears
2 sprays IO layers on the tops of my arms as well
All applied after a fresh shower at 6pm
The dinner party consisted of a male fried of ours, late 30s, his parents, both late 60s and his LRT late 40s. Also there was my hunny, mid 40s and myself, 41.

Everyone arrived at 6:30 and a bottle of wine was opened and shared among 5 of us, (my girl doesn’t care for wine.) The food was cooking, the light music flowed, and we quickly worked into conversations. It’s hard to pin-point exactly when, but after a short time it seemed like about 6 different conversations were all taking place at one time. Everyone had their own conversation going, with others, all while still being present in everyone else’s conversations; answering questions directed at them, and then seamlessly directing a question to another person. It is very difficult to explain, but we were certainly having a ball, catching up with were we are at work, or plans for home improvements, or what is going on with kids, or what sort of new recipes we’ve tried… It was never overwhelming, there was just a synergistic flow to the convos that left us all beeming!
7:30, dinner is served and conversation continues between short silence periods for bites to eat. Second bottle of wine was poured, and soon we had moved into a playful poking and prodding joking around atmosphere. My friend’s gilr shared a story about how my friend had woken her up in the middle of the night; he had been dreaming that he had gotten stuck under the weights of a lift machine and needed her to call for help, (of which he had remembered none of that.) This opened up a whole host of other stories. My sweetie confided that she sometimes does the same, and I help tell the story how one night she had me walking around the outside of the house in the dark to look for an intruder, only to ask me why I was all dressed up in flannel when she awoke the morning after. My friends Dad share another story of waking up in the middle of the night with his son completely out of sorts and punching the air; as it turned out his arm had fallen asleep, and he had dreamed that someone was attacking him, when it had turned out to be his hand on him all along.
These stories moved into more strange and personal stories, like my frieds Dad confiding to us that on hot summer nights, he would vault over the neighbors fence, buck-naked to take a quick splash in thier in-ground pool, and return to the bed soaking wet, to keep himself cool for the night. One time he was even caught! His son was mortified, and never knew this, but we all had a grand laugh at the thought. Towards the end, I had his Mom dancing to a Queen song as we did dishes. Lots of warm hugs as they were leaving.
All in all it was a truly amazing night. We all bonded by a large amount, and we will likely do this all again before long. No one ever suspected anything was up, but there is no doubt in my mind, the mones made the night for us!

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Here is a couple of tests that I hadn’t got the chance to report on.
Had a family meal at my mothers home, and during this day I had on 2 sprays IG to my neck, and 2 sprays of MX297 to my wrists. With this application, family was a bit warmer and upbeat than I might have expected them. The kids, (4 aged 9=>13) were in an excited mood, although this may have been due to it being the last weekend of the school vacation week working on them. My sweetie was a bit more touchy in from of the family than she usually would have been, which was nice.
Monday after work I took my weekly bar trip. This time I tried 2 sprays to the neck of AMMO to go on top of the 2 sprays A314 I had placed there in the morning before work. The bartend was happy to see me, but certainly wasn’t in the same chatty mood she had been last week. 1 more spray of AMMO + 1 spray of TUTH was much more effective. No one else seemed to take much notice of me, and the bar was busy this night, but I wasn’t working the room at all; I was reading more journal entries on the forum here. :stuck_out_tongue:
I’ll need to make a purchase of a larger bottle of AMMO to do some more testing with this, but I am waiting on a 2x strength to become available.
On my late commute home, I added 2 sprays of TUTH to the AMMO I had on in the bar, to see if I could get a reaction when I arrived home. The reaction was slight if it was there. I was welcomed with a warm kiss, and we watched an hour of TV while cuddling in bed, before we drifted off for sleep.
I’ve been talking with my girl about pheromones, and I think she feels like I’ve gone off my rocker a bit, but she hasn’t given me a hard time about this at all. I’ve explained some of the self effects I’ve experienced with A314, and she says she hasn’t noticed any change in me, but that she’d be watching more closely for these now, just as my bottles are running on the low side… :roll_eyes:
Anyhow, I’d like to do more testing with higher concentrations, but at the same time, I don’t want to burn through the stock on hand. Soon I’ll place an order for larger bottles, and I’ll be able to relax that I have a supply that won’t get used up quick.
pudleduk

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Before I get too far in my journal, I want to make a “Favorite Links” to give me a good place to store the links I’ve enjoyed so I can easily refer back to these. You may find some interest here, but if you don’t care to look into these, feel free to skip over this post; this is basically a note page for me. :smiley:

Tisha23’s Pheromone Guides:

SteveO’s Introduction to Mones Guide

The ‘Every Question’ Sticky
http://www.pheromonetalk.com/every-question-every-answer-68609.html

Toilofday’s Noob Bootcamp

Tourch10’s Beginner mixing guide

Journals I’ve read, enjoyed and recommend:

Miss Dragon’s

1Alpha’s

LadyScientist’s

CelticPrince’s

Jeiyt’s

Smellymen2002’s

Mobocaster’s

TwistedOstrich’s (part 2)

paradox1’s

somechick03862’s

Himeros’s

Jeity’s

Currently reading:
P51Mustang’s

In the queue:
Lakerman32, tisha23, and pherojack.

My pheromone stash:
P96 - 20mcg
TAC - 20mcg
None - 1 mg/ml
AMMO 1x
Mx297
A314 1.32b Spray
A314 oil
IShine 2x
IHonesty 1x
IGentlemen*
IOpenness 1x
TUTH *2.5 mcg

Fixing broken links:
Every so often, I come across a broken link. To get you to where you need to go, try this fix… remove the ‘folder’ from the link to convert it to the new format.

Broken link looks like this:
“An Introduction to Mones: Names, Size, Strength, Use, Effects & Duration - #3 by SteveO”

New link looks like this:
“An Introduction to Mones: Names, Size, Strength, Use, Effects & Duration - #3 by SteveO”

I will update this as I need to.

pudleduk

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wow you put together a really nice guide for some us thank you

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Had my first negative hit this Saturday. Outdoor vending event locally. The weather was warm, slight wind, sunny and 70 degrees; couldn’t have asked for a better day in Maine!
Arrived at the event with my kids and dog. We have a Japanese Spitz, who is always a crowd pleaser.
I was wearing:
20 mcg P96
2 sprays of 1x Ammo
2 drops of A314

Shortly after arriving, a troubled teen happened upon us and struck up a conversation about my dog, as many do… She told me how she had one just like him, but soon, her story changed to two dogs she had. They even had names. Rolling with conversation, she asked if I was from the area, and I told her, I’d only been here for a few years, and mentioned home town. I soon wished I hadn’t, since she had connections to there, a mental health facility in that town. She started telling me about a pastor who had taken her in as a teen there, but he’s a cop also, and his she wished that she could get in touch with him again. He was gonna adopt her, y’know, but the fees were too high. Now she is here, and homeless, no friends… She’s 18 now she says, then says a young 19… She looked maybe 20 though… At any rate, you get the picture. After 15 minutes of trying to hear her out and give advice, I thought it best to politely wish her all the best and make my way into the crowd.
It seemed like it was a good plan, but I soon realized she was never far behind. She kept popping up everywhere I moved to. Not right beside be, but she was always within view. Not sure if this was consciously happening on her part, since I never caught her lerking or staring at me, but she was clearly right at hand MO matter where I moved in the event.
At one point, she approached as if to start another conversation, but quickly said “fancy meeting you here…” as she walked past, sliding her hand across my chest.
Ok, I’m done, time to clear out. I steared as far from the event as possible, and was successful in ditching her.
Pudleduk

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At work hit:
I’ve been wearing 3 drops of A314 for the past week. On Friday during a morning meeting, I seated myself between two female coworkers. Nothing obvious occured, during the quick 15 minute meeting.
Today, Monday I get to the meeting, and one of the two ladies kept making some quick glances at me through the meeting. At the end of the day, she made a point to wish me a good night, and tell me I should be getting out of work to enjoy the unseasonably nice weather today. She has barely said two words to me in the past six months she has been here, but today she made a point to stop and chat.
:wink:
Also this morning a male co-worker stopped in to ask my advice about a pain he has had in his back. I have a great chiropractor that I gave him a business card for. No one ever stops to chat me up; I keep to myself most of the time, and usually no one seeks me out. Slowly but surely, this is changing on a daily basis. I had expected mones to be a light-switch of sorts; put them on and things happen. But I’m coming to the conclusion that repeated but subtle exposure is working best for me.
Maybe tomorrow I’ll try 4 drops, since it’s felt pretty stable on me at 3 drops, but I should test a little more…
pudleduk

16

Monday night I arrived home and after a shower, I applied 40mcg TAC and 20mcg P96 to my neck and say down to relax in front of the TV with my sweetie. She was soon in a cuddling mood, and after the tv show was done, we retired to the bedroom. Within a few moments of hitting the bed, she was out like a light, although curled in to me strongly. It was proabably a combination of the 40mcg of TAC and the late hour of the day. I, on the other-hand, couldn’t get to sleep at all. it was after 1am before I finally drifted off, only to have to let the dog out part way through the evening, and then up again for my next workday at 5:30am. Not my best night’s sleep.
Last night, I applied 20mcg TAC and 20mcg P96, again to my neck. Again my hunny and I enjoyed a loving, cuddly evening together, but this time we headed to the bedroom early, and found ourselves in a deep lovemaking session, which ended absolutely wonderfully.
My TAC and P96 is at 20mcg/spray. I think 20mcg TAC may be the limit I can use, as I think I’ve put her to sleep inadvertently a couple of other times with this. I haven’t tried the P96 alone yet, so I’ll be looking for an opportunity to try that.
pudleduk

17

Wednesday evening found me at a middle school band concert for my son. Also in attendance was my sweetheart, my Mom and Step father, as well as my ex and her boyfriend. I was hoping to get to see how my ex and her BF would treat me when I had mones applied, but unfortunately, never got close enough to actually have a conversation with them really. Had I come up with a good excuse to seek them out, I would have done so, but nothing good came to mind, and I was caught up in conversations with my family and sweetie anyhow…
For this event, I applied:
1 spray AMMO to each side of my neck, and another to the back of my neck
layered on 1 spray of IO to each side of neck
1 drop of A314 to each forearm

Actually I did have a quick exposure to the ex’s BF, since I opened the door to the high school for him, as my partner and I arrived at the same moment as he did purely by synchronicity. He’s a nice enough guy, never given me much trouble. We said our hellos and how-are-you’s, but once through the door, he made a double-quick bee-line to find the ex. I don’t know if this was due to the A314, or just that he didn’t want to find himself talking to me. Either was it was a little strange atypical for him, or my ex for that matter; they both tend to be a little standoff-ish.
My Mom and Step Father arrived shortly after and we stood in line waiting for the auditorium to open for the concert and chatted away. I didn’t notice any obvious hits from anyone else waiting in line, although, I didn’t make any attempt to start any conversations with them, or catch anyone’s eye, so I suppose I shouldn’t expect to.
My sweetie was on the huggy/clingy side while in line and in our seats, which was different in public, and certainly nice. She seems to very slowly be warming up to the mones each time I apply them…
We were all chatty, catching up with the news and stories of the week. I found it easier than usual to carry on the conversations. Thoughts and ideas seemed to flow easily for me, which isn’t always true.
It was a nice evening out, and the concert was great. It was fun to see my son’s 6th grade band had progressed and improved drastically since their winter concert; what a difference a few months make!
After the concert, we had a few moments with my son to congratulate him on him for the great concert. The ex and BF came to collect him him after a few minutes and they walked right past us, basically ignoring that we were there, no niceties at all, but I’m ok with that.
Tonight I have a dinner party to arrive to that my sweetie is hosting at home. I known friend and 3 unknowns will join sweetie and I. The food I’m sure will be terrific, but I wonder how the company will be. I’ll likely go for the MX297, IO, and IG combo that worked so well at the last dinner party, although I doubt this party will be the same happy vibe the other one was. This one is semi-formal work-related party, so maybe I’ll tweak this up a bit. decisions, decisions… :smiley:
I placed an order yesterday to build up my stock. Nearly out of AMMO, and I have liked it well, so that had to be on the list. I was hoping that a 2x strength would come out before I ordered since I always seem to put this on in 2’s normally, but no luck, maybe next order I’ll get that. So the order was:
1 lg Ammo Summer
1 togo CTTM
30ml P74 2.5mcg in 6% Neroli
1 togo IJ
it says they have tacked on a P122 5mcg in 6% Neroli to the order as a special also, although I hadn’t figured I qualified for that. If it arrives, I’ll certainly put it to the test!
With a nice little stockpile going now, I am feeling better about going for some proper testing in graduated increments. With just the introductory pack, it was clear I only had a certain amount of time/applications to experiment with, so I would either wait and hold back from applying these, in fear that they wouldn’t actually get exposed to anyone, or I would add several at a time in search of trying to make something happen. With more options on hand, I think I can apply them, and not give a care if no one but me actually takes them in, since there will always be another day.
Lastly,
I did give a try for 4 drops of A314 for the past few days, but I get the feeling this is too oppressive for those around me. This would be great if I needed a commanding presence, but is completely unnecessary and a bit inconstant for a mr. nice-guy like myself at work. A little has done wonders for me, both in self-effects and added respect at work, but I know this can be overdone. I’m moving back to 2 drop for today, and I guy co-worker seeked me out to sit next to me in a meeting today, as did the female co-worker mentioned in the previous post above. Usually other chairs fill up before anyone sits next to me, since I’m a bigger guy, (not that I’m ugly or smelly or anything, that just how it seems to work…) but clearly this has changed over the past several weeks, which has me honing my social skills more, which I have desperately needed to do since forever. Thanks for pushing me mones!
pudleduk

18

So for the dinner party mentioned above, I did go with MX297, IO, and IG, but added 20mcg of P96 as I try to get a read on this mone.

1 Spray of MX297 back of neck
1 Spray IO on each forearm
1 Spray IG on either side of my neck
1 spray 20mcg P96 on my adam’s apple
The guests were not as I had anticipated, rather than my sweetie, 1 friend and 3 unknowns, it turned out to be my sweetie with 4 unknowns, 1 female and 3 males.
Each of them were pleasant people. Age ranged from mid 30’s to mid 50’s.
Conversations was fine to start with. We enjoyed some quick appetizers. Everyone wanted selzer to drink, even though my hunny had made some ice tea special for the occasion, and there was wine and beer offered. It seemed this crew wanted things to stay mostly on the formal end of the spectrum. As dinner, I felt myself falling out of the conversations. people weren’t talking about work; it was mostly stories about where they each grew up, and their adventures as kids. I couldn’t find any thoughts to relate somehow. I listened intently, and responded when asked questions directly; stayed part of the conversation, but imo just barely. I wasn’t feeling the IO at all with this mix. There were several lulls in conversation during dinner too. This was certainly a different vibe then the fun dinner party we had a few weeks back, where my sides ended up hurting from laughter.
Saturday I attended an outdoor BBQ with some coworkers. Here I had
2 drops of A314 rubbed between the forearms
1 spray of AMMO to both sides of my neck
1 spray of IO to both sides of my neck
With this mix, I was having fun, and was personable, but no clear hits to speak of. It was an outdoor BBQ though, and the wind was not overpowering, but constant.
Sunday had 2 friends over for dinner. the mix here was
1 drop of A314 rubbed on the back of hands
1 Spray of IG on both sides of neck
1 spray of AMMO on back of neck.
Both guests seemed fairly tired from the start. One was heavily jet-lagged after a long overseas trip he had just arrived back from the day prior. He wife was exhausted from helping to set up arrangements for her son’s coming wedding. From the mones, no clear hits from the guests, but it was likely due to their fatigue. My sweetie had been in an understandably poor mood all day, as this was the anniversary of her Dad’s passing, a hard day for her every year, however her mood markedly lifted once I applied the mones.
Still learning, still applying. :wink:
pudleduk

19

After work, I headed to the Monday night bar spot, and decided to go only with 1 spray TUTH rubbed into the back of my hands, just to see if I could get any response, positive or negative. Once through the doors, I quickly realized I should have gone for more, since it seemed to be the perfect test platform; one pretty lady quietly sitting by herself looking over the food menu, 3 open seats away, another PYT attempting to ignore a loud regular seated next to her by looking at her phone, another table of 2 ladies behind the open seats!
I took my place in the middle and ordered a beer.
The barkeep was excited to see me; I was running late, and she figured I wouldn’t be in this day. She hadn’t been this talkative to me since I last came in wearing TUTH a few weeks ago. The past two weeks it was only with AMMO, and she was pleasant, but not so talkative. The last time I had TUTH on, I was wearing 4 sprays AMMO and 1 Spray TUTH, and that worked like magic for me. This time with 1 spray TUTH, she had a good response, so TUTH is certainly working on her here. She was more animated with the AMMO added to the mix though, but it was nice to have tried the 3 combinations through the weeks on her and gauge each response.
As for the lady sitting to my right ordering food, she never turned my way, and kept her long hair obscuring her eyes.
The ladies at the table behind me never batted an eyelash to me, even though I spun around to them a few times. The lady next to the loud talker on my left looked revealed when he had to leave the bar, but she never looked up from the phone. She also never ordered food or a drink, so maybe she was out of place, didn’t want to be there, maybe waiting for a worker to be done.
On my way home, I added 1 more spray of TUTH on each side of my neck, letting it mellow out over the 1.5hr ride home. We were in bed shortly, but sadly only for sleep. I did wake up to her gripping my hand and nuzzling into my app point on my neck overnite, which doesn’t typically happen. Tried to get her started in the morning, but the allergy medicine she takes had pretty much sedated her, and it wasn’t until I was late for work and getting out of bed, that she decided she was awake enough to give me a morning hug at least.
There’s always tonight. :wink:
pudleduk

20

Still on my quest to reconnect with my girl J and liven things back up in the bedroom. Still not fully there, but I am seeing some light at the end of the tunnel here. I recieved a new order for AD.
IJ, CTTM, AMMO Summer and P74.
The first day this arrived, I applied 3 drops of A314, added 5mcg of P74 to each side of my neck for a total of 10mcg. We took a walk around the neighborhood, and chatted about our days events, nothing big. Once we arrived back home for the evening, J was busy composing a project for work, while I sat with her on the couch surfing the pheromonetalk forum. When she was nearly done, she suddenly became more playful with me. She even smacked me in the ass when I got up form the couch at one point. At bedtime, feeling lucky, I added on 20mcg of TAC and we climbed into bed. My luck didn’t hold though; I tried to keep up the playfulness, which can be difficult since she always spends the last 30 hour in bed updating herself on FB. Once under the covers, and with the lights off, in moments she was asleep.
The next morning, she was much more receptive to me, and we got something started, but shortly into it, the dog decided it was playtime for him too, and this quickly spoiled everything from my standpoint. I gave in to the frustration and gave up on the intimate time. I’m feeling continually frustrated with my situation, and felt like maybe my best option was to back out, (no pun intended, ) and perhaps the lack of follow through would help be a cause for desire on J’s part. Not sure if that will have worked, but that was the thought I had when I pushed the abort button. I came home and with 2 drops of A314 and 5mcg of P76, and the playfulness was there again. Unfortunately, shark week has now begun, so I’m shut out again for now, (not that it bothers me, but it does her she says…)
I’ve come to the realization I’m the only one who ever initiates sex, and usually I’m shot down or fallen asleep on.
I suppose I should be more aggressive and assertive.
Still, in my head I’m getting the urge to just shut down completely, and be like, “Fine, I’ll just stop initiating all together, and see how long it takes her to realize something is wrong.” As much as I would like to do this, I realize this will only compound the situation. In the end, I need to actually have a conversation with her and find out where we have gone astray.
We used to be intimate every night we were together. It was always J’s mission to keep this up when we were dating, since this was something she said her parents always felt was an important part of their relationship. Honestly, this was a little excessive for me, I didn’t ever need this to be a daily occurrence, (although I never complained) We even had some illicit playtime outside of some concerts before getting into the car few few times. This girl had been hot, hot, hot, at least from my standards.
This was the regular setup, but this all changed abruptly on move-in day, and now I’m lucky once if its once a week, but it is typically once per 2 to 3 weeks. Even the kissing stopped; now I feel like I have to force her for a deep kiss, this is so odd to me that it was a flip of a switch…
When we moved it, it was complete chaos for us both. The move was hard, difficult to coordinate and had to happen all inside of labor day weekend two years ago. Directly after the move, we both had crazy work schedules to keep for the next 6 months, so I thought it was that at first. In the winter, we added the puppy, and then I though maybe the stress of the puppy was the cause this continued. Then I started to feel like maybe it was me doing something wrong, or maybe it was just that she no longer feels the need to work at the relationship? I suppose I won’t know until I ask. I keep thinking I can find the magic bullet to spark things with us again, one of the bullets being pheromones, and I can see they have power, but I need to work more on the communication part for these to take effect, and that’s where I’m going wrong.
The A314, along with some posts I have read in p51mustang’s journal from SteveO and Jasmin have me realizing I need to man up and be the Alpha in the relationship rather than be the beta to her Alpha, and for this reason I think is why I pressed the abort on yesterday morning sex; I wanted to have her come to me, not the other way around.
I may be completely wrong in my thought process here, and I’ll likely pay for it somehow if I am
:slight_smile:
but rather than J controlling the lock on the chastity belt, I may try showing her I hold the key…
Any advice for me is appreciated, let me know if you think I am off my rocker :slight_smile:
She is an amazing lady in all other aspects of our life, and I’d never back out of our relationship because of this one aspect, but it seems that she was hot,hot, hot before, I should at least be able to get luke-warm from her again…
pudleduk